Devil in Disguise
C.I.T Lyrics

I love you
I have strong feelings for you

But you hate me
You have negative feelings towards me

I swear you're a devil in disguise
I believe you are intentionally deceptive or manipulative

Said I'll do anything
I promised to do whatever it takes

Just so I can make you mines
To make you mine, to be in a romantic relationship with you

You never had faith in me
You never had confidence or trust in me

I know that look that's in your eyes
I can discern your true feelings from the expression in your eyes

Did I mess up?
Did I make a mistake?

Did you mess up?
Did you make a mistake?

This all just caught me by surprise
I was not expecting this situation

I'm tired of getting lost within your eyes
I'm tired of being drawn in and confused by your emotions

I'm sick finding love and fear inside
I am exhausted by the mix of love and anxiety I feel when I'm with you

I'll fall apart every time you fucking lie
I emotionally break down whenever you tell a lie

Cause I realized
Because I recognized

You're not good for me
Our relationship is unhealthy for me

You're too good to me
You treat me too well, causing me to overlook your negative traits

I'm not bad to you
I treat you well and am not intentionally harmful towards you

But I'm bad for you
Our relationship is harmful for you

Every time that you go away
Whenever you leave

You come back another day
You return at a later time

To scream I fucking hate you
To express intense anger and hostility towards me

I never thought I needed a friend
I didn't believe I needed companionship

I used to be alone
I was accustomed to being by myself

Feel the crawls up on my skin
Experiencing discomfort or unease

Why you keep calling my phone
Why do you continue to contact me?

I said there's nowhere to begin
I claimed there was not a starting point for our relationship

I think I'm tired of relationships
I'm fatigued with being in romantic relationships

It is fun until it ends
The excitement of a relationship fizzles out over time

I can wait till last minute
I am comfortable with procrastinating

Call you back on my phone
To return your call

But give me a minute
But please allow me some time

I gotta look for my phone
I need to search for my phone

And I guess I can't call
I suppose I cannot call you

Cause I can't find my phone
Because I cannot locate my phone

But I'm doing just fine
But I am content and satisfied

And better off being alone
And would be better off without a romantic relationship

I can see right through you clear like it's HD
I can easily see through your deceptions and manipulations

When you touch me, baby, my heart's racing
My heartbeat increases when you touch me

But when I touch you it is not the same thing
But when I touch you, there is no similar reaction from you

So that's what helped me, give up on love yeah
That's the reason I gave up on pursuing romantic love

Got the darkness coming in
Experiencing negativity or sadness

Deep in my thoughts, I'm rummaging
I am introspectively exploring my feelings and emotions