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Suffering
pill friends Lyrics
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Same as i was yesterday
Cold breath speaks kindly
Tells me to go back to sleep
Words that no one hears
Pass through paralyzed
In visions of darkness
I close my eyes
But sleep never comes
Love evades every thought
And pills nullify my restless mind
I hate myself but i couldn′t hate you
Even if i tried
Hiding in my purest failure
I attempt to understand
Why hate and love seem so different
But are one and the same
Falling out of grace i know
It'll never change
Even if i tried
The song "Suffering" by Pill Friends explores the themes of loneliness, depression, and being stuck in a vicious cycle of self-hatred. The opening lines depict the struggle of waking up every day with the same feeling of suffering and the desire to go back to sleep, as if sleep were the only escape from reality. The line "Words that no one hears pass through paralyzed," suggests that the singer feels unheard and trapped in his own body, unable to express his inner turmoil.
The second verse delves deeper into the singer's struggles with love and self-hatred. The line, "Love evades every thought and pills nullify my restless mind," refers to the use of medication as a coping mechanism for depression and anxiety, but also suggests that the singer's mind is consumed by negative thoughts, preventing any chance of finding love or happiness. The line "I hate myself but I couldn't hate you even if I tried" highlights the contrast between the singer's self-loathing and his capacity to love someone else.
The final lines of the song express the hopelessness the singer feels in trying to change his situation. "Falling out of grace I know it'll never change, even if I tried," implies that he has given up hope of ever breaking out of the cycle of suffering, which is a common theme in songs about depression and mental illness.
Overall, "Suffering" is a poignant portrayal of the difficulties faced by someone struggling with depression and self-hatred. The lyrics depict the internal battles that those with mental illness often face, the sense of isolation and helplessness, and the self-destructive tendencies that can arise as a result.
Line by Line Meaning
Waking up in suffering
Starting the day in pain and discomfort
Same as i was yesterday
No progress or improvement from the previous day
Cold breath speaks kindly
An inner voice that seems helpful but is actually harmful
Tells me to go back to sleep
Encourages avoidance and escape
Words that no one hears
Feelings and thoughts that are kept hidden and ignored
Pass through paralyzed
Feeling stuck and unable to move forward
In visions of darkness
Immersed in negative thoughts and emotions
I close my eyes
Shutting out reality and avoiding facing problems
I lay my head down to rest
Trying to find comfort but unable to
But sleep never comes
Unable to find peace or relief from suffering
Love evades every thought
Feeling unloved and unwanted
And pills nullify my restless mind
Using drugs to escape from emotions and problems
I hate myself but i couldn't hate you
Struggling with self-loathing but unable to blame others
Even if i tried
Despite efforts to change or improve
Hiding in my purest failure
Feeling ashamed and guilty about one's mistakes and shortcomings
I attempt to understand
Trying to make sense of difficult emotions and experiences
Why hate and love seem so different
Confusion about the complexity and contradictions of human emotions
But are one and the same
Realizing that love and hate can coexist and overlap
Falling out of grace i know
Feeling like a failure and disappointment
It'll never change
Feeling hopeless and resigned to suffering
Writer(s): Pill Friends
Contributed by Leah D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@thinkingdifferent9346
waking up in suffering
same as i was yesterday
cold breath speaks kindly
tells me to go back to sleep
words that no one hears
pass through paralyzed
in visions of darkness
i close my eyes
i lay my head down to rest
but sleep never comes
love evades every thought
and pills nullify my restless mind
i hate myself but i couldn’t hate you
even if i tried
hiding in my purest failure
i attempt to understand
why hate and love seem so different
but are one and the same
falling out of grace i know
it'll never change
even if i tried
@samwatson1607
R.I.P Ryan Wilson... you will be missed
@evan.elliott3175
Rest in Peace Ryan, you and the band changed my life, and losing you now feels like i lost a bit of my life
@sludgerat666
How did he die?
@hunterangstadt450
ItsCC13x I think overdose
@sludgerat666
Hunter Angstadt ah yes...hence the name
@thinkingdifferent9346
waking up in suffering
same as i was yesterday
cold breath speaks kindly
tells me to go back to sleep
words that no one hears
pass through paralyzed
in visions of darkness
i close my eyes
i lay my head down to rest
but sleep never comes
love evades every thought
and pills nullify my restless mind
i hate myself but i couldn’t hate you
even if i tried
hiding in my purest failure
i attempt to understand
why hate and love seem so different
but are one and the same
falling out of grace i know
it'll never change
even if i tried
@weedjuul6519
This band sounds like those early Bright eyes records If Conor only talked about sadness and painkillers
@robc5051
They go hand in hand... so I've heard
@Scott-gl4zz
yeah it gives off heavy letting off the happiness vibes
@Wurmstinkt
i despise life and everything about it, but at least i have music like this to accompany me until the end