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1) Anasarca is a emotional hardcore band from Washington D.C,USA.
Though their recorded output was a bit on the skimpy side, Anasarca definitely had it’s place in the rise of mathematical emotional hardcore. Blending a complex mix of DC post-punk and hardcore, the seven tracks on ‘Discography’ will appease many a fan of the current crop of “screamo” aficionados, as well as those interested in the progression of the genre of mathematically-diverse hardcore. And while Anasarca may seem to be another in the crop of “new school” core, remembering that the band was doing this some 7 years ago opens ones eyes to the undeniable impact they must have had on those who witnessed their emotional outpouring.
Based in DC, it is only fitting that Anasarca would incorporate the off-kilter song structures of Fugazi and combine it with the fury of metal and hardcore. Relying on complexities, tracks like “Eugene Debs” continue to evolve with each listen; the work and passion that went into these tracks is one of uncompromising dedication. There are few 4/4 time structures, but rather a diverse mix of subtle palmed treble charged guitar atmospherics that give way to thick chords (and accented with high string plucks at each swelling bridge). Strongest track for me was most definitely “Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt”; beginning with straight ahead hardcore and delving into emo and mathematical territories without losing focus amid the clatter. Bands such as this are tough to call for those unfamiliar. Anasarca are not immediately pleasing or catchy. Given that we have since been exposed to the likes of Dillinger Escape Plan, Drowningman and bands of that nature, it is difficult to be immediately be blown away by diverse outings such as this. But when listened to intently, there is much to be savored, and only then does the depth of Anasarca’s work begin to bridge the gap. I did find “Stationary People” to incorporate a modification of the bass line (in pitch, but with the same pluck) to Nirvana’s “Smell’s Like Teen Spirit”, though it represents only a small portion of the 4 plus minute track…But as a whole, there is a vast array of originality represented here that solidifies the devotion those familiar with the band tend to display.
Though only 7 tracks are represented, they are long in composition and ultimately satisfying with the proper dedication to listening. You can’t just hear a band like this, or their depth will fall flat…But if you give Anasarca the same dedication they exhibited in their songwriting, you are sure to feel satisfied with the honesty and complexity that it holds. Not a record worth hearing…a record worth listening. Kudos to Second Nature for recognizing this aspect and giving us a chance to share in the moment. For mathematical emo-philes and complex hardcore lovers…a bit of history that’s worth revisiting.
2) Anasarca (http://www.anasarca.de/) is a death metal band formed in July 1995 in Emden, Germany. Its original members were Heiner (drums) and Michael (Guitar/Vocals) who left their old band Vomiting Corpses right after the release of the Coma (the Spheres of Innocense) album.
One week after Anasarca originally formed, they released their promo tape entitled Condemned Truth, and at that time took on Frank (Guitar) and Chris (Bass), who left their local band Vae Solis. After some more member bouncing in August 1997, Heiner left and Herbert joined due to his insanely fast-paced drum beats. Finally in August 1998, they released their first album entitled Godmachine through Repulse Records.
Again, Anasarca did some member switching - and label switching - and in February 2001 released their second album Moribund through the Danish label puny Music. For this album they did a European tour.
Current Members
Michael Dormann - Guitars, Vocals (since 1995), Bass (since 2001)
Daniel Schneider - Drums (since 2013)
Steffen Parth - Guitars (since 2013)
Michael Ernst - Guitars (since 2013)
Carsten Geerlings - Guitars (since 2013)
Former members
Joshi Wang - Guitars (2003-2013)
Christian Jansen - Bass (1995-2001)
Heiner Saliger - Drums (1995-1997)
Frank Tholen - Guitars (1995-1999)
Herbert Grimm - Drums (1998-2004)
Benjamin Hakbilir - Guitars (2000-2001)
If Only...
Anasarca Lyrics
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Here I sit in my cell
Plain white, stone cold walls.
All alone with my thoughts, memories
and my regrets to keep me company.
WISHING ONLY IF . . .
Dreaming of holding my babies,
Watching them grow up.
Dreaming I could see and touch
my Mom without the glass.
IF ONLY . . .
IF ONLY . . .
I HAD REACHED OUT!
Dreaming of feeling wet grass on bare feet.
The sun on my face, wind in my hair.
Watching the stars
Feeling peace, hope, happiness, and belonging
IF ONLY . . . I' D REACHED OUT!
Reality, I' m alone on DEATH ROW.
With no sense of hope, peace, or happiness.
Day in, day out, I relive my failures, regrets
And that terrible night, knowing I'm
to blame for losing my babies.
