Dream Envy
rich people Lyrics

It′s five AM as I approach the bridge
At the early hour of five in the morning, I find myself nearing a metaphorical or literal threshold that signifies a major transition or choice.

In envy of old friends who still sleep in
I feel a sense of jealousy towards my former companions who remain comfortably ensconced in their unproductive lives, unaware of my struggles.

They were jaded then and they're jaded now
These friends, once disillusioned, continue to exhibit the same indifference and lack of ambition that defined them in the past.

Climbing social trees as I fell out
While they pursued status and social connections, my own attempts led to disconnection and alienation from that scene.

Rich kids in bad parts of town
Wealthy individuals residing in impoverished areas, possibly indicating a contrast in external circumstances versus internal values.

A social scene in which they now have drown
They are now overwhelmed and consumed by the social dynamics and pressures that define their lives.

It′s no way to live
Recognizing that my current lifestyle is unsustainable and devoid of fulfillment.

Sitting on the fence asking myself what if
I'm caught in indecision, contemplating the possibilities and regrets of different life choices.

I dwell on times we had before the 21
I reflect nostalgically on memories shared before we reached adulthood and its accompanying responsibilities.

I grew up and you're all still always drunk
As I've matured and taken responsibility, my peers remain trapped in a cycle of indulgence and escapism.

If I never got shot out I wonder where I'd be
If I hadn't experienced setbacks or obstacles, I speculate on the potential success and happiness I might have achieved.

Still cashing out to drink my self-esteem
I continue to rely on superficial means, such as alcohol and material indulgences, to cope with feelings of inadequacy.

I get caught up but I know it′s no way to live
Despite becoming entangled in unhealthy habits, I've come to understand that this lifestyle is ultimately detrimental.

Another sheltered Jersey kid moves across the bridge
Another individual from a privileged background steps out of their comfort zone, perhaps in search of greater meaning.

It′s no way to live
Again, I acknowledge that my current state is not conducive to true happiness or fulfillment.

Sitting on the fence asking myself what if
The recurring theme of indecision and contemplation plagues my thoughts as I ponder alternate paths.

I try to wake I try to wake
I exert effort to awaken both literally and metaphorically, striving to break free from my stagnation.

Obsession overtakes my state
A consuming fixation on my shortcomings and failures clouds my mental clarity.

I'm standing up but stuck in place
Though I make attempts to rise above my circumstances, I find myself immobilized by fear and regret.

Standing still in dreams that I should chase
I remain static, trapped in aspirations that I've neglected to pursue in reality.

I′m sorry I try to bring you down when I see myself as less
I apologize for my tendency to project my insecurities onto others, attempting to undermine their success.

I know you're not so bad and I′m not quite the best
I've come to realize that my disparagement of others stems from my own flaws, recognizing that everyone has their own struggles.

I realize now that we will never be the same
Acknowledging that my journey has irreparably changed me, creating a rift between my experiences and those of my peers.

I was wired all wrong and just want someone to blame
Understanding that my internal conflicts result from deeper issues, I search for an external source for my discontent.

It'll only be just one until I need one more
Realizing that satisfying my cravings and dependencies only leads to further desires for more, creating an endless cycle.

And back to habits I can′t handle or afford
I'm drawn back into destructive patterns that are neither beneficial nor sustainable for my well-being.

And honestly I just envy the freedoms that I lost
I deeply long for the carefree life I once had, now overshadowed by responsibilities and expectations.

When I crossed the unseen line I can't uncross
I reflect on the irreversible decisions I've made that altered my path permanently, leaving me yearning for what was.