I Will
s.h.ɛ. Lyrics


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My karma came & went, that's why I look radiant
I hear waves crashing, jus like you they're distant
1 day I'll walk off right into the freezing ocean
1 day I'll do everything except keep my eyes open
Runnin' from my worst fear
I hope you stick with me, because everything else hurts here
Yeah my angel bougie, she don't shake hands, but she curtsy
See you in the ocean, everybody, hope you thirsty
And I'm still runnin' from my worst fear
Death & then abandonment, whichever 1 comes 1st, dear
I hope when I die, that we all ride in the same hearse, hear
Me out, I got some issues, but we'll make it through the worst years
I think at night, I'm depressed in the mornin'
I don't cry no more, but when I do it's solemn
Ain't it funny how the tears that drop down to the concrete
Melt away almost instantaneously
Sometimes I forget I've left London
'Cause I feel like I'm still right beside you
You love me too much & talk a lot of shit
I don't think a soul got the right to besides you
Runnin' from my worst fear
I hope you stick with me, because everything else hurts here
Yeah my angel bougie, she don't shake hands, but she curtsy
See you in the ocean, everybody, hope you thirsty
And I'm still runnin' from my worst fear
Death & then abandonment, whichever 1 comes 1st, dear




I hope when I die, that we all ride in the same hearse, hear
Me out, I got some issues, but we'll make it through the worst years

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of S.h.ɛ.'s song "I Will" talk about the artist's struggles with mental and emotional turmoil. She discusses how her karma has come and gone, and how she hopes to make it through the worst years. The waves crashing in the background represent her feeling of being distant from those she loves, and how she may one day walk right into the freezing ocean. This could be seen as a metaphor for her desire to escape or end her pain.


The song explores themes of abandonment, death, depression, and anxiety. The artist hopes that those close to her will stick with her during these difficult times, as everything else hurts. She also mentions her angel bougie, who doesn't shake hands but curtsies. This could be seen as a representation of someone who appreciates and respects the artist, but may not fully understand their struggles.


Despite the difficult themes, the artist believes that she and those around her will make it through the worst years. The chorus repeats the line "And I'm still runnin' from my worst fear/Death & then abandonment, whichever 1 comes 1st, dear" which shows how these fears are constantly present, but she is still trying to move forward.


Overall, "I Will" is a heartfelt and vulnerable song that explores the struggles of mental illness and the hope for better days.


Line by Line Meaning

My karma came & went, that's why I look radiant
I've had ups and downs, but I'm feeling good right now.


I hear waves crashing, jus like you they're distant
I feel far away from the person I'm talking to, like we're both lost in our own thoughts.


1 day I'll walk off right into the freezing ocean
I'm not scared of death and sometimes I want to embrace it head-on.


1 day I'll do everything except keep my eyes open
I'm not afraid of taking risks, but I know I can't close my eyes to what's coming.


Runnin' from my worst fear
I'm constantly trying to avoid what scares me the most.


I hope you stick with me, because everything else hurts here
I need you by my side, because everything else in my life is tough to handle.


Yeah my angel bougie, she don't shake hands, but she curtsy
I have someone in my life who's elegant and graceful, but they don't conform to social norms.


See you in the ocean, everybody, hope you thirsty
I imagine everyone will eventually meet in death, and I hope they're ready for it.


And I'm still runnin' from my worst fear
I'm still trying to escape what terrifies me the most.


Death & then abandonment, whichever 1 comes 1st, dear
I'm afraid of dying alone and being left behind.


I hope when I die, that we all ride in the same hearse, hear
I wish for everyone to share one final journey together when they die.


Me out, I got some issues, but we'll make it through the worst years
I admit to having problems, but I believe we can overcome them and come out stronger on the other side.


I think at night, I'm depressed in the mornin'
My thoughts can bring me down at night, but in the morning I try to start anew.


I don't cry no more, but when I do it's solemn
I try to suppress my emotions, but when I do show them, it's serious and somber.


Ain't it funny how the tears that drop down to the concrete
It's ironic how our tears can fall onto something as hard and cold as concrete.


Melt away almost instantaneously
Our tears can disappear as fast as they come, leaving us no time to process our emotions.


Sometimes I forget I've left London
I can get so lost in my own world that I forget where I am physically.


'Cause I feel like I'm still right beside you
No matter where I am, I feel close to the person I'm talking to.


You love me too much & talk a lot of shit
You care about me deeply, but you also give me a hard time sometimes.


I don't think a soul got the right to besides you
I don't believe anyone else has the right to criticize me except for you, because you know me so well.




Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Maximus Rankin

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