I'm Not That Girl
Ashley Argota Lyrics


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I stopped writing in my diary
I got so sick of me
I ripped out the pages
And set myself free
I stopped waiting for a phone call
Cause I finally see
I'm wasting my time
It stopped raining
Still I went out and
Started breathing again
It felt good but it felt weird
Cause I know in the end
All the king's horses
And all the king's men
Can't fix up this time

What was I thinking
Letting you be the reason
I open my eyes in the morning
And closed them at night
Must've been dreaming
While I was out believing
Every love lie you said
When you said I was yours
Well, I'm not that girl
I'm not that girl anymore

There will be times when I miss you
I'm not gonna lie
There will be little reminders
That mess with my mind
So, I wrote on the mirror
A lip stick goodbye
Every tear dries

What was I thinking
Letting you be the reason
I open my eyes in the morning
And closed them at night
Must've been dreaming
While I was out believing
Every love lie you said
When you said I was yours
Well, I'm not that girl
I'm not that girl anymore

That girl is gone
She's not coming back
Had to move on
And I'm scared of it
Cause I like me better without you
Got a post card from Boston
I ripped it up, thought it would hurt
But it wasn't so tough

What was I thinking
Letting you be the reason
I open my eyes in the morning
And closed them at night (closed them at night)
Must've been dreaming
While I was out believing
Every love lie that you said
When you said I was yours
Well, I'm not that girl
I'm not that girl anymore




No, I'm not that girl
I'm not that girl anymore

Overall Meaning

In "I'm Not That Girl," Ashley Argota sings about overcoming heartbreak and moving on from a toxic relationship. The first two verses describe the singer's transformation and newfound independence. She stops writing in her diary, which implies that she doesn't need to vent her feelings anymore. She tears out the pages of the diary, which symbolizes her determination to leave behind the old version of herself. The singer also stops waiting for a phone call that will never come and decides to live her life again. As she ventures out, she realizes that no matter how much someone tries to fix the broken pieces, they will always remain fragmented.


In the chorus, Ashley marvels at her past mistakes - she let her former lover define her and assumed his lies were true. Now that she's free of him, she wakes up every morning without his memory haunting her. She used to believe every love lie he told her and thinks about that girl with sorrow. But now, that girl is gone, and she's not coming back. The bridge then reveals that there will still be moments when the singer misses her ex-lover, but she's not going back to him. She's writing goodbye to him with a lipstick on a mirror, as the singer tells herself that every tear will dry up. She's not the same person she was when she was with him, and she knows she deserves better.


Line by Line Meaning

I stopped writing in my diary
I stopped keeping my thoughts and emotions hidden in a diary.


I got so sick of me
I became tired of constantly dwelling on myself and my problems.


I ripped out the pages
I got rid of the past and all the negative emotions it held.


And set myself free
I released myself from the hold that my past had on me and started anew.


I stopped waiting for a phone call
I stopped waiting around for someone that didn't care enough to reach out to me.


Cause I finally see
I finally realized the truth about the situation.


I'm wasting my time
I am no longer going to spend my valuable time waiting for something that may never come.


It stopped raining
The obstacles in my life have cleared up.


Still I went out and started breathing again
Despite the struggles, I kept moving forward and found renewed life.


It felt good but it felt weird
The happiness I found after a tough time was unfamiliar but still fulfilling.


Cause I know in the end all the king's horses and all the king's men can't fix up this time
Despite the struggle, I know that only time can heal the wounds of the past.


What was I thinking letting you be the reason
I regret letting someone else have control over me and affect the way I lived my life.


I open my eyes in the morning and closed them at night
My thoughts of this person consumed my mind both day and night.


Must've been dreaming while I was out believing every love lie you said
I was blinded by love and believed all the false promises this person made to me.


When you said I was yours
When you claimed me as your partner.


Well, I'm not that girl
I am no longer the same person that allowed myself to be controlled and manipulated by another person.


There will be times when I miss you
There will be moments of nostalgia or longing for the past.


I'm not gonna lie
I am being honest about my feelings.


There will be little reminders that mess with my mind
I will encounter things that remind me of the person and the memories we shared.


So, I wrote on the mirror a lip stick goodbye
I wrote a goodbye to this person on my mirror so that every time I see my reflection, I am reminded of my decision to move on.


Every tear dries
The pain and sadness will eventually fade away.


That girl is gone
The person I used to be is gone.


She's not coming back
I have made the decision to move forward and leave the past behind me.


Had to move on
I had to make the difficult decision to let go of the past and leave it behind me in order to move forward.


And I'm scared of it
Although I made the decision to move on, it still scares me to think about my future without this person.


Cause I like me better without you
Despite the fear, I know that I am happier and better off without this person in my life.


Got a post card from Boston
I received something from the past that reminded me of what used to be.


I ripped it up, thought it would hurt but it wasn't so tough
Instead of holding onto the past, I decided to let it go and move forward. Although I thought it would be difficult, it ended up being easier than I expected.


No, I'm not that girl
I am no longer the person I used to be.


I'm not that girl anymore
I have made the conscious decision to change and grow into a stronger person who is capable of living without someone else's control or influence.




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Canisha Steenhuisen

such a beautiful song ♥

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