Desperate
Cam; Lecrae Lyrics

I'm so desperate, I can't believe I've sinned against you
I am feeling desperate and can't believe that I have committed sin against you

Create in me a clean heart (I'm so sorry)
Please create in me a pure heart and I am sorry for my sins

Your mercy is what I need
I am in need of your mercy

Woke up this morning too depressed and shamed to leave my bed
I woke up feeling ashamed and depressed, and unable to get out of bed

Can't stand to see my own reflection so I hang my head
I don't want to see myself in the mirror, so I hang my head down in shame

Feel like a disappointment like the scum of the earth
I feel like a disappointment and the worst person on earth

I'm so hurt I know you see I can't cover my dirt
I am hurt and I know that you see that I am unable to hide my sins

My souls dying hearts weak and I can't even cry
My spirit is weak and I am even unable to cry

I'm sposed to run to you but WHY I'm such an evil guy
I know I should be running to you, but why am I such a terrible person?

The sun's shining but for me it's the darkest of days
Even though the sun is shining, for me it feels like the darkest of days

Try to pretend it never happened but the guilt remains
I try to act as if it never happened, but the guilt remains

I leave the house it feels like everybody knows I did it
Whenever I leave the house, it feels like everybody knows about my sins

Feels like they reading my mind and know the sin I committed
It feels like people are reading my thoughts and know about the sins I committed

Through your blood I'm aquitted but my heart doesnt get it
Even though I have been forgiven through your blood, my heart does not fully understand

Oh God I'm desperate for Help cause I'm grieving your Spirit
Oh God, I am in desperate need of your help because I have deeply hurt your Spirit

I couldn't sing in the sunday service, Lord I felt fake
I couldn't even sing during Sunday service because I felt like a fraud

And when they started communion I just made an escape
When communion started, I just left because I felt unworthy to partake in it

I'm in need of your grace
I am in need of your grace

Feels like you hid your face
It feels like you are hiding your face from me

Lead me back to cross and show me my sins erased
Please lead me back to the cross and show me that my sins have been erased

I'm waste deep in my pity
I am fully consumed by self-pity

Is Satan tryna trick me and tell me you won't forgive me
Satan is trying to deceive me and make me believe that you won't forgive me

Cause it's startin to get me
Because it is starting to affect me

Jesus help me quickly I hate wrong I've done
Jesus, please help me quickly because I hate the wrong that I have done

I know we all fall but I feel like the only one
I know we all make mistakes, but I feel like I am the only one who has fallen this low

Feels like I should be shunned
It feels like I should be excluded or shunned because of my sins

Should I punish myself
Should I punish myself for my sins?

I know it's dumb cause by your death all my sin has been dealt
I know it is foolish of me to think that way because your death has covered all of my sins

But my sin is been felt
But I still feel the weight of my sins

I didn't want to do it
I didn't want to commit the sin

But what I want to do I don't
But I am unable to do what I really want to do

I swear I'm gonna to lose it
I feel like a breakdown is imminent

Try to open my bible I need to read your pages
I try to open my bible because I need to read your teachings

I need you Lord but my guilt has got me feeling so faithless
I need you Lord, but my guilt has made me doubt my faith

Help me see where your face is
Help me to see where I can find you

Take me back to the basics
Take me back to the fundamental teachings of the faith

Help me find my joy in you and not people and places
Assist me in finding joy in you and not in people or environments

My sin is ever before me I turned my back on you
My sins are always on my mind and I have turned away from you

Oh father break and restore me to bring me back to you
Oh father, please break and restore me to bring me back to you

Have mercy on me God according to your steady love
Please have mercy on me, God, based on your unwavering love

Wipe away my transgression and wash me in your blood
Remove my sins and wash me clean with your blood

Create in me a clean heart renew a right spirit
Create in me a pure heart and renew my spirit

Don't take your Spirit away your Presence keep me near it
Please do not remove your Spirit, keep me near your presence

I'm waiting patience on you Lord I know you hear my cry
I am patiently waiting for you, Lord, and I know that you hear my plea

Restore your Joy in me
Please bring back your Joy into my life

For you alone I live and die
I live and die for you alone

It's you I Glorify cause you don't want my sacrifice
I glorify you because you don't desire any sacrifices from me

You want me broken and contrite trusting in the Christ
You want me to be humble and repentant and trust in Christ

I confess to you my sin and you show me mercy
I confess my sins to you, and you show me mercy

I turn away from it demonstrating that you are worthy
I turn away from my sins, proving that you are worthy

Over lust, over pride, over all sin
Victory over lust, pride, and all sins

Is my affection for Jesus is who died for all them
My affection is for Jesus, who died for all of my sins

I was lost now I'm found I was toss to the ground
I was lost, but now I have been found and lifted up

My sin weighed on me heavy but I am no longer bound
My sins were weighing me down, but now I am free

As sure as Christ wears the crown
I am sure that Christ wears the crown

I know that grace will abound
I am confident in the abundance of grace

And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found
Even when I feel lost, I know that I can be found in you