Roots
Adriel Lyrics
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You feel like life ain't even real
You ever held a gun to your own head
Thinking that'll make it heal
You ever been so lost, so gone, told the devil make the deal
All the mass hatin', God take me, tell me how to feel
I been in my head so much, dead so much
Man in the mirror where I put my trust
Kid wanting love now his fam is gone and
He don't know how to react
Puttin' on a smile, but it's just an act
'Cause he don't really know how to feel
He don't really know how to deal
Trynna get rid of the chills
Bro sent to jail
Mom with a new dude every year
But momma just said a new baby's comin'
Momma just said a new baby's comin'
Yuh
Now momma dealin' with that
Step-dad beating on her back
Kid just wants mom back
Kids trynna pick up tracks
Kids got kids on his back
Starts getting bullied everyday
Starts getting pressed got none to say
Trynna just get through his day to day
But one wrong move made his anger change
Look, yuh
Throwing fists
One lands on his head but he ain't notice it
Cause he's lettin loose all the pent up s****
Everything they said, all the things they did
Left hand
Gets the dude on the ground
Friend jumps in getting out from the crowd
Kid gets up
Everything different when he walks on home to his mom who won't listen
Focus
On this, you owe me
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
O, woah woah woah
Where I used to be
In these
Yeah
Ah
Focus
On this, you owe me
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
O, woah woah woah
Where I used to be
In these
Yeah
Ah
Out every night to distract himself
His mind's racin' and he's losing health
He ain't trust no one no more
Now he's losing his mind some more
He got broken feelings, broken heart
Let out his thoughts trynna make some art
Now he found some passion in the music
Only way he patchin' up the bruises
Up at 3AM every night
'Cause he can't sleep so he starts to write
Starts writing down everything he felt
With some hope it'll take him out of hell
Thoughts turn to lyrics, finally feeling better
Clouds are fading music changed the weather
Starts showing it to everyone he knows
Now how the kid really feels starts to show
Starts showing up again to school
People hate him still but that's cool
'Cause he found his place and he knows his truth
All he ever did was try to make it through
He ain't worried
About who did him dirty
Accepted sorries he ain't ever heard 'em
And now he ain't losing no sleep
All those nightmares turned into dreams
Focus
On this, you owe me
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
O, woah woah woah
Where I used to be
In these
Yeah
Ah
Focus
On this, you owe me
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
O, woah woah woah
Where I used to be
In these
Yeah
Ah
Focus
On this, you owe me
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
O, woah woah woah
Where I used to be
In these
Yeah
Ah
The lyrics to Adriel's song "ROOTS" tell the story of a young person who has experienced significant loss and hardship in their life. The song explores themes of mental health, trauma, and resilience. The opening lines describe the singer being trapped inside their own thoughts and feeling disconnected from reality. They express a moment of desperation where they contemplate ending their own life, hoping that it will somehow bring healing.
As the song continues, we learn that the singer's life has been marked by tragedy and abandonment. They lost their family at a young age and struggle to cope with their emotions. They put on a facade of happiness but deep down, they don't know how to truly feel or deal with their pain. They yearn for love and stability but instead, they face abuse from a stepfather while their mother seems to move on with new relationships and children.
The song then shifts to a turning point in the singer's life. They start getting bullied and pressed by others, feeling the weight of their circumstances. In a fit of anger, they retaliate and become empowered, realizing the strength within themselves. This newfound power gives them the courage to confront their mother and demand her attention, although it seems that she remains indifferent.
In the third verse, the singer seeks solace and distraction outside their home. They engage in self-destructive behavior, staying out every night to numb their racing mind and deteriorating health. However, they eventually find an outlet for their pain in music. Writing and creating music becomes their way of expressing their emotions and healing their wounds.
The song concludes with the singer finding their place in the world. They become more resilient and unbothered by the opinions of others. They no longer lose sleep over the past traumas and nightmares, as they have transformed into hopeful dreams. The lyrics emphasize the importance of focusing on personal growth and self-expression, despite the hardships faced along the way.
Line by Line Meaning
You ever been inside your head so much
Have you ever been consumed by your own thoughts and emotions?
You feel like life ain't even real
Feeling disconnected from reality and questioning the meaning of life
You ever held a gun to your own head
Have you ever contemplated self-harm as a way to find relief or escape?
Thinking that'll make it heal
Believing that such extreme measures can provide healing or solace
You ever been so lost, so gone, told the devil make the deal
Have you ever felt completely lost, willing to make a pact with the devil to find your way?
