BAD
Beswick Grant And J.m.i. Lyrics

I wanna remove my heart, it's killing me
The pain I feel is so overwhelming that I wish I could remove my heart

All these days all I feel is bad energy
Negative energy seems to be surrounding me at all times

Cos when I'm alone there's no synergy
I feel alone and disconnected from everyone else, which makes the negative energy worse

Put me right back in time to bad history
I wish I could go back in time and change the things that caused me pain

Was I patiently waiting
I wonder if I was just waiting for things to magically get better on their own

Or become the patient
Or did I become the one who needed help and healing, instead of being the one who could help others

Driving myself crazy
My own thoughts and emotions are causing me to feel like I'm losing my mind

With all of the hating
My anger and negative feelings towards everything and everyone are making things worse

Of everything around me
I can't seem to find anything positive in the world around me

And eventually mason
Eventually, I become my own worst enemy

Hated himself for all of the feelings
I hate myself for feeling this way, but I can't seem to stop

And becoming displacement
My negative feelings are causing me to feel disconnected from everyone else

Hurt Myself, Hurting you
The pain I feel inside is causing me to hurt others, even if I don't mean to

Just to feel so alive
I'm hurting others because it makes me feel like I'm still alive, even if it's in a negative way

Pushed my buttons just for fun
I enjoy pushing people's buttons and making them upset, even if it's just for my own amusement

But now I despise
But now I hate that part of myself and wish I could change it

The man I think I see
The image I have of myself in my mind

When I look into my soul
When I reflect on my own thoughts and feelings

Is this the person I will be
Am I always going to be this negative and hurtful person?

When I'm dying and old?
Will I regret who I am and who I've been when it's too late to change?

Was every past trauma invoked for a greater grace?
Did all the pain and trauma I've experienced happen for a reason, to make me a better person in the end?

And will I pass on my miss-doings and all my mistakes?
Am I going to repeat my mistakes and pass on my negative traits to my children or others?

Will my heir have my issues, will she take on my traits?
Will my children inherit my negative qualities and thoughts?

Disdainful emotions all part of her fate
Will my negative emotions be a part of my children's lives and futures?

Can good come from a man that's inherently bad?
Is it possible for me to change and become a good person, even if I feel like I'm inherently bad?

A greater life from evil, forged in a fire of a sad
Can I learn from my mistakes and become a better person, even if it means going through more pain and sadness?

A child of change fighting a life of pain
I want to change and become a better person, even though it's a struggle and causes me pain

But is she destined to ruin herself because of our name?
Will my negative traits and history be carried on by my family and cause them to ruin their lives as well?

And as I walk the path of the lonely warrior
As I journey on alone through life, trying to improve myself and my situation...

I think of my ancestors that have come before me
...I think about those who came before me and how they dealt with their own struggles

And those who have carried my name and carried the torch
I think about my family and how they've carried on our name and legacy

Through greater torment, only to prosper
Despite their struggles and pain, they were able to succeed and thrive

Because if the history books are sure to be believed
If we're supposed to learn from history...

Then I can survive a life of misery
...then I can make it through my own struggles and pain and still come out okay in the end.

We are not the damned, we live to find a way
Despite our past and current struggles, we don't have to feel hopeless or like we're doomed to fail.

Passing through the threshold to fight another day
We can keep moving forward and keep fighting for another chance at a better life.