Shadows
A.S.K Lyrics

Yeah
An affirmation that something is happening

Hit It
Invitation to start the song

You ever just have thoughts
Have you ever experienced profound and intense moments of introspection?

Like thoughts in your head
A repetition of the previous question, emphasizing the mind’s capacity to produce such thoughts

When you wish you was dead
Have you ever contemplatively wished for death?

Think of the shit that these people done said
Consider the negative things that people have said to you in the past, which can manifest themselves in thoughts of suicide

Flows through your mind, what's the concept of time
These thoughts come and go in your mind, while you try to comprehend the nature of the passage of time

Everytime that I cry heard the demons instead
When I cry, my mind is overrun by malevolent thoughts, which increase the sense of worthlessness and despair

Demons leaning, creeping, pushing me down to the deep end
Metaphorically speaking, malevolent forces are constantly trying to push me to the brink of mental collapse

Hold me down, what is love, what's the meaning
Amidst all this emotional turbulence, it's hard to understand the meaning of love

I don't know and you won't either so just leave it
I have no answers, and neither do you, so let's not dwell on it

Life flashes in my eyes like a sequence
Life passes me by like a sequence that I can't fully comprehend or appreciate

Or a movie
Life can feel like a cinematic experience, overwhelming me

Lately my mind making me choose
I find myself needing to make a choice, which could be life or death

Between whether to live or die it's confusing
Making a decision between life or death can be bewildering and complex

Putting my pain and my heart into this music
The only way to cope with the pain and heartache is by channeling it into the music

Only reason why my ass ain't lose it yet
The only reason I haven't gone off the edge yet is because of my music

I've been scheming but I'm not getting even
I've been plotting to make things right, but I know revenge isn't the answer

It's darkness inside me, that shit don't mean I'm a demon
There's an inner darkness within me, but that doesn't make me an evil person, contrary to the judgments of others

I'm no angel either so I'm just in between then
I'm neither holy nor malevolent, but rather in between

I don't need a halo, no horns or no wings
I do not need the trappings of good or evil, I am just me

My g you must tripping
Slang for saying someone must be joking or not serious

I pull up on the scene, I got good intentions
I enter this situation with pure intentions

Forgetting you dudes like I got dementia
I will forget about you people like someone with dementia forgets things

Erase all my pain with a pad and a pencil
I cope with my pain by writing music

I know I'm fucked up and at times I can be stuck man, this shit really sucks man
I am aware that I have mental health issues and it can be frustrating

Swear it's all mental
It's all in my head

Healing myself to me is detrimental
In trying to heal myself, I might cause more harm than good

Fucking me over Ye nobody meant to
Kanye West is mentioned as someone who has wronged him, but not intentionally

Thats what they all say "I never meant to hurt you"
People often say they didn't mean to cause hurt or pain, but that doesn't necessarily make it any easier

But anyways I just want some better days
I'm looking for some positivity and improvements in my life

I just wanna see some light cause this room be full of haze
I need some hope and light in my life. Things are currently cloudy and unclear

Wanna go away but every single turn I take feels like a maze
I want to escape my mental struggles, but my attempts at escape always seem to lead to dead ends

Hoping it'll be a over soon but it's just gonna repeat every day
I hope my struggles will be over soon, but I'm afraid they're just going to continue daily

This shit just repeats everyday
My struggles are cyclical and repetitive

I think I might go insane
I'm on the edge of losing my mind

Feels like my emotions are stuck inside a cage
It feels like I can't free myself from my negative emotions

One day I'll be telling all these stories up on stage
One day I'll be able to tell my story on stage through my music

One day imma be a legend, never gon loose faith
I'm going to be a legend, and I won't lose hope or faith in the future

Before she suck my dick, I tell her use a toothpaste
Crass lyric expressing the idea that oral sex should be done with dental hygiene in mind

Me and Kush be smoking kush up in the booth aye
Referring to smoking marijuana in the recording booth

She ask me if I'm winning, bitch I never loose aye
She asks me if I'm successful, and my response is that I never lose

She ain't my missus, thats some pussy I just used aye
This female was not in a committed relationship to me, but rather just a sexual encounter

I'm sipping liquor out the bottle like its cool-aid
Drinking alcohol casually without a care in the world

These Bitches. heh, They a headache
Women are a source of problems and stress in my life

I can't figure out where my heads at
I can't properly or consistently understand my own mental state

And I got shadows in my head
There are always negative thoughts lingering in the back of my mind

Keeping me in place
These thoughts are trapping me in a place of darkness and psychological pain

Keeping me from going insane
These thoughts are actually keeping me from reaching a point of true psychological breakdown

People tellin me too change
People are urging me to change my ways, but it's not so simple for me

Ye I got shadows in my head
I reiterate that the darkness lingers in my mind, and it's hard to shake

Devil rotting my brain
The negative thoughts and feelings are corroding my ability to think and act mentally sound

Angels tryna keep me safe
I feel that there are positive influences trying to help me through my struggles

I guess I'm never gon change nah
Despite the various trials and tribulations, I don't think I'll ever truly change who I am