Problems
A.S. ØNE Lyrics

I got a problem saying no
I struggle to refuse or decline requests or demands.

Also got a problem saying fuck you, nigga
I find it difficult to express anger or contempt towards others.

Got a problem with how much I been in my phone
I'm concerned about the amount of time I spend on my phone.

Still leave people on read when they text me what you up to, nigga
I often ignore or don't respond to messages, even when people ask how I'm doing.

I got friends trying to pull me out my home
My friends are attempting to convince me to leave my house.

Wish I felt better, I would love to, nigga
I wish I felt better emotionally, so I could join them.

But black clouds a bitch and half tho
Depression is extremely difficult and overwhelming.

Soft boundary, people pleaser
I struggle to set firm boundaries and often prioritize pleasing others instead.

That shit will fuck you up, oooh, nigga
Such behavior can have negative consequences and deeply affect you.

I guess I got a problem with my self worth
I realize I struggle with valuing myself.

I admit it, for a minute I been wrestling with it
I acknowledge that I've been grappling with this issue for some time.

That's what happens when you put everyone else first
When you consistently prioritize others, this is the result.

Tendency to just accept the things I'm given
I have a habit of simply accepting whatever is given to me.

Turn around and give what little I have
Then I give away whatever small amount I possess.

I stretch myself thin so that my people don't feel like me
I exhaust myself to the point where my loved ones don't experience what I'm going through.

I mean I'm alive, it can't be that bad
I rationalize my struggles by reminding myself that I'm still alive.

Never suicidal, but more times I feel I'd rather just not be
While I'm not suicidal, there are moments when I wish I didn't exist.

This too shall pass, this too shall pass
People say that difficult times will eventually come to an end, over and over.

They say that in times like these
This phrase is often mentioned during challenging periods.

That's true, that's fact
It's an accurate and undeniable statement.

Reverend Collins say lean on the one who made us
Reverend Collins suggests relying on the entity who created us.

How I'm supposed to put my faith in a God slave owners gave us
I struggle with trusting a God that was imposed upon us by slave owners.

Matter fact slave owners made us
In fact, our existence and beliefs were shaped by slave owners.

Nevermind that's for another time
Let's leave that topic for a different discussion.

I know that she means well
I understand that she has good intentions.

But that don't help my tired mind
However, it doesn't provide relief for my exhausted mind.

Yeah this too shall pass, but I come right back
Yes, difficult times will pass, but I find myself returning to similar struggles.

Vicious circle, eyes filling up as I write that
It's a never-ending cycle, and tears well up in my eyes as I write those words.

Empty vessel, dont got it in me to fight back
I feel like an empty vessel, lacking the strength to resist or retaliate.

Chief Keef, that shit, I don't like that
I dislike Chief Keef's music or style.

Uncomfortable, feeling like I've outgrown it all
I feel uneasy and as if I've surpassed or outgrown my current circumstances.

Feeling chained in, feeling like I might snap
I feel trapped and on the verge of breaking under pressure.

I got a problem letting go
I struggle with releasing or moving on from certain things.

All my baggage and my trauma yeah I carry that
I carry the weight of my emotional baggage and past traumas.

Every time I put it down
Every instance I try to let go of it.

It end up back in the backpack
It always ends up returning to haunt me.

And honestly I think it's kind of scary that
To be honest, I find it quite frightening that.

Any day I could explode
At any moment, I could emotionally unravel or lose control.

And bleed on people I love
This emotional turmoil would affect the people I care about.

People who ain't leave the scars
The individuals who haven't caused me pain or hurt.

And I cant have that
I cannot bear to subject them to my emotional upheaval.

So I'd rather be left alone
As a result, I prefer to be isolated or left without company.

Know it ain't the right approach
I understand that it isn't the most effective or healthy way to handle things.

That recluse shit all I know
Being a recluse is the only coping mechanism I'm familiar with.

Guess that's my bad
I suppose that's my fault or shortcoming.