Inside
r.ariel Lyrics

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There're so many broken individuals today
They shut everybody out because, because they're so afraid
They don't know who they can turn to 'cause, they don't know who to trust
But let me tell you something, don't be ever giving up
I know what it's like, constantly feeling alone
Trapped inside your own mind, don't know where you can go
Don't ever really want to go outside and show your face
And the smile that you're showing everybody's fake

I don't want to keep feeling like I no longer belong
I want to feel like I matter, I want to make sure I'm strong
Don't want live my life thinking that what I'm doing is wrong
Making music for the people who feel more than withdrawn
I know the way we're all thinking when we resort to the drink
How much does shit even matter? We really don't want to think
That's the last thing on our minds when we feel dead inside
We want to go to sleep, never wake up, just say goodbye
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage
I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage
I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great
I felt alone for a long time and told people "I'm fine"
Pay people no mind if they think that I'm lying
Ain't commit no crime, ask myself why I
Choose to ignore the help and do shit alone, why?
I'm independent, I don't need nobody's help
That's what I tell myself, I fucking hate myself
I'm constantly pushing people away
It's like I'm honestly looking for things to hate
It's like a coping mechanism, when I'm blowing shit up
I fill people with pessimism and don't give a fuck
When I destroy all of my friendships, I just don't want to look
I don't mean to be a bastard, I'm just down on my luck
Like all the time, I fucking hate my life
I ain't giving up, I don't feel alright
But I can't tell anybody 'cause, I don't feel it's right
Why do I feel like this, pretty much all of the time?
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage
I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage
I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great
I don't want to feel like shit each and every other day
I just want to live my life in an ordinary way
I'm just fed up of feeling the way I do, today
Sick and tired of being sick and tired, how do I escape?
It's impossible to get out of this mindset
Stuck inside of my head, kind of feel like I'm dead
I don't want to die yet, saying no goodbye's yet
Got a lot of time left, shit is like a mind test
Depression is a horrible disease
Every single day, it's killing people off with ease
I see people crying and they're begging for release
Then I look in the mirror and I see what they see
I see a man who is broken, and his face has no emotion
A lot of things unspoken and the life that he has chosen
Makes him feel like he is drowning in the ocean
He's dead inside, everything is frozen
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage
I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great
No longer thinking straight
I'm filled with pain and rage

I'm just so dead inside
Swear that I ain't feeling great

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of r.ariel's song "Inside" is a reflective piece about one's inner turmoil and the desire to break free from it. The opening line "Divide your cultured pearls in haste" suggests that the person is willing to let go of their material possessions, which are considered valuable in society, to escape the pressures that come with it. The line "I'm looking for to lay to waste" implies that the person is willing to destroy everything that doesn't make them happy, even if it means losing everything that they have worked for.

The chorus of the song emphasizes the singer's internal conflict. The first line of the chorus "I could turn you inside-out" suggests that they are capable of breaking down those around them, but they choose not to. This could be interpreted as either the singer wants to protect the people they care about or they don't want to hurt anyone to the point that they end up feeling sorry for themselves. The second line of the chorus "What I choose not to do" suggests that the singer has the power to make choices and decides not to make certain ones.

The last stanza of the song "Given the choice, given the heart, given the tool, given the word, given the cheers" suggests that the singer has everything they need to succeed, but still feel unsatisfied. The chorus follows with "I believe in what you do, I believe in watching you" indicates that the singer believes in taking action when the opportunity arises, rather than simply observing life. Overall, the lyrics of r.ariel's "Inside" express a desire to be true to oneself and takes action when needed, even if it means taking risks.

Line by Line Meaning

Divide your cultured pearls in haste
Do not waste your precious possessions with haste.

I'm looking for to lay to waste
I seek to destroy and ruin things.

Of all the things I cannot taste
There are some things that I cannot experience fully or comprehend.

And this is not the racy race, they spoke loud
This is not a competition where people are shouting to be heard.

I believe in what you do
I have faith in your actions.

I believe in watching you
I believe you should be observed closely.

I could turn you inside-out
I could completely transform you.

What I choose not to do
But I am choosing not to do that.

Given the choice
If given the option.

Given the heart
If given the capability to feel deeply.

Given the tool
If given the necessary tools and resources.