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Filter
Aftertheparty Lyrics
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I just don't have a limit no more
I don't want this filter no more
Shut the fuck up and let me say what i want then I'll go
When you leave in the morning don't wake me up tip toe
It's time to be tough no tears allowed in my household
It's kind of what you signed up for
What do you really know about me?
I mean really think about it
There's a reason why these drugs around me
I keep my people around me
My mind is going cloudy
Why you keep me around baby?
Why you keep me around?
I don't think that i deserve it
I know that you put the work in
I promise that you don't want this
I promise that you don't want this
Gas got me paranoid but i don't want to stop
I just don't have a limit no more
I don't want this filter no more
Shut the fuck up and let me say what I want then I'll go
The lyrics to Aftertheparty's song "Filter" delve into the self-destructive behavior that can come with substance abuse. The opening lines mention feeling paranoid due to the use of drugs ("gas"), but still not wanting to stop. The singer has lost their ability to set limits for themselves and feels stuck in this cycle. They no longer want to filter themselves or their actions, expressing frustration with those who try to control them.
Later in the song, the singer addresses a partner who seems to be trying to help them. Despite feeling love and appreciation for this person, there is a sense of apprehension about their involvement in the singer's life. The use of drugs is a clear part of their identity and the people they surround themselves with. The singer wonders why they are still being kept around, admitting that they don't feel deserving of the affection and attention they receive.
Overall, the song seems to be a confession of sorts, exploring the emotions behind a dangerous and addictive lifestyle. The singer is aware of the harm they are causing to themselves and others, but feel trapped in their behaviors.
Line by Line Meaning
Gas got me paranoid but i don't want to stop
I am afraid of the consequences of my drug use, but I cannot bring myself to stop using them.
I just don't have a limit no more
I have lost my ability to control my drug intake.
I don't want this filter no more
I don't want to hide behind a façade any longer when it comes to my drug use.
Shut the fuck up and let me say what i want then I'll go
Please allow me to express my thoughts and feelings before I leave.
When you leave in the morning don't wake me up tip toe
I am not interested in interacting with you when you leave in the morning.
It's time to be tough no tears allowed in my household
I need to be strong and not allow myself to be emotional in my personal space.
Keep telling me that i'm childish and an asshole i know but baby
You continue to criticize me, but I am aware of my flaws.
It's kind of what you signed up for
You knew about my flaws and struggles before entering this relationship.
What do you really know about me?
You do not truly understand who I am as a person.
I mean really think about it
I urge you to take the time to truly consider who I am and my struggles.
There's a reason why these drugs around me
I am using drugs for a specific reason, whether it be to cope or escape.
I keep my people around me
I surround myself with those who understand and do not judge my struggles.
My mind is going cloudy
My drug use is affecting my mental clarity and judgment.
Why you keep me around baby?
I am questioning why you continue to stay with me despite my flaws and struggles.
Why you keep me around?
I am continuing to question why you choose to stay by my side.
I don't think that i deserve it
I do not believe that I am worthy of your love and support.
I know that you put the work in
I acknowledge that you are putting effort into our relationship.
I promise that you don't want this
I am warning you that being with me comes with many struggles and hardships.
I promise that you don't want this
I reiterate that it would be in your best interest to leave this relationship.
Contributed by Evelyn T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.