I Must Apologise
pinkpantheress Lyrics


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I never wanted to cast doubt in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside on that night

Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (just a problem for me)
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said

If I could, I would make amends
Today I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I signed my name in marker pen (yeah)

I must apologize
Before I end the night

It's not a game I want to change
These days it doesn't feel the same
The way it did some years before
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more

I'm not able
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day, I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for





(I must apologize)
(Before I end the night)

Overall Meaning

In "I Must Apologise," Pinkpantheress expresses remorse for the way she's treated someone she cares about. She begins by describing her own discomfort with their recent interactions, emphasizing that she's not behaving in a way that she thinks the other person would want. She expresses confusion about why the other person seems to be acting paranoid, or mistrustful of her, and says that if they knew how she was feeling, they might understand her behavior better. However, she acknowledges that her own tendency to lie makes it difficult for her to be honest with this person, and that this is likely contributing to their current strain in their relationship. She says that she's tried to make amends, even writing a list of all the things she's done wrong, but she still feels unable to fully articulate her feelings to the other person. Ultimately, she apologizes for any pain she's caused and hopes that they can move forward.


At its core, "I Must Apologise" is a song about the difficulties of communication and honesty in relationships. The singer recognizes that she's not behaving in the way she thinks the other person wants, but she doesn't know how to bridge that gap. Her tendency to lie further complicates matters, making it difficult for her to be open and vulnerable with the other person. This tension is palpable in the song's haunting melody and sparse instrumentation, which create a sense of yearning and regret. Ultimately, the song is a reminder that we all struggle to communicate our feelings at times, but owning up to our mistakes and expressing remorse is an important step towards repairing damaged relationships.


Line by Line Meaning

I never wanted to cast out in your mind
I didn't intend to make you doubt me


I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
I know I'm not meeting your expectations


We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
Your behavior changed after dinner and now you seem worried


If only you knew the way I felt inside, I'm like
I wish you could understand my emotions, I'm struggling


Your paranoia, it happens all the time
You often experience suspicion


And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (and that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine)
I lie frequently which contributes to your mistrust


But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
Despite acknowledging the problem, I continue to lie and am now lonely


I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
I tell so many lies that I can't keep track, so I made a list


If I could I would make amends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
If possible, I would apologize and make things right


Today I wrote a list of them (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Today, I made a list of apologies


The way it starts, the way it ends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I marked how each apology begins and ends


I signed my name in marker pen (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)(yeah)
I signed my name with a marker


I must apologize
I need to say sorry


Before I end the night
Before the day is over


It's not a game I want to change (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I'm not playing games, but I do want to change


These days end up some feel the same (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Recently, days blur together and feel repetitive


The way it did some years before (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Things are similar to how they were in the past


I've lost so much, I'll lose some more (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I've already lost a lot and expect to lose more


I'm not able
I can't


To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
I can't tell you what you need, which is unfortunate


They say I should be honest more, one day I'm sure
Others advise me to be truthful more often, and I hope to do so in the future


I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
I'll discover why I feel the need to lie




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Written by: Crystal Waters, Neal Conway, Oscar Scheller, Victoria Walker

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@st20332

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Sunship, and Wookie- those two are remixers of older songs, defo worth a check out tho, youโ€™ll defo recognise one of their remixes

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@daniav358

Lyrics:

I never wanted to cast doubt in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside, on that night
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (and that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine)
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
If I could I would make amends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Today I wrote a list of them (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
The way it starts, the way it ends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I signed my name in marker pen (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)(yeah)
I must apologize
Before I end the night
It's not a game I want to change (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
These days it doesnโ€™t feel the same (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
The way it did some years before (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I'm not able
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (I must apologize)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (before I end the night)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh



@kensei_vision

The lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I never wanted to cast out in your mind
Iโ€™m not acting the way I think youโ€™d like
We went for dinner and now youโ€™re acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside
Iโ€™m like

[Refrain]
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo

[Verse 2]
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
(?)
But I still do it, and now Iโ€™m by myself again
(?)
So I said

[Hook]
If I could I would make amends
Today I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I sign my name in marker pen (Yeah)

[Chorus]
I must apologise
Before I end the night

[Verse 3]
Itโ€™s not a game I want to change
These days end up something the same
Thะต way it did some years beforะต
Iโ€™ve lost so much, Iโ€™ll lose some more

[Bridge]
Iโ€™m not able
To tell you what you need, Itโ€™s a shame cause
They say I should be honest more, one day I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for

[Refrain]
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo (I must apologise)
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo (Before I end the night)
Oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo, oo-oo



@malachi7177

yw x๐Ÿ’ž
Verse 1]
I never wanted to cause doubt in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside
I'm like, aight
(Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
(Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)

[Verse 2]
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (Just a problem for me)
But I still do it, now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end
So I said

[Bridge]
If I could, I would make amends
Today, I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I signed my name in marker pen (Yeah)
I must apologize
Before I ะตnd the night
It's not a game I want to change
Thะตse days end up something the same
The way it did some years before
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more


[Verse 3]
I'm not able (-ble, -ble)
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day, I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for

[Outro]
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, oo-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (I must apologize)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (Before I end the night)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh



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