Clouds
slayyyter Lyrics

I always dreamed to the sound of a drum
I have always had dreams attached to the idea of hearing a drum's sound.

Little girl won the world, she's a champion
I used to feel like a winner, like a champion, when I was a little girl.

Nice champagne on ice
Things look good on paper and there are good things around me, like nice champagne on ice.

Life is paradise
On the surface level, life is paradise and everything is fine.

So tell me why I feel this way inside?
Despite everything looking good, there's a nagging feeling inside that tells me something is wrong and I don't know what it is.

I'm unhappier than I've ever been
I am currently more unhappy than I have ever been before.

I never thought I'd know what it's like to win
I never imagined I would ever know what winning feels like.

Say what you want but I never thought I'd end up here
Others can say what they want, but I never believed I would be in this position in my life.

Some days I feel good then I really wanna disappear
Some days I feel okay, but on other days, I wish I could just disappear and not have to deal with anything.

I always got clouds over me
I always have negative things hanging over me, like clouds.

I wish they knew what goes on in my head
I wish others could understand the thoughts and feelings that go on in my head.

Sometimes feels like I'd be better off dead
Sometimes I feel like I might be better off not being alive.

I don't wanna think
I don't want to have to think about the problems in my life.

Pour another drink
I try to numb my feelings by drinking more.

So I don't have to feel anything
I drink to avoid feeling anything that might remind me of my problems.