Realizing that what I dream of most
Could have been reality for me
Could have been reality for them
IF ONLY . . . I' D REACHED OUT!
Here I sit in my cell
Plain white, stone cold walls.
All alone with my thoughts, memories
and my regrets to keep me company.
WISHING ONLY IF . . .
I 'D REACHED OUT!
The lyrics of Anasarca's song "If Only" paint a vivid picture of the regrets and longing of someone on death row. The singer is alone in their cell, surrounded by plain white walls that feel stone cold. While they have only their thoughts, memories, and regrets to keep them company, they dream of something more.
The singer wishes that they could hold their babies, hear their laughter, and watch them grow up. They also dream of feeling the sun on their face, grass on their bare feet, and the wind in their hair. These simple pleasures are out of reach for the singer, who is resigned to spend their life on death row.
Despite this bleak reality, the singer recognizes that things might have been different if they had reached out. They are haunted by the memories of the terrible night when they lost their children and the realization that they are to blame for it. The song's poignant refrain - "if only I'd reached out" - is a reminder that it's never too late to make a change, even for someone on death row.
Line by Line Meaning
Here I sit in my cell
I am confined in a small space surrounded by plain, white, and stone cold walls.
Plain white, stone cold walls.
The walls are colorless and made of cold stones, adding to my discomfort and loneliness.
All alone with my thoughts, memories
I am by myself with only my mind to think and remember.
and my regrets to keep me company.
The only companions that I have are my remorseful thoughts.
WISHING ONLY IF . . .
My only desire is for a different outcome of the past.
Dreaming of holding my babies,
I imagine holding my children and feeling their warmth and love.
hearing their tiny voices and laughter.
I long to hear the sound of their innocent voices and laughter.
Watching them grow up.
I wish to witness the growth and development of my children into adults.
Dreaming I could see and touch
I visualize the sensation of touching and seeing my mother.
my Mom without the glass.
I desire to connect with my mother without the barrier of a glass wall between us.
IF ONLY . . .
If only I had acted differently in the past, my current circumstances could be different.
IF ONLY . . .
I repeat this phrase, wishing that I could have changed the past.
I HAD REACHED OUT!
If only I had made an effort to change the outcome of events, instead of letting things unfold as they did.
Dreaming of feeling wet grass on bare feet.
I envision the sensation of stepping barefoot on wet grass, a feeling of being alive and free.
The sun on my face, wind in my hair.
I yearn for the feeling of the sun and wind on my skin, a sensory experience that I miss on a daily basis.
Watching the stars
I long to observe the stars in the sky, a sight that reminds me of the vastness and beauty of the universe.
Feeling peace, hope, happiness, and belonging
I imagine feeling a sense of inner peace, hope for the future, happiness, and a sense of belonging.
IF ONLY . . . I' D REACHED OUT!
I repeat this phrase, beating myself up for not taking action when I had the chance to change the course of events.
Reality, I' m alone on DEATH ROW.
The harsh reality is that I am completely alone, and my fate is already sealed.
With no sense of hope, peace, or happiness.
I feel devoid of any sense of optimism, tranquility, or joy.
Day in, day out, I relive my failures, regrets
Every day passes with the pain of thinking about my past mistakes and feeling guilty about not changing the outcome.
And that terrible night, knowing I'm
I remember the moment when everything changed and the horrific realization that I am responsible for the loss of my babies.
to blame for losing my babies.
I am at fault for the tragic loss of my children.
Realizing that what I dream of most
I understand that the things I desire the most were within my reach, but it's too late now.
Could have been reality for me
The outcomes that I visioned for myself and my family could have been real if only I had acted differently in the past.
IF ONLY . . . I' D REACHED OUT!
I repeat this phrase again, wishing that I had taken action when I still had the chance to change the future.
Here I sit in my cell
I end where I had started, still subjected to the same cold, isolated, and barren environment.
Plain white, stone cold walls.
My surroundings are the same, the walls still colorless and cold, making me feel trapped and helpless.
All alone with my thoughts, memories
I am still by myself with nothing but my thoughts and memories to comfort and haunt me.
and my regrets to keep me company.
I am still consumed by my past mistakes and remorse, the only constant companionship that I have left.
WISHING ONLY IF . . .
As I conclude this song, the only emotions that I am left with are futile wishes and regretful thoughts, wishing that I could have changed the course of events, but powerless to do so now.
I 'D REACHED OUT!
I end with the same phrase that has been repeating throughout the song, expressing my deep regret for not having reached out when I had the chance.
Contributed by Alyssa N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.