Repentance
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If I die tonight couldn't be nothin but transparent
If I were to die tonight, I couldn't hide anything. I would have to be honest and open about who I am and where I've been.

apparently you care for me like a parent
You seem to care about me deeply, like a parent who loves their child no matter what.

I swear it's the coldest winter ever upon my shoulders
I feel like I'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and it's never been harder to bear.

Days are long; my nights are even longer
Time seems to drag on endlessly, both during the day and at night.

The weight so heavy on my back I can't move
The burden I carry is so heavy that I feel paralyzed and unable to move forward.

Could somebody help me where do I turn to?
I need someone to help me, but I don't know where to turn for that help.

Since I was a youngin I been gunnin
Since I was young, I have been striving and working hard to achieve my goals.

it all alone ain't asking for help I just carry it on my own
I have been doing it all on my own, without asking for help, and carrying the weight of my burdens alone.

And turnin to God was for the weak-lins'
In the past, I believed that turning to God for help was a sign of weakness.

I'm lookin at life through such a weak lens
I have a distorted and weak perspective on life, which makes it hard for me to see the truth.

I can't see clear but it ain't tears in my eyes
Although I can't see things clearly, it's not because I'm crying.

It's sweat pourin down from the years I done tried
It's sweat pouring down my face from all the hard work and effort I've put into trying to succeed.

To be my own savior said I'd never fail
I thought that I could save myself and that I would never fail.

But never had the righteousness it took to save myself
I never had the moral goodness or virtue it took to save myself from my own failures and mistakes.

So this is where I turn confess believe
This is where I turn to confess my shortcomings and failings, and believe that I can find help and forgiveness in God.

That Jesus is the only savior that I'll ever need
I believe that Jesus is the only one who can truly save me and provide me with the help and forgiveness that I need.

I repent tonight
I am turning away from my past mistakes and asking for forgiveness and help from God.

There I go again fallin
I keep making mistakes and failing.

Tryin to stand on my own still I'm just crawlin
I'm still trying to do things on my own, but it feels like I'm not making any progress.

Tryin be the man I should be that's my callin
I'm trying to be the kind of person I know I should be.

But no matter how hard I try I don't ever really drive that stop
No matter how hard I try, it feels like I'm not making any real progress.

I'm one the verge of bawlin often I'm feelin like I'm hopeless
I'm often on the verge of tears and feel like I'm completely without hope.

Feelin like I failed I'm groaning
I feel like I have failed and am groaning under the weight of that failure.

Cause I grit my teeth and I strive each moment
Even though I'm struggling, I'm still trying my best and working hard to be the person I want to be.

Tryna be strong but daily I've blown it
I'm trying to be strong and keep going, but I keep making mistakes and failing.

Man, I don't know what's go'n happen I see
I'm not sure what's going to happen to me or how things are going to turn out.

Some change gotta happen in me
I know that I need to change in some way if I want things to get better.

I'm weak and some kinda power's lackin in me
I feel weak and like I'm lacking some important kind of strength or power.

I need grace that'd be sweet
I need the kind of grace that only comes from God, and that would be a wonderful thing to have.

Is there anyone to turn to give grace and peace
I'm wondering if there is anyone I can turn to who can give me the grace and peace that I need.

Do I really gotta earn you?
Do I really have to earn your forgiveness and help, or can I receive those things freely?

Can I be forgiven for the time that I burned through
Can I be forgiven for all the time I wasted and mistakes I made in the past?

I wanna learn and be freed
I want to learn from my mistakes and be free from the things that hold me back.

But I hear I gotta turn to believe please
I hear that in order to find the help and forgiveness I need, I must turn to God and believe in Him.

There I go again yeah I blew it
Once again, I've made a mistake and messed up.

Everything I don't wanna do I keep doin
Even when I don't want to do something, I keep doing it anyway.

Steadily feelin stupid instead of makin excuses
I feel foolish for my mistakes, but I'm trying not to make excuses for them.

I just need to face the music I need ya
I need to face the reality of my situation and ask for help from God.

I lean on my own strength but it's useless
I've been trying to do things on my own, but it's not working and my own strength is not enough.

Cause healing only come by them stripes and them bruises
True healing can only come from the wounds and suffering that Jesus experienced for us.

I chunk deuces and turn towards you
I'm giving up my old ways and turning towards God for help.

But sometimes I turn right back to it
Sometimes I still turn back to my old ways and mistakes.

Why do I abuse all the grace that you given me?
I don't understand why I keep making mistakes and taking advantage of the grace and forgiveness that God has given me.

It's like I can't win man I still got sin in me
It feels like I can never really succeed because I still have sin in my life that I can't completely overcome.

And I struggle just believin you forgiven me
I struggle to believe that God has truly forgiven me for all of my mistakes and sins.

Cause if I was you I would've been done, finished me
If I were God, I would have given up on myself a long time ago and abandoned me because of my mistakes and failures.

But we're not the same, mentally, thank God
Thankfully, God is not like me, and He has not given up on me despite my mistakes and failures.

Your grace is amazin look where you went for me
The grace that God has shown me is incredible, and it's amazing to think about the lengths that He has gone to in order to help and save me.

On them wooden beams took responsibility
Jesus took on the responsibility for my mistakes and sins when He died on the cross for me.

For sin that you never did to call you a friend to me
Jesus took on the punishment for my sins even though He never sinned Himself, and He still calls me His friend.

Your ways are so high but you bent your knee
God's ways and thoughts are beyond my understanding, but He humbled Himself by coming to earth and dying for me.

I keep fallin but you call to get on my feet
Even though I keep making mistakes and falling down, God calls me to get back up and keep going.

Keep walkin just what you started you will complete
God will continue to work in my life and complete the good work that He has started in me.

Ima keep repentin til the day I leave
I will keep turning away from my old ways and asking for forgiveness from God until the day I die.

Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me
I keep making mistakes and falling down, but I'm asking God to catch me and help me back up.

Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own
I'm asking God to catch me before I give up and try to do things on my own again, which I know won't work.

I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on
I know that I can't do things on my own, but I'm still holding on to the hope that God will help me.

And when you see me up yeah I'm really down
Even when it seems like I'm doing well on the outside, I'm really struggling inside.

And when you see me smile there's really no one around
Even when I'm pretending to be happy, I often feel alone and like there's no one there for me.

So if I let it go promise you catch me now
I'm asking God to catch me and help me if I start to let go and feel like giving up.

Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now
I'm putting my trust in God and asking Him to catch me and help me right now.