I Don't Even Know Why Though
Alina Baraz Lyrics

You know what to say on my way out
You seem to have perfected the skill of saying the correct words when I'm about to leave.

Hit me with the "Hey, been a while"
You greet me with a casual "Hey, been a while" every time, as if nothing ever happened.

Now I'm going straight through the fire, fire
I am willingly walking towards a dangerous and painful situation.

(I don't even know why though)
I am unsure and confused about why I am doing this to myself.

Get me on a wave then you fade out
You get me invested and excited, but then you suddenly disappear.

Hit me with the light, got me tired
You attract me with your attention, but then exhaust me with inconsistency.

I should get away from you, I know, I know
I am consciously aware that I need to distance myself from you.

(I don't even know why though)
However, I can't explain why I keep coming back to you.

High hopes, I fall for the cycle
I have high expectations but constantly find myself falling into the same unhealthy pattern.

High low, I'm on on a spiral
I experience intense highs and lows that leave me feeling trapped in a downward spiral.

Love me, wide open then leave me
You love me wholeheartedly for a time, but then abandon me without warning.

I don't (I don't even know why though)
I don't understand why I subject myself to this emotional turmoil.

Maybe it's the love that you show me
Perhaps the intense love and affection you give me is what keeps me coming back.

Make my body feel like it's holy
Your love and attention make me feel pure and sacred.

(Feel too good to say you hurt too much, too late)
It feels so good in the moment that I ignore the pain and only realize it's too much when it's too late.

You're just what I need (I don't even know why though)
I acknowledge that I need you in my life, but I don't understand why it has to be so painful.

I just want to put my weight on you
I want to depend on you for support and comfort.

Switch it, smoke it, I'mma sway on you
I'll try to distract myself with other things, but ultimately I'll always come back to you.

Know I shouldn't, I'mma wait on you
Despite knowing that it's not healthy, I'll still wait around for you.

I don't even know why though
I am perplexed and unsure about why I continue to choose this pattern of behavior.