Long way home
Antigoni Lyrics
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Standstill but my minds racing
Car beeps from behind snaps me back to reality
Right turn left turn like I'm flipping pennies
No sense just moving so spacey
Truthfully I coulda really been back bout an hour ago
Fact is I don't know what I'm doing
And I been keeping my head in the ground
Streetlights but my vision’s so blurry
Turn up got the music on so loud
Tryna drown everything else out
Lately
I've been taking the long way home
Driving backwards down these empty roads
Tryna figure what's inside my soul
But I don't know now I don't know
Looking for answers but I've lost control
In my feelings heavy on my own
I'm not ready to admit my thoughts so
I'll keep going yeah, ima the long way home
Eyes closed, time’s slow I know I'm avoiding
Phone rings but I just leave it hanging
Cos I know right now my voice would just give it all away
Don't know what it is I'm waiting for
Really I'm just delaying the inevitable
Cos I don't think it's reversible
Lately
I've been taking the long way home
Driving backwards down these empty roads
Tryna figure what's inside my soul
But I don't know now I don't know
Looking for answers but I've lost control
In my feelings baby on my own
I'm not ready to admit my thoughts so
I'll keep going yeah, ima take the long way home
In the first paragraph, the singer describes a sense of being stuck and unmoving, both physically and mentally. The red light turning green symbolizes opportunities and progress, but despite this, the singer feels stagnant and trapped. The sound of a car horn from behind snaps them back to reality, reminding them of their surroundings. The references to flipping pennies and moving in a haphazard manner suggest a lack of direction or purpose. The line "Truthfully I coulda really been back bout an hour ago" indicates a recognition of wasted time and missed opportunities.
Moving on to the second paragraph, the lyrics express a general feeling of despair and uncertainty. The singer feels like everything is falling apart and they've been avoiding facing their problems. They choose to keep their head down, possibly to avoid confronting the reality of their situation. The mention of streetlights and blurry vision symbolizes a lack of clarity or understanding. They turn up the music loudly, perhaps as a coping mechanism to drown out their thoughts and momentarily escape their troubles.
In the third paragraph, the singer continues on their journey, but with a sense of purpose and introspection. They take the "long way home" as a metaphor for searching for answers within themselves. They acknowledge feeling lost and out of control, and express a desire to understand what is happening within their soul. However, they admit that they don't know the answers, and this lack of clarity adds to their feelings of being overwhelmed and heavy-hearted. They are not yet ready to confront or admit their thoughts or emotions, so they continue on their journey, hoping to find resolution in the long run.
In the fourth paragraph, the singer takes a moment to describe their state of mind further. They close their eyes to shut out the outside world and purposely avoid answering the phone, knowing that speaking up would reveal their vulnerability. They admit to not knowing what they are waiting for and acknowledge that their current actions are only delaying the inevitable. The line "Cos I don't think it's reversible" conveys a sense of hopelessness or resignation, suggesting that the situation they are in cannot be easily undone or changed.
Ultimately, the overall theme of the song seems to revolve around a feeling of being lost, uncertain, and struggling to confront one's thoughts and emotions. The journey home represents a search for self-discovery and understanding, even if it means taking a longer and more challenging path. The lyrics convey a sense of internal struggle and a reluctance to face the truth, but hint at a determination to continue moving forward despite the pain and confusion.
Line by Line Meaning
Red light turns green but I'm not moving
I have the opportunity to move forward, but I choose to stay stagnant.
Standstill but my minds racing
While I may physically be still, my mind is overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions.
Car beeps from behind snaps me back to reality
A honk from a car behind me reminds me of my current situation and brings me back to the present moment.
Right turn left turn like I'm flipping pennies
I make random turns without any clear direction, unsure of where to go.
No sense just moving so spacey
I am mindlessly moving without any purpose or sense of direction.
Truthfully I coulda really been back bout an hour ago
In reality, I could have reached my destination much earlier, but my indecisiveness and lack of focus caused unnecessary delays.
Fact is I don't know what I'm doing
The truth is, I am confused and uncertain about my choices and actions.
Feels like everything's in ruins now
I feel like my life is falling apart and everything is in a state of chaos.
And I been keeping my head in the ground
I have been avoiding facing my problems and burying my head in denial.
Streetlights but my vision’s so blurry
The streetlights illuminate my surroundings, but my clarity and understanding of my situation are clouded.
Turn up got the music on so loud
I increase the volume of the music to drown out my thoughts and emotions.
Tryna drown everything else out
I am attempting to escape from reality and avoid confronting my inner turmoil.
Eyes closed, time’s slow I know I'm avoiding
By closing my eyes and slowing down time, I am consciously evading the truth and the necessary actions.
Phone rings but I just leave it hanging
I ignore incoming calls because I know they will force me to confront my emotions.
Cos I know right now my voice would just give it all away
If I were to speak, my true feelings and insecurities would be revealed.
Don't know what it is I'm waiting for
I am uncertain about the purpose or outcome I am anticipating.
Really I'm just delaying the inevitable
In reality, I am only prolonging the unavoidable and necessary course of action.
Cos I don't think it's reversible
I believe that what has happened or what I have done cannot be undone or rectified.
Lately I've been taking the long way home
Recently, I have been choosing a longer and more complicated path in life.
Driving backwards down these empty roads
Metaphorically, I am regressing and going against progress by traversing empty and unproductive routes.
Tryna figure what's inside my soul
I am attempting to discover and understand the depths of my inner self.
But I don't know now I don't know
Despite my efforts, I remain uncertain and confused about my inner being.
Looking for answers but I've lost control
I am searching for solutions and guidance, but I feel powerless and unable to regain control over my life.
In my feelings heavy on my own
I am burdened by intense emotions and find myself alone in this emotional struggle.
I'm not ready to admit my thoughts so
I am unwilling or unprepared to acknowledge and confront my own thoughts and emotions openly.
I'll keep going yeah, ima take the long way home
Despite the challenges and uncertainties, I will persist and choose the difficult path in my journey.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Antigoni Scarlet Delilah Buxton
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