Six months earlier, Mills’ longtime band, Blood Feathers, dissolved along with his decade-long songwriting partnership. After a desire to explore a darker and more moody direction, Mills got to work penning a batch of songs rooted in his own gospel upbringing, love for obscure worn-out crooners, and avante-garde classic songwriting. With this new output begging to be put on tape, he looked no further than his close friend, sound engineer, and San Franciscan, Terry Yerves to capture this raw early solo work (later released as the Window Box EP in 2017).
Spending this time away from Philadelphia — the scene of much of the heartache, passion, and woe that defined his own life — Mills was granted the opportunity to reflect, temper, and capture these emotions to share with us through his craft as a songwriter.
By 2014, A.M. Mills became a fully realized band consisting of close friends Patrick Marsceill (drums), Tracy Stanton (bass), and Joshua Cicetti (guitar). Earning a reputation for "cosmic noir-ish" live performances. The band honed their sound on East Coast stages playing with the likes of The War on Drugs, The Cactus Blossoms, Ex Hex, Peter Matthew Bauer, and more as they worked on material for their first full-band recording.
When A.M. Mills met live sound engineer Joshua Pannepacker in 2016, they collectively realized they shared a sonic kinship and began a collaboration that extended beyond their live performances. In 2017, the group entered the recording studio that Pannepacker was building in suburban New Jersey and emerged 18 months later with their debut full-length album, Angel Eyes. The recording will be released as a limited edition vinyl LP, CD, and digital album on March 27, 2020 by Wilbur Records. Catch A.M. Mills supporting Angel Eyes live with a string of dates in the Spring and Summer of 2020.
Runnin'
A.M. Mills Lyrics
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It's now or never
But I know Im a different kinda girl
I get cold feet
But it won't define me
We living in, in a different kinda world
I Keep hearing, what I gotta
I refuse to, to be silenced
I'm different and I'll show it
We got problems lately
But they
They will never get me and they
They will never break me
Imma solve em baby
Cuz they, they will never get me and they
They will never break me, i'm not
Runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
I won't look away, won't look away
I face it anyway
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away
I'll stay
Like a winner
In the frontline
Yeah I know
I'm that different kinda girl
No more cold feet
I will deliver
Don't wanna live in an ordinary world
I Keep hearing, what I gotta
Do to make it, to be loved
I refuse to, to be silenced
I'm different & I"ll show it
We got problems lately
But they
They will never get me and they
They will never break me
Imma solve em baby
Cuz they, they will never get me and they
They will never break me, i'm not
Runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
I won't look away, won't look away
I face it anyway
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away
I'll stay
I'll stay, I stay ah
Not runnin' from no one
I'll stay, I stay ah
Not runnin'
We got problems lately
But they
They will never get me and they
They will never break me
Imma solve em baby
Cuz they, they will never get me and they
They will never break me, i'm not
Runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away I'll stay
I won't look away, won't look away
I face it anyway
Not runnin away, runnin away
Runnin away
I'll stay
The lyrics of "Runnin'" by A.M. Mills convey a strong sense of determination and empowerment. The singer starts by acknowledging their initial hesitations and fears, symbolized by "cold feet." Despite this, they assert that these fears will not define them and that they are a different kind of person who refuses to be silenced or conform to societal expectations. The mention of living in a different kind of world suggests a desire for authenticity and individuality in a world that may try to mold them into something else.
The recurring theme of facing challenges and not running away from them is prevalent throughout the song. The singer acknowledges that problems exist but asserts that they will not allow these difficulties to defeat or break them. Instead, they vow to confront and solve these issues, showing resilience and determination to overcome whatever obstacles come their way. This refusal to give in to adversity demonstrates a strong sense of inner strength and confidence.
The imagery of being a "winner in the frontline" further emphasizes the singer's courage and willingness to take on challenges head-on. They declare that they will not be held back by fear or doubt, embracing their uniqueness and standing tall in a world that may prefer conformity. The repeated refrain of "I'll stay" conveys a sense of steadfastness and resoluteness in the face of adversity, indicating a commitment to facing challenges with courage and conviction.
Overall, the lyrics of "Runnin'" by A.M. Mills celebrate individuality, resilience, and determination. The singer's refusal to be silenced or defined by fear, as well as their unwavering commitment to confronting and overcoming obstacles, serve as a powerful message of empowerment and self-belief. The song encourages listeners to embrace their differences, confront challenges head-on, and stay true to themselves in a world that may try to hold them back.
Line by Line Meaning
I got cold feet
Feeling apprehensive or hesitant
It's now or never
Time to take action or never have the opportunity again
But I know I'm a different kinda girl
I am unique and will not conform to others' expectations
We living in, in a different kinda world
We are in a unique and challenging environment
I Keep hearing, what I gotta
Constantly receiving advice on what I need to do
Do to make it, to be loved
Actions required to be accepted and valued by others
I refuse to, to be silenced
I will not be silenced or overlooked
I'm different and I'll show it
I embrace my uniqueness and will display it proudly
We got problems lately
Facing challenges or obstacles recently
But they
Despite those challenges
They will never get me and they
Difficulties will not define or defeat me
They will never break me
I will not be broken by adversity
Imma solve em baby
I will find solutions to these problems
Cuz they, they will never get me and they
Because I will not let challenges overcome me
I'm not Runnin away, runnin away
I will not avoid or escape from these issues
Runnin away I'll stay
I will face them head-on and stay strong
I won't look away, won't look away
I will confront the problems directly
I face it anyway
I will confront the challenges without fear
Like a winner
Approaching situations with a winning attitude
In the frontline
Taking a lead role or position
Yeah I know
Being aware of my own strength and capabilities
No more cold feet
No longer feeling hesitant or unsure
I will deliver
I will follow through and achieve my goals
Don't wanna live in an ordinary world
Seeking an extraordinary and unique life
I'll stay, I stay ah
I will remain strong and resilient
Not runnin' from no one
Facing challenges without running away
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Written by: Sandra Nordstrom
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