Drugs
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I get to know myself every weekend and I'm weak
Every week, I use drugs to explore and understand my true self, but my dependency on them shows my weakness.

Hangovers feel good when I know it's the last one
When I know I won't be using drugs for a while, the physical pain of withdrawal feels satisfying because it marks a temporary end to my addiction.

Then I feel so good that I have another one
Ironically, once the withdrawal pain is over, I crave drugs again and end up using them once more.

Last Friday, I took acid and mushrooms
I recently experimented with hallucinogens such as LSD and magic mushrooms.

I did not transcend, I felt like a walking piece of shit
Despite the popular belief that hallucinogens provide spiritual transcendence, they often leave me feeling like a worthless, insignificant human being.

In a stupid looking jacket
The jacket I wore while on drugs was ridiculous or embarrassing.

And I walked around town and felt like I was in Sodom
While under the influence of drugs, I perceived the world around me as sinful, immoral or disgusting.

There were filthy people seeking comfort for their bodies
In my altered state of mind, I saw people indulging in pleasures and satisfying their physical desires in a distasteful or shameful way.

It was so obscene
The whole experience felt vulgar or offensive.

Filled with loathing and religious fervor
I felt both disgust and intense religiosity at the same time.

I laid on my friend's bedroom floor for an hour
I spent a significant amount of time lying down, possibly because of the drugs' effects.

And tried not to piss my pants
I had trouble controlling my bodily functions, possibly because of the drugs' effects.

And then I saw Jesus
During my drug-induced hallucinations, I believed I saw the religious figure, Jesus.

And he said "Who are you to go against the word of my father?" And "Who are you? The scum of the Earth"
In my hallucination, Jesus criticized my drug use and told me that I was unworthy.

No we are just, we are just, we are just teens of style
Despite our flaws and issues with drugs and addiction, we are merely teenagers trying to find our identities and make a statement.

There were people getting drunk, there were people getting high
At the event I attended, many people were using drugs and alcohol.

They were falling to pieces right before my eyes
The effects of drug and alcohol use were clearly visible and causing harm to the people around me.

And I said "Mmhmm" a lot (mmhmm)
I did not fully engage in conversations, likely because of my altered state of mind.

And there was one guy there who kept asking me "How does it feel?" (Asking me, "Are you sure")
Another attendee was curious about my experience with drugs and kept asking me probing questions.

And I didn't even know how to begin to answer that question ("You don't want to talk about what you're experiencing right now?")
I was unable to articulate or describe my drug experience to the other person.

So I just said "I don't want to talk about it" (And I just said "no")
To avoid further conversation or scrutiny, I refused to discuss my drug use.

So there I was, just another shitbag civilian
I felt like a worthless, insignificant person who was just going through the motions of life.

Afraid of the cops when I was outside, afraid of my friends when I was inside
I constantly felt apprehensive and paranoid, fearing both authority figures and people close to me.

And I grew tired of the scene
Eventually, I became fed up with the drug scene and its destructive nature.

And then my dad showed up And he was like "Who are you to go against the word of our fathers?" It goes "Who are you? The scum of the Earth"
In another drug-induced hallucination, my father criticized my drug use and reminded me of my worthlessness.

No we are just, we are just, we are just teens of style
Despite the criticisms and issues surrounding drugs, we are still just teenagers trying to express ourselves and navigate the world.

No we are just, we are just victims of the contemporary style
Our drug use and addiction can be seen as a result of societal and cultural factors.

Yes we are just, we are just, we are just, we are just going along with the modern styles
We are participating in contemporary culture and its patterns, which may include drug use.

And now everybody, everybody, everybody's going along with the modern style
Drug use and addiction have become normalized and accepted in contemporary culture.

Drugs are better, drugs are better with Friends are better, friends are better with
Despite the destructive effects of drugs, they are often associated with having fun and socializing.

Drugs are better than friends Are better than drugs Are better than friends Are better than drugs (Drugs are better than friends) Are better than friends (Are better with drugs) Are better than drugs (Are better with friends) Are better than friends (Are better than)
There is a cycle of addiction and dependence with drugs, where they can be seen as better than friendships or vice versa depending on the context.