holding back the years
Alechia James Lyrics

Holding back the years,
Suppressing my emotions and concealing my struggles that have persisted for a long time.

Thinking of the fear I've had for so long.
Recalling the anxiety and dread that have been afflicting me for an extended period.

When somebody hears,
Once someone listens with empathy and understanding.

Listen to the fear that's gone.
Pay attention to the fear that I have conquered and overcome.

Strangled by the wishes of pater,
Choked by the expectations and desires of my father.

Hoping for the arm of mater,
Longing for the comfort and support of my mother.

Get to me sooner or later,
Reach me inevitably, sooner or later.

Nothing ever could, yeah.
Despite my efforts, nothing was able to change my past or present.

I'll keep holding on,
I will persevere and cling to my hope and strength.

Chance for me to escape from all I know.
An opportunity for me to break free from my life and surroundings.

Holding back the tears.
Suppressing the urge to weep and express my deep emotions.

There's nothing here has grown.
Everything in my life has remained stagnant and unchanged.

I've wasted all my tears,
I have exhausted all my energy crying over things that never changed.

Wasted all those years.
I have squandered precious time and missed opportunities.

Nothing had the chance to be good,
Nothing in my life was given the opportunity to turn out well.

I'll keep holding on,
I will persist in believing and striving for something better.

I'll keep holding on,
I will continue to cling to my hope and strength.

I'll keep holding on,
I will persevere and remain steadfast.

I'll keep holding on,
I will hold on tightly to what I believe in and not let go.