Oxygen
zwall Lyrics

They say now I'm gonna be honest
I am about to express myself truthfully

Haven't heard your new project
I have not listened to your latest creation

But I'm sure it was great, I'm proud of you-
I am proud of your accomplishment and confident it was a success

I'm so sick of their comments
I am tired of reading people's opinions

I keep reading their contents
I cannot help but continue to read their messages

Thought that some would relate, it wasn't true-
I believed some people would understand, but it turned out not to be the case

I served a sentence
I endured a punishment

I did it freely
I chose to accept my consequences willingly

Now I can't do this
Now I feel unable to cope

If you don't need me
If you do not require my presence

I've lost some friendships
I have ended certain relationships

A few too many
More than a couple

I get so anxious
I feel extremely nervous

Then I stop breathing
My anxiety affects me physically, and I have trouble breathing

Now I'm trying to forget
I am attempting to let go of my past actions or ideas

Everything I ever said
I want to erase all my previous words or statements

I'm falling deeper in cement
I am sinking and becoming stuck in my emotional or mental troubles

No oxygen to catch my breath
I struggle to hold on to life’s essential support

When the wax around my wings collapsed
When my metaphorical wings became damaged, and I lost my ability to fly

I knew that there's no going back again- (Oxygen)
I came to the realization that I cannot undo my actions or go back in time. I need a burst of life or vitality to keep going

Where do you turn to
What path do you follow

At the end of the road?
When you have exhausted all your choices or avenues

When your friends hate you
When people who were once your friends hold animosity towards you

And you hit a new low
When your experiences bring you to your emotional or mental limits

Just like that they replace you
People easily substitute your presence with someone else's

And now you're alone
You are left in a lonesome state

Believe me, I'm hurt too
The situation is causing me pain and distress as well

How could I have known
I did not expect things to turn out this way, and I have regrets

I said that we'd make it out
I made promises of healing and making things better

Looks like I was wrong
It seems like my efforts failed

I know I made some mistakes and now
I am aware that I have caused some issues

I struggle moving on
I have difficulty in accepting or overcoming my troubles

Never thought that I'd betray myself
I did not anticipate that my actions would result in self-destruction

And do that to someone
Hurt someone else intentionally or unintentionally

Wanted peace and now I hate myself
I hoped for tranquility yet ended up filled with self-loathing

I ended up with none
Peace and tranquility are now absent from my life

I hope you're doing okay
I wish you well

Haven't spoken in years cause I don't know what to say
I have not communicated with you for a long time because I am uncertain of what to say

I'm not doing this to guilt, I'm not trying to complain
I do not want to manipulate, and I am not attempting to lament

I just wish we didn't go our separate ways
I only wish our paths had not diverged

Then I start to question
I begin to doubt

Maybe it was me
It could be my fault

Maybe I was too persistent
I might have been too insistent

Didn't let you breathe
I did not allow you enough freedom

Maybe I was optimistic
I could have been overly hopeful

Why'd you have to leave
Why did you have to exit my life?

Didn't mean to get so distant
I did not intend to become so far apart

Now these memories-
Now, I am filled with recollections

Mean everything to me
These memories are incredibly valuable to me

Every time I shut my eyes
Whenever I close my eyes

They're the only thing see
These memories are the sole images or thoughts in my mind

Now I'm trying to survive
I am endeavoring to stay alive

Getting harder to believe
It is becoming increasingly difficult for me to have faith

There's nothing I could've done for this
There is nothing I could have done to change the outcome

I can't keep too many promises
I cannot make too many commitments, as I cannot always fulfill them