When the Lights Go Out
Adam Turley Lyrics


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[verse]
You’re looking at me
This smile it says I’m happy
You know the sad thing
It’s never been this lonely
Why am I laughing
When I don’t think you’re funny
I feel so badly
For giving up the old me

[pre]
And when I really break down my barriers
I start to realize I might have failed ya
I didn’t try
I compromised who I am inside
And I’ve been keeping chips on my shoulder
Instead of wiser I’m just getting older
I just watched me die
I think I need to save my life

[chorus]
I wonder when did I sell out
When will I learn to trust myself
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out  

I guess I really lost myself
By trying to be someone else
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out  



[verse 2]

Everybody’s trying to be so loud
Should I open up or should I shut my mouth?
Every time I speak it’s like you’re zoning out
I guess that’s what I get for being vulnerable
I could lie and say I don’t really care what you think
But I die every time I feel this anxiety
Why’s it so hard to just say what I mean? (What do I mean)


[pre]
And when I really break down my barriers
I start to realize I might have failed ya
I didn’t try
I compromised who I am inside
And I’ve been keeping chips on my shoulder
Instead of wiser I’m just getting older
I just watched me die
I think I need to save my life

[chorus]
I wonder when did I sell out
When will I learn to trust myself
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out  

I guess I really lost myself
By trying to be someone else
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out  

[outro}
When will I learn to trust myself? X3
Who am I when the lights go out?





When will I learn to trust myself? X3
Who am I when the lights go out?

Overall Meaning

In Adam Turley's song "When The Lights Go Out," the lyrics delve into the internal struggle of self-doubt and identity crisis. The verses paint a picture of a facade being maintained, with a smile on the outside while feeling lonely and disconnected on the inside. The singer questions why they are laughing when they don't find things funny and expresses regret for giving up their true self. This juxtaposition of outward appearance and inner turmoil sets the stage for a deeper exploration of personal reflection and growth.


The pre-chorus highlights the singer's realization of their own shortcomings and failures, acknowledging that they may have let someone down by not being true to themselves. There is a sense of inner conflict and regret for compromising their authenticity and letting themselves down in the process. The use of "keeping chips on my shoulder" metaphorically represents carrying burdens and grudges instead of growing and evolving as a person, leading to a sense of stagnation and self-destruction.


The chorus serves as a poignant reflection on the singer's journey of self-discovery and rediscovery. They question when they lost themselves and when they started trying to be someone they are not. The repeated inquiry of "Who am I when the lights go out?" emphasizes the idea of confronting one's true identity and values when external influences fade away. It's a contemplation of finding authenticity and self-acceptance in the midst of uncertainty and self-doubt.


In the second verse, the singer navigates the complexities of opening up to others versus staying guarded. They struggle with feeling unheard or misunderstood when they express themselves, leading to a fear of vulnerability and rejection. The internal battle of wanting to speak their truth but facing anxiety and hesitation is palpable in these lines. The repeated reflection on the need to save their own life encapsulates the theme of self-discovery and personal transformation that runs through the song. Overall, "When The Lights Go Out" offers a raw and introspective look at the struggle to find one's true self amidst societal pressures and personal insecurities.


Line by Line Meaning

You’re looking at me
I am presenting a facade to you


This smile it says I’m happy
My smile does not reflect my true emotions


You know the sad thing
It is unfortunate


It’s never been this lonely
I have never felt so isolated


Why am I laughing
I am masking my true feelings


When I don’t think you’re funny
Even though I do not find you humorous


I feel so badly
I am filled with regret


For giving up the old me
For losing touch with who I used to be


Everybody’s trying to be so loud
Everyone is seeking attention


Should I open up or should I shut my mouth?
Should I be honest or stay silent?


Every time I speak it’s like you’re zoning out
I feel ignored when I express myself


I guess that’s what I get for being vulnerable
I face consequences for showing my true emotions


I could lie and say I don’t really care what you think
I could pretend not to be affected by your opinion


But I die every time I feel this anxiety
Anxiety overwhelms me and impacts me deeply


Why’s it so hard to just say what I mean? (What do I mean)
Why do I struggle to communicate my true thoughts and intentions?


When will I learn to trust myself? X3
When will I have confidence in my own judgment?


Who am I when the lights go out?
Who am I when there is no one watching?




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Adam Turley, Mason Murphy

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