He found his passion for music when he was 12 years old when his cousin let him borrow their acoustic guitar, with which n,n. covered popular emo songs.
He went through school going to and from bands, most of them never getting anywhere. While attending college, he started focusing on his own music, and then the name “nothing,nowhere.” was born. The inspiration for his music comes from blending more of the “heavier hip-hop elements” with “organic instruments,” while the inspiration for his stage name came from philosopher Alan Watts.
Since the inception of nothing,nowhere., he has released four full-lengths—Trauma Factory from 2021, ruiner from 2018, Reaper from 2017, and the nothing,nowhere. lp from 2015—as well as three EPs; BLOODLUST from 2019, bummer from 2015 and Who Are You? from 2016. He has also released many singles, including the popular “Deadbeat Valentine” and “Twenty Something."
He has also released material such as the demo. EP in 2013 and never,forever. EP under the never,forever. name in 2016.
Though some people falsely think that nothing,nowhere. is more than one person, he has on several occasions announced that he is a solo act with touring musicians.
I've Been Doing Well
nothingnowhere. Lyrics
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A few dollars in my wallet
I've been doing well
I've been working overtime
Couple cars in my garage
Can you see me now
I wonder what you're running from
Can we talk it out
And at night i go to bed
I see the reaper in my head
Won't you kill me now
Seeing through these curtains
Spending too much time in my bed
Only thing i know now
I've got too much time on my hands
You've got too much blood on yours
You got what you asked for
Time to grow up
Get a real job
5: 35 at the bus stop
Heard they got benefits
And it's evident
That you got what it takes
To get to the top
Know you been going through things
But you can feel better when the money comes in
And every night you can question your life
While you stare at the ceiling
No fucking feelings
Bringin it bringin it back to the good ol' days
To the run down park where we used to skate
Paul and connor john bert and lopez
Not one day did i feel this hopeless (god damn)
And they try to get me to go to therapy, please
No human alive could revive my mind
Would you think it's a lie
If i said i was fine
A couple quarters in my pocket
A few dollars in my wallet
I've been doing well
I've been working overtime
Couple cars in my garage
Can you see me now
Haven't heard from you in months
I wonder what you're running from
Can we talk it out
And at night i go to bed
I see the reaper in my head
Won't you kill me now
Swear to god i've been tryin
I've been just finding
All of the things that i keep in my mind
But i can't even write them
Let alone say it
I'm losing my mind while i'm losing my patience
At the end of the day i'm amazed
At the pain you'll sustain for a paycheck
So it's back to the basics
I'm picturing life when the music don't pay
In an all black acura
Got the kids in the back and the wife in the passenger
Man i've been spectacular
Got my own office and a gun in the cabinet
See i'm think about blasting it
Leave a stain on the wall near the frame of my bachelor's
The lyrics in "I've Been Doing Well" by Nothingnowhere. delve deep into the struggles of life and the toll it can take on an individual. The first verse talks about how the singer has some money and material things, but he still feels empty and is haunted by the thought of the reaper. He also wonders why he hasn't heard from someone he cares about in months and wants to clear things up with them. The second verse addresses the idea that people need to find a job to grow up, but the singer highlights the pain and struggles that come with working for a paycheck.
It seems that the singer is battling with himself, unable to write down or speak about the thoughts he's having. He acknowledges the pain people endure for a paycheck, but he's not sure he's able to commit to that way of living. The closing lines of the song take a dark turn, as the singer imagines his life with a wife and kids in the back of his car and a gun in his cabinet.
The song exposes how money, material possessions, and even a seemingly successful life can't fill the void that exists in the human heart. It emphasizes the importance of speaking out and seeking help when we're struggling.
Line by Line Meaning
A couple quarters in my pocket
I have a little bit of money on me
A few dollars in my wallet
I have some cash in my wallet
I've been doing well
Overall, I've been doing good and feeling okay
I've been working overtime
I've been working extra hours
Couple cars in my garage
I have a few cars
Can you see me now
Are you aware of my success?
Haven't heard from you in months
We haven't spoken in a long time
I wonder what you're running from
I'm curious about why you haven't contacted me
Can we talk it out
Can we discuss whatever caused our distance?
And at night I go to bed
When I go to sleep
I see the reaper in my head
I feel like I'm surrounded by death and sadness
Won't you kill me now
I wish everything would just end
Seeing through these curtains
Looking through window curtains
Spending too much time in my bed
I'm staying in bed too much
Only thing I know now
The only thing I'm certain of
I've got too much time on my hands
I have too much free time
You've got too much blood on yours
You've done some bad things in the past
You got what you asked for
You brought this upon yourself
Time to grow up
It's time to mature
Get a real job
Find a career
5: 35 at the bus stop
Waiting for the bus
Heard they got benefits
I've heard there are benefits to this job
And it's evident
It's clear
That you got what it takes
You have the skills for the job
To get to the top
To succeed
Know you've been going through things
I'm aware of the struggles you've faced
But you can feel better when the money comes in
The income will help you feel better
And every night you can question your life
Every night you reflect on your life's choices
While you stare at the ceiling
Lying in bed, looking up at the ceiling
No fucking feelings
Feeling numb, emotionless
Bringin it bringin it back to the good ol' days
Remembering the good times
To the run down park where we used to skate
The old skatepark we used to frequent
Paul and Connor, John, Bert and Lopez
The people I used to hang out with
Not one day did I feel this hopeless (god damn)
Back then, I never felt as low as I do now
And they try to get me to go to therapy, please
People suggest therapy to me, but I don't want to go
No human alive could revive my mind
No one can fix my mental state
Would you think it's a lie
Do you think I'm not being truthful?
