11:11
sim_bex Lyrics

My 11:11 wishes never worked on you
Despite making countless wishes, my desires and hopes for our relationship never came true.

I thought I had you but you slip right through
I believed I had a strong hold on you, but you managed to elude and escape from me.

Sick and jaded but I feel it too
Both emotionally and mentally exhausted, I am aware of the toxicity in our relationship.

In your room, you're confused
In the confines of your space, you struggle with inner turmoil and uncertainty.

We're battered and bruised
Both of us are emotionally and physically damaged from the hardships we've endured.

I swore I loved you
I genuinely believed that my feelings for you were rooted in love.

Get out of my head
I need you to leave my thoughts and stop occupying my mind.

What's done is done it's dead
There's no changing or resurrecting what has already happened and ended.

I'm a mess and you took all that I had left
I am emotionally and mentally unstable, and you managed to consume and deplete whatever strength or resilience I had left.

My selfish apologetics never lasted long
My self-centered attempts at apologizing were always short-lived and insincere.

Kept you broken and it's all my fault
I played a significant role in causing your emotional harm and I take full responsibility for it.

Drunk on pity and sick at the thought
I indulged in self-pity and felt disgusted with myself when reflecting on my actions.

Of the art on your arms and all I had lost
Seeing the tattoos on your arms reminded me of the things I lost as a consequence of our relationship.

Swear I'm movin on
I promise that I am trying to let go and move forward with my life.

You always said this would happen
You consistently warned me that our relationship would eventually crumble.

Made a habit outta taking you for granted
Regrettably, I developed a pattern of undervaluing and not fully appreciating you.

Made a habit outta (shit it's déjà vu)
It has become a routine for me to repeat the same mistakes and find myself in a similar situation again.

I'm made of trash, yeah you knew that
I acknowledge that I have flaws and negative qualities, and you were fully aware of them.

With every kiss a new knife in your back
Each affectionate gesture was accompanied by an act of betrayal or hurt towards you.

Now that we're grown, the cracks they all show
As we've matured, the problems and flaws in our relationship have become more apparent and impossible to ignore.

If it helps I hate myself more than you'll ever know
To some extent, hurting myself emotionally brings me more pain than I could ever inflict upon you.

I wish that I could start over
I long for the chance to begin anew and make better choices in our relationship.

So I could show myself I really learned
Given the opportunity, I want to prove to myself that I have genuinely grown and gained wisdom from my past mistakes.

Do demons get a chance at rebirth
I wonder if individuals with a dark side or troubled past deserve the opportunity for redemption and a fresh start.

I wish that I could start over
I desperately hope for a clean slate and a chance to rectify my wrongdoings.

So I could show myself I don't deserve to burn
If given another chance, I aim to prove to myself that I am not deserving of punishment or suffering.

Do demons get a chance at rebirth
I continue to contemplate whether those with inner demons or past mistakes can find redemption and embark on a new journey.