Jaded
4. Радио ENERGY Lyrics

Put the blade to my wrist and I'm gone
I am so overwhelmed and hurt that I feel like taking extreme measures to escape my pain.

Light a spliff in my name, skip rocks by the pond
To distract myself from reality, I indulge in temporary pleasures and engage in carefree activities.

Ease your pain how you wish, pop pills to the dawn
In an attempt to find solace, you resort to taking drugs and rely on them until morning.

Swerving in and out of lanes, keep the lights switched on
My life is in constant flux and chaos, but I try to maintain a sense of control by staying vigilant and not losing sight of my goals.

I've been saying this shit for so damn long
I have been expressing my struggles and emotions repeatedly for a significant amount of time.

I just want you by my side no matter where we are
All I desire is to have your presence and support, regardless of our location.

And I still see your reflection inside that pond
Even in moments of solitude, I can still vividly imagine and feel the impact of your presence.

You know my heart, you've got it all, I fall so hard
You possess a deep understanding of my emotions and have captured my heart entirely. I am completely infatuated with you.

Said this 9 to 5 shit ain't really working too well
The conventional routine of working from 9 to 5 is not fulfilling or successful for me.

Every day I wake up, feel I'm designed to fail, I mean
Each morning, I am plagued with the belief that I am destined for failure.

I really just wish I had a soul to sell
I long for an opportunity to trade my innermost self, as if it could provide a solution to my struggles.

But as of lately I'm so jaded, feeling cold as hell
Recently, I have become emotionally exhausted and disconnected, experiencing a profound sense of emptiness.

Think I trust too much
I have come to realize that I place too much faith in others, leading to disappointment and vulnerability.

I think I hate myself
Internally, I harbor strong feelings of self-loathing and dissatisfaction.

I take drugs too much
I excessively rely on drugs as a coping mechanism for my emotional pain.

Pills on the shelf
I have a surplus of pills readily available, symbolizing the depth of my reliance on them.

I don't sleep enough
My lack of sufficient rest prevents me from finding peace and stability in my life.

Time is hard to tell
The passing of time feels distorted and uncertain, making it difficult for me to establish a sense of direction or purpose.

Rain, come down hard. I think I feel hail
The weight of my emotions intensifies, as if the rain has turned into hail, inflicting a harsher impact on my already delicate state.

Scatter brained as shit
My thoughts and focus are fragmented and chaotic.

People talking and they all telling me to quit
Those around me are advising me to give up and abandon my current path.

Substances drown my soul, the kiss
I find temporary solace by engulfing myself in substances, which provide a momentary escape from the pain.

Where's the pro in this?
I question the supposed benefits or advantages of living this way.

Numb my brain, burn my body
I seek ways to numb my mind and distract myself from the intensity of my emotions by subjecting my body to harm.

Let me rot, ya bitch
I express a desire for self-destruction and a willingness to deteriorate, adding bitterness and frustration to my plea.