He found his passion for music when he was 12 years old when his cousin let him borrow their acoustic guitar, with which n,n. covered popular emo songs.
He went through school going to and from bands, most of them never getting anywhere. While attending college, he started focusing on his own music, and then the name “nothing,nowhere.” was born. The inspiration for his music comes from blending more of the “heavier hip-hop elements” with “organic instruments,” while the inspiration for his stage name came from philosopher Alan Watts.
Since the inception of nothing,nowhere., he has released four full-lengths—Trauma Factory from 2021, ruiner from 2018, Reaper from 2017, and the nothing,nowhere. lp from 2015—as well as three EPs; BLOODLUST from 2019, bummer from 2015 and Who Are You? from 2016. He has also released many singles, including the popular “Deadbeat Valentine” and “Twenty Something."
He has also released material such as the demo. EP in 2013 and never,forever. EP under the never,forever. name in 2016.
Though some people falsely think that nothing,nowhere. is more than one person, he has on several occasions announced that he is a solo act with touring musicians.
i'm sorry i'm trying
nothingnowhere. Lyrics
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I'm sorry that my heads always a mess
I'm sorry that I missed your call
Gor the third time in a row
I promise that I care much more than I show
Don't get carried away, no
I'll only let you down
Certain circumstances got me feeling low
Don't take it personally
Talk some sense into me
I've been feeling senseless
Acting selfish
Hate myself so fucking much
I'm out of touch
But I can see through all the lies
That they've been selling me
Quit telling me you know they know what's best for me
My patience being tested see
In the parking lot of the high school
That I went to
Thought I hated it
But its real shit when your friends leave
And you're back home
With the same dreams
On the same street
All of the things that I've taken for granted
Is now everything that I wish hadn't ended
All that I hated is now what I miss
Ain't that a bitch
I'm sorry that I can't get out of bed
I'm sorry that my heads always a mess
I'm sorry that I missed your call
For the third time in a row
I promise that I care much more than I show
The lyrics to "i'm sorry i'm trying" by nothingnowhere. present a heart-wrenching portrayal of someone struggling with their mental health and the guilt associated with it. The opening lines, "I'm sorry that i can't get out of bed / I'm sorry that my heads always a mess," immediately set the tone for the rest of the song. The singer is apologizing for something that they can't fully control, and there is a sense of sadness and hopelessness in their words. The repetition of "I'm sorry" emphasizes their feelings of guilt and self-blame, despite their genuine efforts to improve their situation.
As the song continues, the lyrics reveal a sense of isolation and disconnection from others. The line, "Don't get carried away, no / I'll only let you down," suggests that the singer is reluctant to let anyone get too close to them, fearing that they will inevitably disappoint them. They acknowledge the impact their actions have on others, like missing phone calls, but simultaneously feel powerless to change their behavior. The lyrics also touch on the complex emotions that come with returning to a place of nostalgia, like the singer's high school. Although they may have once hated it, they now feel a sense of loss and yearning for the past.
Overall, "i'm sorry i'm trying" is an emotional and vulnerable portrayal of mental health struggles and the impact they have on personal relationships. The lyrics highlight the complexity of navigating mental illness and the guilt and shame that often accompany it.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm sorry that i can't get out of bed
I apologize for my inability to get out of bed due to my mental health struggles and exhaustion.
I'm sorry that my heads always a mess
I apologize for my scattered thoughts and constant inner chaos that makes it difficult for me to function properly.
I'm sorry that I missed your call
I apologize for being absent-minded and not being available to speak with you when you wanted to.
Gor the third time in a row
I missed your call three times in a row which makes me feel even more guilty and sorry for my behavior.
I promise that I care much more than I show
Despite my lack of outward expression, I truly care about you and our relationship more than I can put into words.
Don't get carried away, no
Please don't have high expectations of me as I may not be able to meet them.
I'll only let you down
I fear that I will disappoint you and fail to live up to your expectations, so proceed with caution.
Certain circumstances got me feeling low
There are specific situations in my life that placed me in a low emotional state which I am struggling to overcome.
Don't take it personally
Please don't take my mood and actions personally as it is not a reflection of your worth or our relationship.
Talk some sense into me
I need someone to help me see things clearly and objectively as my thoughts and actions are clouded by my emotions.
I've been feeling senseless
My thoughts and actions lack purpose or meaning, making me feel detached from reality.
Acting selfish
I have been prioritizing my own needs and desires over those of others, which is causing me to feel even more isolated and guilty.
Hate myself so fucking much
I have an intense dislike for myself and my actions which is further contributing to my negative mental state.
I'm out of touch
I feel disconnected from myself, others, and the world around me due to my mental health struggles.
But I can see through all the lies
Despite feeling lost and disconnected, I am able to see the falsehoods and negativity that are being projected onto me by others.
That they've been selling me
Others are trying to manipulate and control me by feeding me false ideas and ideals.
Quit telling me you know they know what's best for me
Please stop trying to tell me what is best for me as no one knows me better than I know myself.
My patience being tested see
I am being pushed to my limits and my endurance is being tested due to the challenges I am facing.
In the parking lot of the high school
I am reminiscing about my past and the memories I have at the high school I attended.