All the mass hatin', God take me, tell me how to feel
Amidst the overwhelming negativity and judgment from others, pleading with God to guide one's emotions
I been in my head so much, dead so much
I have spent a significant amount of time consumed by my own thoughts and emotions, feeling emotionally dead
Man in the mirror where I put my trust
Relying on self-reflection and introspection as a source of trust and understanding
15 years old when it all started
At the age of 15, everything began to unfold
Kid wanting love now his fam is gone and
A young individual yearning for love and support, but their family is no longer present
He don't know how to react
Feeling unsure and lost, lacking knowledge on how to respond
Puttin' on a smile, but it's just an act
Pretending to be happy, but deep inside, it's all a facade
'Cause he don't really know how to feel
Being unable to grasp and understand one's own emotions
He don't really know how to deal
Struggling to cope and manage with the challenges and hardships
Trynna get rid of the chills
Attempting to rid oneself of the overwhelming fear or discomfort
Bro sent to jail
Brother being incarcerated, adding to the family's troubles
Mom with a new dude every year
The mother being involved with different partners every year, causing instability
But momma just said a new baby's comin'
Despite the circumstances, the mother announces the arrival of a new baby
Now momma dealin' with that
The mother now having to handle the responsibilities and challenges of a new baby
Step-dad beating on her back
The step-father becoming physically abusive towards the mother
Kid just wants mom back
The child longing for their mother's love and presence
Kids trynna pick up tracks
The child attempting to find their own path and navigate through difficult circumstances
Kids got kids on his back
Being burdened with responsibilities and pressures at a young age
Starts getting bullied everyday
Experiencing constant harassment and mistreatment from peers
Starts getting pressed got none to say
Feeling overwhelmed and unable to defend oneself from the pressure and confrontations
Trynna just get through his day to day
Simply trying to navigate through each day and overcome the challenges
But one wrong move made his anger change
A single misstep leading to a transformation of anger and resentment
Throwing fists
Engaging in physical fights
One lands on his head but he ain't notice it
Getting hit in the head during the fight, but not being fully aware of the impact
Cause he's lettin loose all the pent up s****
Releasing all the built-up frustrations and negative emotions through physical aggression
Everything they said, all the things they did
All the hurtful words and actions thrown at him by others
Left hand
Using the left hand as a reference to the physical aggression and fight
Gets the dude on the ground
Successfully bringing down the person he was fighting against
Friend jumps in getting out from the crowd
A friend intervenes and assists him in escaping from the chaotic situation
Kid gets up
The child regains strength and stands up
Everything different when he walks on home to his mom who won't listen
Returning home to a mother who is unresponsive and unwilling to listen to his struggles
Focus
Directing one's attention and energy
On this, you owe me
Demanding attention and recognition from those who have wronged him
Caught me slippin back in emotion ah
Others taking advantage of his vulnerable state and exploiting his emotions
Wanna make it work when I'm gettin' back
Desiring to rebuild and reconcile when he is in a better state of mind
O, woah woah woah
Expressing surprise and intensity of emotions
Where I used to be
Referring to a past state of being
In these
Referring to the present circumstances and emotions
Out every night to distract himself
Engaging in activities and being out to avoid confronting his own thoughts and feelings
His mind's racin' and he's losing health
Experiencing a racing and overwhelmed mind, resulting in declining mental and physical well-being
He ain't trust no one no more
Losing trust in others due to past experiences and disappointments
Now he's losing his mind some more
Continuing to deteriorate mentally and emotionally
He got broken feelings, broken heart
Having shattered emotions and a wounded heart
Let out his thoughts trynna make some art
Expressing his inner thoughts and emotions through artistic creations
Now he found some passion in the music
Discovering a sense of purpose and enjoyment in music
Only way he patchin' up the bruises
Using music as a means of healing and mending the emotional wounds
Up at 3AM every night
Staying awake until the early hours of the morning, unable to sleep
'Cause he can't sleep so he starts to write
Unable to find rest, he begins to write and express his thoughts and emotions
Starts writing down everything he felt
Putting into words all the emotions and experiences he has gone through
With some hope it'll take him out of hell
Having faith that his creative expressions will help him escape from his personal hell
Thoughts turn to lyrics, finally feeling better
Transforming his inner thoughts into lyrics, resulting in a sense of emotional relief and improvement
Clouds are fading, music changed the weather
The metaphorical dark clouds of despair and negativity dissipate, and music brings about a positive change
Starts showing it to everyone he knows
Sharing his music and emotions with those close to him
Now how the kid really feels starts to show
His true emotions and experiences begin to surface and become evident
Starts showing up again to school
Returning to school and being present in his education
People hate him still but that's cool
Despite facing continued dislike and animosity from others, he remains unfazed
'Cause he found his place and he knows his truth
Finding a sense of belonging and understanding his own identity
All he ever did was try to make it through
His only goal has been to survive and overcome the hardships he has faced
He ain't worried
He is not concerned or bothered
About who did him dirty
Not bothered by those who have wronged him
Accepted sorries he ain't ever heard 'em
Acknowledging apologies, but never actually hearing them from those who have hurt him
And now he ain't losing no sleep
No longer losing sleep or being troubled by his past experiences
All those nightmares turned into dreams
Transforming the once distressing nightmares into hopeful dreams
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Joseph Guariglia
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