Dirty Nikes
ruth b. Lyrics

Tell me how to drive with the windows down
I need to learn how to enjoy life alone, without the presence and support of the person I cared for.

Now that you're not in the passenger's seat
Ever since you left, I struggle to find joy and purpose in the things I once cherished, like driving with the windows down.

Tell me how to dance with my best friend's guest
I need to learn how to be happy for my friends and their relationships, even though it reminds me of what I've lost.

They're my best friends now that you're not with me
Without you, my friends are my closest companions and sources of support, but it's hard not to feel a pang of sadness and longing when I see them happy and in love.

Summer days are lonely when it's only me in my room
When I'm left alone with my thoughts, I can't help but think about you and how much I miss you.

Wondering if you know that I'm still singin' 'bout you
Even though you're gone, I can't help but think about you and express my feelings through music.

Found your dirty Nikes, they remind me 'bout what I've been through
Seeing your old, worn-out shoes reminds me of the memories we made and how hard it is to move on.

You should know it makes me sick that I'm still singin' 'bout you
It's hard to admit that I can't let go of you, and it's even harder to know that you might never know how much you meant to me.

Remember when we talked through the whole damn night
One of my fondest memories with you was the night we talked and shared parts of ourselves we'd never told anyone else.

'Bout the things we'd never say out loud
We confided in each other and talked about our deepest fears and insecurities, things we never felt comfortable sharing with anyone else.

Remember when you said that you found the one
When you told me you had found someone new, my heart shattered into a million pieces.

We were driving home with the windows down
Even though I was happy for you, it was hard to share that moment with you, driving with the windows down and feeling the wind in our hair, knowing that you weren't mine anymore.

I'd love to un-love you
As much as it hurts to admit, sometimes I wish I could erase my feelings for you and move on with ease.

I want to un-want you
It's painful to want something that you can't have, and sometimes I wish I could stop wanting you altogether.

I need to un-need you
I need to learn how to be self-sufficient and independent, instead of relying on you for emotional support and happiness.

I need to be free too
I need to break free from the hold you have on me and learn how to be happy and fulfilled on my own.