If I said I was fine
If I claimed to be okay?
Swear to God, I've been tryin
I've really been trying
I've been just finding
I'm discovering
All of the things that I keep in my mind
Revealing the thoughts I keep to myself
But I can't even write them
I'm struggling to express my thoughts
Let alone say it
I can't even speak them out loud
I'm losing my mind while I'm losing my patience
I'm becoming increasingly restless and frustrated
At the end of the day, I'm amazed
Despite everything, I'm still surprised
At the pain you'll sustain for a paycheck
The amount of discomfort one will endure for money
So it's back to the basics
I need to start over
I'm picturing life when the music don't pay
Imagining life when I can't make money from music
In an all black Acura
Driving a black car
Got the kids in the back and the wife in the passenger
My family is with me in the car
Man, I've been spectacular
I've accomplished a lot
Got my own office and a gun in the cabinet
I have my own office and keep a gun in there
See, I'm thinkin' 'bout blastin' it
I'm considering using the gun
Leave a stain on the wall near the frame of my bachelor's
Leaving a mark of my bachelors degree on the wall
Contributed by Camilla R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@azzans
There are many things in life that hurt.
Regret is a scary one.
But even worse is the fear of regretting.
The fear that something won't be worth it.
And that something will be wrong.
That somewhere in your life, you're going to fuck up so bad that you'll feel as though you wasted all your time unto that point.
So all you gotta know is.
Pain is something beautiful too.
Just because you're living doesn't mean that you're not dying.
We're dying and living at the same time.
Regrets are deep, they expand what we feel.
Without regret we couldn't appreciate happiness
I know a lot of you know this already.
But sometimes I feel like people should remember it.
If you weren't so sad, if you couldn't cry.
Then what's the point of being happy?
If you couldn't feel every feeling, even the bad ones.
What's the point of living, without dying?
Also, when the dude is typing at 0:37, LOL FK IM GOING TO CRY
@FeeLThEMUsicYouRWAy
Is there still anyone lying on bed, reminiscing memories with this song after 8 years passed? Thought i was over shit that i've been through but seems like it would never go away and i am just trying not to think about it. This song is more than everything said in the verse, everytime i listen to this closing my eyes i feel like the whole past time scenes playing in my head, where i was hanging out with those neighbour kids who are now drugs addicts and criminals, when my grandpa was carrying me on his bike to school, making joke of me that i was fat like a piggy, he committed suicide 7 years ago leaving me completely numbless that i didnt know what to do and how to feel. Idk but sometimes my mind would reminisce the past automatically and i couldnt control haha. It's the midnight sitting at a coffee shop working overnight and youtube just lead me to this old fav song made me wanna "gossip" but i have nobody so im just writing down here.
I hope y'all now have a wonderful life as how y'all deserve. Stay safe and take care <3
@trudye
i hope you're doing alright man. i think most who once heard and liked this masterpiece of a song, occasionally comes back to it. stay strong my g.
@HaloAngelBoy
This song isnt just about hating your job. Its about regretting choosing to leave the things that actually matter behind for things that dont. The lyrics says good times skateboarding with his friends, with the people he's bonded to was traded for a good wage and benefits. But whats the benefit if, in search of healthcare, we dont care for our hearts? All the markings of a made life is only going to make a life of regret. Dont just grab life by the horns , also grab everyone you love and never let go.
@hakredcadder7212
You know what sucks about life? Even if you hold on to those you love the most, that doesnt mean that they wont let go. Sometimes we lose the people we need the most, just because they dont need us, even though were trying our hardest to keep them by our side.
@TrevorEst1994
Mike Graf this shit is about never being happy. Period
@xoxbamitzashlee
Yung Ghost im going through a bad time right now and I was reading your comment like nodding my head, and then I just stared at the phrase. And I laughed, actual chuckles cus memes.
@macofficial58
Easy to say , hard to do when you already pushed away a lot of people you loved ...
@MrMario2011
Hope you have a good day, Mike.
@ianballard6082
I met the older guy a few months back when he was buying something from the store i work at, he was a super nice guy and was really excited when i told him i saw him in this video.. surprisingly he lives not too far away from me.. pretty cool tbh
@csgokyle5120
in vt right?