grand dark feelings of emptiness
Bonnie 'Prince' Billy Lyrics
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So I took it upon me to go away
To gather my thoughts and go away
Where I could (be used by) somebody
Now over the hill, like always you know
Were Billy and Frankie and Henry and Joe
And they beat and broke me hard and slow
And no-one I was and so I remained
Knocked-out in a hut, no mother, no name
And filled up my heart with one and the same
That grand dark feeling of emptiness
And was it a friend that turned me loose
Or was it a girl come to baste my goose
Or was it my great god who laid on his finger
And started my clock anew
Ah no, it was rain ; ah no, it was gunning
It was point-break and buckle
And singing and cunning
That skinned me, re-skinned me
And started me running
And I never looked back from then on
And now I am learning bit by bit
About the make and model shit
The muddy bowl I live in it
And all the mucks that tire us
And I'm afeared if I don't have
A piglet, lamb or little calve
I'll chop my human-ness in half
And be as worm or virus
But kids I've had, and they are sung
Upon folks' ears my babes are hung
Rhythmically they live among
And grow but don't get old
Not in a box, not in a void
Not if their voice is never hoid
Nor if no-one repeats a woid
But if their tune is told
Then we can age and fall away
To meet again some golden day
And fill it in our happy way
In starlight and in gold
The main theme of Bonnie ‘Prince’ Billy’s song “grand dark feelings of emptiness” is about a person who seems to be trying to find his/her place in the world. The lyrics begin with the singer declaring that he/she feels as if he/she was “born today” and is ready to start afresh. The singer then goes away to gather his/her thoughts and find a place where he/she can be useful. However, the journey is not an easy one. On the way, the singer meets people who beat and break him/her slowly to prove that he/she is nobody. The singer ends up in a dark place, knocked-out in a hut with no mother or name but filled with the grand dark feeling of emptiness.
The singer then reflects on what led him/her to this dark place, wondering if it was a friend or a girl who left him/her, or was it a higher power that “started the clock anew”. However, the singer concludes that it was the rain, gunning, point-break, buckle, singing, and cunning that skinned him/her, re-skinned him/her, and started him/her running, and now he/she never looks back. The singer is now learning about life and the “muddy bowl” he/she lives in, and how if he/she doesn’t have someone to care for, the singer may lose his/her humanity and become like a worm or virus. However, the singer has kids, and through them, he/she lives on rhythmically and will meet them again someday in starlight and gold.
Line by Line Meaning
Well I felt like I was born today
I had the feeling of starting over, as if I were reborn today
So I took it upon me to go away
To gather my thoughts, I went away
To gather my thoughts and go away
I left to gather my thoughts and get away from everything
Where I could (be used by) somebody
Where I could be of use to someone
Now over the hill, like always you know
As usual, over the hill are Billy, Frankie, Henry, and Joe
Were Billy and Frankie and Henry and Joe
My acquaintances who are always present over the hill
And they beat and broke me hard and slow
They physically and emotionally harmed me in a harsh and gradual manner
To prove I was nobody
To establish that I was insignificant
And no-one I was and so I remained
My identity was stripped away, and I remained as no one
Knocked-out in a hut, no mother, no name
I was unconscious in a small building with no mother, no name
And filled up my heart with one and the same
I felt an intense emotion that consumed my entire heart
That grand dark feeling of emptiness
That emotion was a great and dark, yet empty feeling
And was it a friend that turned me loose
I wonder if it was a friend who set me free
Or was it a girl come to baste my goose
Perhaps it was a girl who came to prepare dinner for me
Or was it my great god who laid on his finger
Maybe it was my deity who granted me freedom
And started my clock anew
And gave me a fresh start
Ah no, it was rain ; ah no, it was gunning
No, it was neither rain nor shooting that set me free
It was point-break and buckle
It was a physical force or ordeal that caused it
And singing and cunning
And a combination of music and sharp thinking
That skinned me, re-skinned me
That stripped away layers of my being, and built me back up
And started me running
And set me on a path of escape
And I never looked back from then on
Since then, I’ve never wanted to look back
And now I am learning bit by bit
I’m gradually learning now
About the make and model shit
About the intricacies of life
The muddy bowl I live in it
The murky environment of my existence
And all the mucks that tire us
And how everything weighs us down
And I'm afeared if I don't have
I’m afraid that if I don’t have
A piglet, lamb or little calve
A small animal like piglet, lamb, or calf
I'll chop my human-ness in half
My humanity will be destroyed
And be as worm or virus
I’ll be reduced to a worm or virus-like being
But kids I've had, and they are sung
But I’ve had children who are celebrated in song
Upon folks' ears my babes are hung
My children’s stories are told to people’s ears
Rhythmically they live among
They lead a rhythmic life
And grow but don't get old
They mature, but they don’t age
Not in a box, not in a void
Not confined to a box or an emptiness
Not if their voice is never hoid
Not if their voice is never heard
Nor if no-one repeats a woid
Nor if no one repeats a word
But if their tune is told
But if their story is told
Then we can age and fall away
Then we can grow old and eventually die
To meet again some golden day
To meet again someday in a cheerful place
And fill it in our happy way
And live it happily
In starlight and in gold
In a wonderful and beautiful place
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Megan Stewart
What a song!!!
Eran Menashri
Still gets my eyes moist
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Sorry We're Late
Perfect. Forever. <3
Krutch Krutchman
genius
PeterVerduyn
part of my (very personal) best of bonnie playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLT91cNLpw17r7h2J61vh7GstXwTnobSVn
Trevor Francis
I am listening to it now. Thank you!
Jacob R
I have to admit I prefer Dax Riggs.
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