Inside
the morning Lyrics

It's been countless days,
It has been an indeterminate number of days since I felt the same way I did before.

Since I felt the same way I did
I haven't felt the same way I did before.

Last week or weeks before
It has been some time since I felt the same way.

I implur
I plead and beg.

If you could only see my heart exploding
If you could only see the immense pain that I am feeling inside.

The blood and gore as my soul lays on the floor
The intense pain that I am feeling is causing me to feel like I'm bleeding on the ground.

Inside you I could never breathe again
Being with you is suffocating me.

Wearing my heart on my sleeve
I am wearing my emotions openly and honestly.

The beacon faded just like our love
The signal of our love is dimming and fading away.

I wish I knew what happened so I could fix it
I wish I knew what went wrong so that I could make things right.

The damper on our relationship
Something is putting a weight on our connection, preventing it from flourishing.

The pieces of the puzzle no longer fit
The things that used to make sense and fit together no longer do.

I've become what I hate
I have turned into something I despise.

Suddle little hints I'm on the other side of the fense for once
Subtle signs suggest that I am now on the other side of a barrier.

My thoughts of myself haunt me every day
I am tormented by my own negative self-reflection.

Tied in these chains wishing the pain would go away
I feel trapped and want the suffering to end.

Never successful, never knew what real love was before
I have never achieved true love and don't know what it truly is.

I mean it when I say I wish it was like it was
I genuinely wish that things were just like they were before.

So much is going through my head
I am overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions.

Regretting every word I said
I am filled with remorse for every word I spoke.

I still love you, don't want anything to happen to you
I still have strong feelings for you and don't want anything bad to happen to you.

Laying in my bed for hours and hours the pain won't..fucking..go away
I am lying in bed for hours, but the pain continues to persist and be intense.

How the hell am I supposed to be happy if you're not?
It is difficult for me to be happy if you are not happy.

I wish I could have it all back
I yearn to have everything return to the way it used to be.

It was so great before and yes it is all my fault
Things were wonderful before, and I recognize and take full responsibility for the fact that it was my actions that led to the downfall.

I ought to have known pain would happen again
I realize that I should have anticipated that I would feel pain once more.

If it means the same as it once did never hurt yourself again
If there is a chance our love could be as powerful as it was before, then I vow to never cause myself distress again.

I'm sorry.
I apologize for my actions and the pain they have caused.