That I went to
This is the high school that holds a lot of significance to me and my history.
Thought I hated it
At one point I believed that I disliked the high school and everything that came with it.
But its real shit when your friends leave
The true pain and sadness comes when you lose the friends and connections you once had at that place.
And you're back home
Returning home to the same place and community after leaving can be difficult and emotional.
With the same dreams
Despite the passage of time, I still hold onto the same dreams and aspirations that I had when I was younger.
On the same street
My life seems to be stuck in the same routine and pattern as it was when I was in high school, which can be both comforting and frustrating.
All of the things that I've taken for granted
I have come to realize that I have overlooked and not appreciated many aspects of my life that I now miss dearly.
Is now everything that I wish hadn't ended
I regret not cherishing and holding on to what I had before it was gone, and now I deeply wish that those things had not ended.
All that I hated is now what I miss
I have come to realize that those things I despised and rejected in my past are the things I long for and miss now.
Ain't that a bitch
The irony of it all is not lost on me as I reflect on the contradictions of my emotions and experiences.
Contributed by Aaliyah K. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@svffer
lyrics
i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess
i'm sorry that i missed your call
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show
don't get carried away, no
i'll only let you down
certain circumstances got me feeling low
don't take it personally
talk some sense into me
i’ve been feeling senseless
acting selfish
hate myself so fucking much
i’m out of touch
but i can see through all the lies
that they’ve been selling me
quit telling me you know they know what's best for me
my patience being tested see
in the parking lot of the high school
that i went to
thought i hated it
but its real shit when your friends leave
and you're back home
with the same dreams
on the same street
all of the things that i’ve taken for granted
is now everything that i wish hadn’t ended
all that i hated is now what i miss
ain't that a bitch
i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess
i'm sorry that i missed your call
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show
@silversunpickups100
In spanish xD:
Lo siento, estoy tratando
Lo siento que no pueda salir de cama
Lo siento que mi cabeza fuera un desastre
Lo siento que me haye perdido tu llamada
por tercera vez consecutiva.
Prometo que me preocupo mucho mas de lo que muestro ahora
No te dejes llevar, no
Yo sere el unico que te defraudara
Ciertas circunstancias me hicieron sentir deprimido
No lo tomes personal
Hablame con un poco mas de sentimiento, me he estado sintiendo insensible
Actuando con egoismo, odiandome a mi mismo un culo, estoy fuera de toque
Pero puedo ver a traves de todas las mentiras que ellos me iban vendiendo
Deja de decirme que sabes que ellos saben que es lo mejor para mi
Mi paciencia ha sido probada, ves...
En el estacionamiento del colegio al que fui
A pesar de odiarlo, sin embargo es real esta mierda cuando tus amigos se fueron
Y tu estas devuelta a casa con los mismo sueños
En la misma calle
Todas las cosas que las tomaba por sentado son el ahora
Todas las cosas que deseo aun no han terminado
Todo lo que odiaba es ahora lo que extraño
No es una perra?
Lo siento que no pueda salir de cama
Lo siento que mi cabeza fuera un desastre
Lo siento que me haye perdido tu llamada
por tercera vez consecutiva.
Prometo que me preocupo mucho mas de lo que muestro ahora
@draing5953
lyrics
[Hook]
I'm sorry that I can't get out of bed
I'm sorry that my heads always a mess
I'm sorry that I missed your call
For the third time in a row
I promise that I care much more than I show
[Verse]
Don't get carried away, no
I'll only let you down
Certain circumstances got me feeling low
Don't take it personally
Talk some sense into me, I’ve been feeling senseless
Acting selfish, hate myself so fucking much, I’m out of touch
But I can see through all the lies that they’ve been selling me
Quit telling me you know they know what's best for me
My patience being tested, see
In the parking lot of the high school that I went to
Thought I hated it, but it's real shit when your friends leave
And you're back home with the same dreams
On the same street
All of the things that I’ve taken for granted is now
Everything that I wish hadn’t ended
All that I hated is now what I miss
Ain't that a bitch
[Hook]
I'm sorry that I can't get out of bed
I'm sorry that my heads always a mess
I'm sorry that I missed your call
For the third time in a row
I promise that I care much more than I show
@TheKakaoSuchti
i need a hug now... but no one is here :(
@timothyjordan1827
I'll give ya one bud. :D
@Jaenikz
bruder, wir alle brauchen eine.
@VorpalBladeOtaku
Late, but here (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ
@GuterStaudensellerie
+Jaenikz Hallo Mensch, du teilst meine Musik und spielst meine Spiele. Ich mag Dich. Bleib wie Du bist.
@ShadowInTehDarkness
I'm here. I'll hug you, but I wont let go.. You can count on me.
@TheAionic
After I graduated High School, I stayed home, thought I was the Coolest thing ever. Boy was I wrong, I became very depressed and this song is a perfect representation of every emotion I ever felt. Thank You for this song. I am in my 30's now and I am what I to be consider successful, it gets easier.
@24wellz34
TheAionic I feel you man
@WazzGucci14
TheAionic i'm in that situation right now tbh
@neiontab
TheAionic good to know