Faith
the weeknd Lyrics

Light a blunt up with the flame (light a blunt up with the flame)
I am using drugs to numb my pain and feel something more pleasurable instead.

Put that cocaine on a plate (put that cocaine on a plate)
I am doing cocaine and treating it like a casual and necessary activity in my life.

Molly with the purple rain (molly with the purple rain)
I am taking Molly mixed with Purple drink/Lean to enhance my senses and emotional experience.

'Cause I lost my faith
I have lost faith in myself and in the world around me.

So I cut away the pain, uh (so I cut away the pain)
I am trying to escape the emotional pain and trauma by taking drugs.

Got it swimming in my veins (got it swimming in my veins)
The drugs are having a profound effect on my body and are becoming a part of me, as they swim in my veins.

Now my mind is outta place, yeah, uh (now my mind is outta place, yeah)
I am experiencing a disconnection and loss of control over my thoughts and actions.

'Cause I lost my faith
Once again, I have lost faith in myself and the world around me due to my addiction and emotional struggles.

And I feel everything
I am experiencing a heightened level of sensitivity to my surroundings and emotions due to my drug use.

I feel everything from my body to my soul
The effects of the drugs are influencing every aspect of my being, including my physical body and emotional soul.

Well, I feel everything
Once again, I am emphasizing the intensity of my emotional and physical experience when on drugs.

When I'm coming down is the most I feel alone
Once the high from the drugs wears off, I am even more aware of my loneliness and isolation.

I've been sober for a year, now it's time for me
I have been trying to get clean and stay sober, but now I feel like relapsing.

To go back to my old ways, don't you cry for me
I am giving in to my drug addiction and continuing down the same destructive path as before.

Thought I'd be a better man, but I lied to me and to you
I had hoped to overcome my addiction and become a better person, but instead, I am disappointed in myself and the harm I am causing to others.

I take half a Xan' and I still stay awake (stay awake)
Even a small amount of medication (Xanax) does little to calm me down or help me sleep.

All my demons wanna pull me to my grave (to my grave)
My emotional and addictions demons are leading me down a path towards self-destruction and death.

I choose Vegas if they offer heaven's gate (heaven's gate)
I would rather indulge in sinful activities and potentially face eternal damnation than face the pain and emptiness that life brings without drugs.

I tried to love, but you know I'd never stay (you know I'd never stay)
Even though I want to be loved and accepted, I know that my drug addiction and emotional issues will prevent me from staying with someone else.

But if I OD, I want you to OD right beside
If I overdose and die, I want someone else to overdose and die with me, so I am not alone in my death.

I want you to follow right behind me
I want someone else to be with me until the very end, whether in life or in death.

I want you to hold me while I'm smiling
I want someone to comfort me and make me feel loved, even if this comfort is only temporary or due to drugs.

While I'm dying
Despite my apparent happiness, I know deep down that my addiction is killing me and will eventually lead to my death.

And if you know me
If someone truly knows who I am and what I am going through, they will understand the pain and struggles that come with addiction.

When I go missing, you know where to find me
When I inevitably succumb to my addiction and disappear from my loved ones, they will know where to find me - in the grip of my addiction and emotional pain.

Driving down the boulevard is blinding
The bright lights and stimulation of city life can be both exhilarating and overwhelming, especially when under the influence of drugs.

Always blinded by the desert lights and
Even in the harsh, barren environment of the desert, the lights and stimulation can be overpowering and consuming - much like my addiction.

I'm alive when
Despite the pain and struggles of addiction, I feel more alive and in touch with my emotions and surroundings when I am under the influence.

I lost my faith (I lost my faith)
Once again, I am expressing my loss of faith and disillusionment with life and myself.

I'm losing my religion every day
My addiction and emotional pain are eroding my sense of hope, purpose, and belief in something greater than myself.

Time hasn't been kind to me, I pray (I pray)
Despite my best efforts to overcome addiction and emotional struggles, time has only made things worse, and I am desperate for help and guidance.

When I look inside the mirror and see someone I love
Despite my struggles with addiction, I still see the potential for love and self-acceptance when I look inside myself and confront my inner demons.

Oh, someone I love
This line is repeated several times to emphasize the importance of self-love and compassion, even in the midst of addiction and emotional turmoil.

Faith (Faith)
The repetition of this word refers to the spiritual and emotional struggle to hold on to faith and hope in the face of addiction and trauma.

I ended up in the back of a flashing car
This line refers to the ambulance or police car that takes people away after overdosing or experiencing other traumatic events related to addiction.

With the city shining on my face
Despite the trauma and pain, the bright lights and stimulation of the city continue to be a constant presence and influence in my life.

The lights are blinding me again
The lights and stimulation of the city are both alluring and overwhelming, and can easily lead to addiction and emotional turmoil.

I ended up (I ended up)
This line is repeated to emphasize the haphazard and chaotic nature of addiction and trauma, and the lack of control that individuals have over their lives in these situations.

In the back of a flashing car (back of a flashing car)
This line refers to the ambulance or police car that is often associated with addiction and trauma, and the lack of control and agency that individuals have in these situations.