Disorder
B.O.T.OX Lyrics
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They do nothing, imma
Twist it all around
Cuz in my head it's 50/50
Nifty shifty things you always try to trick me with won't work right
Stick around forever
Malevolent disorder
Eat me from inside and crawl back
A part of who I am, I can bitch and I can stand up for myself when I feel down, lest I - lest nothing!
Sometimes there's a party goin' on inside my head
It's the fragile part that worries me the most and then I'm dead
Cuz it's the typical that's critical, oh so fuckin' difficult
Came to say goodbye and then I end up staying overtime
The pressure's unbearable...
In B.O.T.OX's song "Disorder," the lyrics explore the theme of inner turmoil and the emotional struggles that come with it. The opening lines, "Send my regards to their counterparts, scared of their own work," suggest that there are people who are afraid to face their own insecurities and flaws. The singer, however, refuses to be held back by fear and chooses to confront their own demons.
The phrase "Twist it all around, cuz in my head it's 50/50" reflects the internal battle between conflicting thoughts and emotions. The singer recognizes that there are manipulative and deceptive forces at play, but they refuse to be tricked and controlled. They refuse to succumb to the negative influences around them.
The chorus, "Stick around forever, malevolent disorder, in part and never wholesome, eat me from inside and crawl back," expresses the haunting and destructive nature of the disorder within. It implies that the inner struggles are persistent and overwhelming, causing emotional and psychological damage. The phrase "eat me from inside and crawl back" symbolizes the internal torment that consumes the singer's well-being.
The subsequent lines delve into the singer's resilience and determination to combat their inner turmoil. They refuse to let their weaknesses define them, stating, "A part of who I am, I can bitch and I can stand up for myself when I feel down." This reflects an attitude of self-empowerment and the refusal to let inner struggles overshadow their strength and self-worth. The mention of a party inside the singer's head represents the chaos and conflicting emotions that reside within them.
The lyrics also touch upon the complexity of dealing with mental health issues, referring to it as "the fragile part that worries me the most." This suggests that despite their resilience, there is still a fear of vulnerability and the unpredictable nature of their own emotions. The line "it's the typical that's critical, oh so fuckin' difficult" highlights the difficulty of navigating through societal norms and expectations while dealing with internal struggles.
Overall, "Disorder" by B.O.T.OX conveys the ongoing battle with inner demons, the strength to overcome them, and the complexities of managing mental health amidst societal pressures.
Line by Line Meaning
Send my regards, to their counterparts, scared of their own work
I extend my greetings to those who are afraid of taking risks and putting in effort in their work.
They do nothing, imma
While they are inactive, I will take action.
Twist it all around
I will change the situation completely.
Cuz in my head it's 50/50
My thoughts are divided equally.
Nifty shifty things you always try to trick me with won't work right
Your clever and deceitful tactics will not succeed.
Stick around forever
I will persist indefinitely.
Malevolent disorder
A harmful and chaotic state.
In part and never wholesome
Incomplete and never peaceful.
Eat me from inside and crawl back
Consume me internally and then retreat.
A part of who I am, I can bitch and I can stand up for myself when I feel down, lest I - lest nothing!
I embrace my identity and assert myself even in difficult moments.
Sometimes there's a party goin' on inside my head
Occasionally, my mind is filled with conflicting thoughts and emotions.
It's the fragile part that worries me the most and then I'm dead
My vulnerability is what concerns me greatly and can lead to my downfall.
Cuz it's the typical that's critical, oh so fuckin' difficult
The ordinary things are the most crucial and often extremely challenging.
Came to say goodbye and then I end up staying overtime
Intended to leave, but ended up remaining longer than expected.
The pressure's unbearable...
The stress is overwhelming.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: R a B B I T
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seahawk124
Had a stroke (April 2021) at the age of 41. Spent 6 months in hospital. Had a course of Botox injections while in hospital (left wrist, arm, and leg)and another as an out-patient (left leg only) in December.
Would recommend it if your doctor/specialist/consultation suggest it. It didn't do much for my arm, but the patient in the next bed to me notice how my foot would point down when I walk only a day later. On the second course, I felt the difference straight as I walked out of the treatment room and down the corridor back to the car.
I'm in the situation of having a new AFO made, and I will be contacting the clinic this week to book another appointment for another course in my wrist and arm, but I know I'm going to have to develop a more intensive exercise routine with my physio.
Still positive of regaining function back in my hand and arm, but I know it will be hard work and will take a long time.
Thank you Tara for your videos, it really helped me in those first few months coming to terms with what happened to me. It was really tough as the lockdown rules in the UK meant I was not allowed to see any friends or family in those first few months.
janet ziegler
Botox has made a significant difference in the pain I’ve experienced from severe spasticity in my arm shoulder and leg - I don’t care if it’s making a huge impact on functioning, the pain reduction has been dramatic. You have to pair stretching and weight bearing exercise with it.
Shan
I've been getting botox since 2015, about 6 months after my stroke. Then I stopped in 2017, started back up in 2019. Whenever I get them I use it as an opportunity to gain more control over specific muscles. I now have pretty much full control of my arm and walk pretty well. Example, when I first had my stroke my bicep was so tight it would pull my arm up a little bit. Now it doesn’t, so I think it’s a good tool if you put in the work.
Rehab HQ
Thanks for sharing your experience Jason!
LaDona Herrera
Jason where did you go to get botox? It takes 6 months to assess the 6 months to get an appt.
Shan
@LaDona Herrera UCSD
Barbara Dascalos
What did you do..? Weight lifting or just repitition motions and weight bearing..? How long did it take..?
Bob Cahoon
I am a parcel quad. I have been getting botox injections for 2 years and I have had spasticity. It does seem to work on helping me flattened the feet. If someone doesn't work on the ancle and foot stretching then the benefit is minimal.
V E
Tara Botox was helpful for the first couple of years with OT and PT but over time it has had no effect on my muscle tightness so I stopped injections and continued my work without it. My spasticity has increased over time (8 years) but the grind continues. Thank you for your insight and continued support 🙂
Linda Milligan
the last 2 times that I had botox physio was not offered or suggested but this time I will ask for pt and see I get any results this tim my biggest problem I see is the spasticity causes my foot to turn and suppinate
charlie2810able
I had it in my calf, it was a complete game changer. My left ankle was also rolling and I couldn’t flex my ankle due to spasticity. In the U.K. the treatment is free. I don’t have pain so can’t comment on that.
It’s really helped do my exercises.
I walk better, I no longer trip over my foot, and I can now bend my knee.
I see one of the U.K’s leading MS neurologists and he recommended it 😊