Judas' Death
Carl Anderson Lyrics

My God! I saw him.
Upon seeing Jesus, Judas is startled and utters an exclamation.

He looked three-quarters dead!
Jesus looked to be in a severely weakened state.

And he was so bad I had to turn my head.
Judas had to look away because he couldn't bear to see Jesus in that condition.

You beat him so hard that he was bent and lame,
Jesus was physically deformed and unable to walk straight due to the severity of the beatings he endured.

And I know who everybody's going to blame.
Judas is fully aware of the public's hatred towards him for his role in betraying Jesus.

I don't believe he knows I acted for our good.
Judas thinks that Jesus is not aware of the greater plan and doesn't understand that Judas was acting in his best interest.

I'd save him all this suffering if I could.
Judas regrets his choices and wishes he could have prevented Jesus from going through this pain.

Don't believe...our good...
Judas is questioning the greater good and whether his actions served any purpose other than leading to Jesus' suffering and death.

And I'd save him if I could...
Despite everything, Judas still wishes he could have saved Jesus from his fate.

Cut the confessions, forget the excuses.
Annas is tired of hearing Judas' apologies and justifications.

I don't understand why you're filled with remorse.
Annas is questioning why Judas is feeling guilty, as his actions were necessary for the outcome they were hoping for.

All that you've said has come true with a vengeance.
Annas acknowledges that Judas' predictions have indeed come true, and things have spiraled out of control.

The mob turned against him, you backed the right horse.
Annas believes that Judas made the right choice in supporting the side that ended up winning.

What you have done will be the saving of everyone.
Caiaphas believes that Judas' actions will ultimately lead to the salvation of everyone, as Jesus' death and resurrection will lead to people's redemption.

You'll be remembered forever for this.
Caiaphas thinks that Judas' role in the crucifixion will go down in history and be remembered for generations to come.

And not only that, you've been paid for your efforts.
Judas received financial compensation for his involvement, further justifying his actions in Caiaphas' eyes.

Pretty good wages for one little kiss.
Caiaphas sees the money given to Judas as a small price to pay for the outcome he wanted.

Christ, I know you can't hear me,
Judas is speaking to Jesus, acknowledging that he can't hear him.

But I only did what you wanted me to.
Judas believes that he was following Jesus' plan and doing what he was supposed to do.

Christ, I'd sell out the nation,
Judas would have done anything to please Jesus, even if it meant betraying his own country.

For I have been saddled with the murder of you.
Judas realizes that he will be held responsible for Jesus' death.

I have been spattered with innocent blood.
Judas feels guilty for the role he played in the death of an innocent man.

I shall be dragged through the slime and the mud.
Judas anticipates that he will be heavily criticized and reviled for his actions.

I don't know how to love him.
Judas grapples with his feelings towards Jesus, unsure if he loves him or not.

I don't know why he moves me.
Judas is confused by his emotional response to Jesus.

He's a man. He's just a man.
Judas is trying to convince himself that Jesus is nothing more than a mortal human being.

He is not a king. He is just the same
Judas is denying Jesus' divine nature and asserting that he is no better than any other person.

As anyone I know.
Judas is emphasizing that Jesus is not special or unique in any way.

He scares me so!
Despite his rationalizations, Judas still feels deeply unsettled by Jesus' presence and influence.

When he's cold and dead will he let me be?
Judas worries that even after Jesus dies, he will still be haunted by his actions and his conscience.

Does he love me too? Does he care for me?
Judas is grappling with his own feelings of love and affection towards Jesus, wondering if they are reciprocated.

My mind is in darkness.
Judas feels lost and confused, unsure of what to believe or how to process his emotions.

God, God I'm sick. I've been used,
Judas realizes that he has been manipulated and taken advantage of by those higher up in the chain of command.

And you knew all the time.
Judas feels bitter towards God, believing that he knew what would happen and allowed it to unfold anyways.

God, God I'll never ever know why you chose me for your crime.
Judas is struggling to understand why he was chosen to play such a pivotal role in Jesus' death.

You're so bloody, Christ.
Judas reflects on the gruesome spectacle of Jesus' crucifixion and the blood that was shed.

Poor old Judas. So long Judas.
The choir expresses pity and sadness towards Judas as he reaches the end of his journey.

You have murdered me.
With his final words, Judas acknowledges the gravity of his actions and the role he played in Jesus' death.