I'm Sorry
C. Ray Lyrics

I’m trying to say I’m sorry
C. Ray is apologizing and wants to make things right with someone.

So Where should I begin?
He doesn't know how to start the apology.

Do I start by listing all my sins
He is questioning if he should start with a list of his wrongdoings.

Should I go alphabetically or maybe chronologically
He is considering how to structure his apology, either in alphabetical or chronological order.

Cause I got way too many things so need to share within
He has a lot to apologize for and needs to get it off his chest.

I used to carry baggage, I would take on every mission
He used to hold onto his past mistakes and would take on anything to distract himself from them.

It had my dirty laundry that was hidden in the zippers
His emotional baggage was hidden away, like dirty laundry in a suitcase.

It was like a carry on and if you let me carry on
His emotional baggage was like a carry-on bag, always with him, and if he continued to talk about it, he would never stop.

I would always unpack it for anyone who’d listen
He would always unload his emotional baggage on anyone who would listen.

Even take it home for Christmas
He would even bring up his issues during the holidays.

It's where I used to store all the hatred and poisonous arrogance I was thinking
He kept his negative emotions and thoughts inside his emotional baggage.

I used to play the victim
He used to blame others and play the victim, not taking responsibility for his actions.

But I didn’t realize that I was dying the inside, blinded by decisions
He didn't realize that his negative thoughts and actions were hurting him on the inside, and that he was blinded by them.

That never made me better
His negative behavior and thoughts never made him better, they only held him back.

That only made me bitter
His behavior and thoughts made him angry and resentful of others.

They stayed in me forever
His negative thoughts and behavior stayed with him for a long time.

And made me to a sinner
His negative behavior made him feel like a sinner.

With Each and every critic making me a greater cynic
With every criticism, he became more cynical of people and their motives.

Cause no matter what I did they hated each and every lyric
No matter what he did, people hated his music and criticized his lyrics.

So what did I do? I took it out on you
He took his frustrations out on someone close to him instead of dealing with them directly.

Couldn’t blame myself, I didn’t want the truth
He couldn't accept that the problem was with him and refused to face the truth.

It’s easier to take it that to earn it
It's easier to take something that isn't deserved than to earn it through hard work.

To fake it than to learn it
It's easier to pretend than to learn and grow as a person.

To break it and to burn it
It's easier to destroy something than to build it up.

Than to make it to the surface
It's harder to bring things to light and face them than it is to hide them away.

It took a long time I was on the wrong side
It took him a long time to realize that he was in the wrong.

But I really want to tell you I know you don’t deserve it
He wants to acknowledge that the other person he wronged didn't deserve his behavior.

I’m Sorry that I hurt you and I took you all for granted.
He is apologizing for hurting the other person and taking them for granted.

I promise I can see it really wasn’t worth it
He promises that he can see that his negative behavior wasn't worth it.

I need to learn to say I’m sorry
He recognizes that he needs to learn how to apologize and take responsibility for his actions.

I was wrong
He is admitting that he was wrong.

I was quick the blame the people all around me when really I was the problem all along
He used to blame others for his problems, but now realizes that he was the problem all along.

I burned so many bridges, I cut too many ties
He has damaged many relationships with his negative behavior.

I can’t even go back, I don’t know how long
He has done so much damage that he doesn't know if he can ever repair those relationships.

I've always been the loudest,
He has always been vocal and outspoken.

I've always been the proudest,
He has always been proud and confident.

And now I’m all alone and I’m so far gone
He realizes that his behavior has left him alone and feeling lost.

Used to say I don’t need you, I’ll do it on my own
He used to think that he didn't need anyone and could handle everything on his own.

Even got used to saying it in all my songs
He even wrote songs about not needing anyone.

Now I need you near me, I know that you can hear me
He now realizes that he needs someone and hopes that the other person can hear his apology.

I hope that you've forgiven me and all my wrongs
He hopes that the other person has forgiven him for his mistakes.

I was just a boy, I didn’t understand
He is acknowledging that he didn't fully understand the consequences of his actions when he was younger.

I still had to learn, until I was a man
He still had to mature and grow until he became a responsible adult.

That every time you fall, you always have to stand
He has learned that when you make a mistake, you have to take responsibility and get back up.

And always take your time, and always make a plan
He has learned that it's important to take your time and make a plan before taking action.

Stop living in the future and be present in the present cause the moment that passes becomes your past
He has learned that it's important to live in the present and not worry too much about the future, because the present becomes the past quickly.

And every moment is the moment when you notice that your growing so you need to make that moment last
Every moment is an opportunity to grow and learn, and you need to cherish those moments.

It’s lonely at the top
Being successful can be lonely.

It’s also lonely at the bottom
Being in a bad place in life can be just as lonely.

Cause misery loves company and everyone who’d comfort me was there to see my sorrow
Misery loves company, and the people who tried to comfort him knew about his problems.

So I decided I should stop, and I’m coming home tomorrow
He has decided to stop blaming others and take responsibility for his actions, and he is returning home to make things right.

And I plan to pay you back for ever day and every hour ever minute that I borrowed
He plans to make it up to the other person for all the time that he has wasted and taken for granted.