I'VE GOT TO GO NOW
Childs Toni Lyrics
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And the more I try to wake him, the more he sleeps
I used to think I knew this man
The tenderness, not the back of his hand
It's been two weeks since he last had a drink
But the time bomb's ticking, I can never sleep
It would be easier if he did
Why do you do it
Why do you treat us bad
When you've got two kids that love you
And a wife that's missing you bad
I've got to go now
I've got to say goodbye
Don't try to stop us now
And please don't you cry
Can't you see, we've all been through it
It's all been said before
With all these fears
For how many years can I keep coming
Back for more
No more
Must be addicted to all this pain
'Cause I keep coming back for the shame
Dear God, give me the strength to leave
I've got to keep going, keep going this time
Don't try to stop us now
Don't pull that stuff on me
I've got the kids all packed up
Harry's in the back with his pick-up truck
Jenny's fallen asleep again
I've got to keep driving 'til I reach the end
I can't come back here anymore
And I know it
And I know it
I can't come back here anymore
And I know it
And I know it
The lyrics of Childs Toni's song "I've Got to Go Now" depict the story of a woman who has finally come to the realization that she has to leave her abusive husband, despite the love she still feels for him. The song is narrated from the perspective of the woman, who seems to be in a state of confusion and pain after years of enduring her husband's violent behavior. She acknowledges that her husband was not always like this, and that she married a man that she thought she knew, a man that was tender and loving. However, as the years went by, her husband became more and more abusive, and she found herself in a cycle of violence that was hard to break free from.
The woman acknowledges that her husband has been sober for two weeks now, but deep down, she knows that this is only temporary, and that the time bomb is ticking. She also knows that staying with him would be the easier option, but she has to leave for the sake of her two children who love their father, but also miss him terribly. The lyrics are a testament to the struggles of domestic abuse victims, who are often torn between their feelings of love for their abuser and the need to protect themselves and their children. The woman in the song is aware that leaving her husband is the only way to break free from the cycle of abuse and start a new life.
Overall, "I've Got to Go Now" is a powerful and emotional song that highlights the struggles of domestic abuse victims. The lyrics are poignant and beautifully written, and the melody adds to the emotional impact of the song.
Line by Line Meaning
This man I married is buried deep
My husband is lost in addiction and I can't reach him
And the more I try to wake him, the more he sleeps
My attempts to help him only push him further into his addiction
I used to think I knew this man
I thought I knew who my husband was, but addiction has changed him
The tenderness, not the back of his hand
I used to know his kind, gentle side, but now I only see his abusive behavior
It's been two weeks since he last had a drink
He's been sober for a short time, but I know it's not enough
But the time bomb's ticking, I can never sleep
I'm constantly on edge, waiting for him to relapse
It would be easier if he did
It's painful to watch him struggle, and it would be easier if he just gave in to his addiction
Why do you stay here, stay with him
Others question why I stay with him, but they don't understand the complexity of addiction and love
Why do you do it
Why do you put us through this pain and abuse?
Why do you treat us bad
Your addiction makes you treat us poorly and hurt us
When you've got two kids that love you
Your children still love you, despite your addiction and behavior
And a wife that's missing you bad
I miss the man you used to be, before addiction took over
I've got to go now
I can't continue living like this, it's time to leave
I've got to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye to the man you used to be and the life we had
Don't try to stop us now
I won't be persuaded to stay, I'm leaving for good
And please don't you cry
I don't want to see you hurt, but I can't stay here anymore
Can't you see, we've all been through it
We've been through too much pain and heartache because of your addiction
It's all been said before
We've had this conversation many times, but this time it's different, I'm leaving
With all these fears
I'm scared of what the future holds, but I know I can't stay here
For how many years can I keep coming
I can't keep coming back to this cycle of addiction and abuse
Back for more
I can't keep putting myself and my children through this pain anymore
Must be addicted to all this pain
I keep coming back to this situation despite the pain it causes, like an addiction
'Cause I keep coming back for the shame
I feel guilty and ashamed for staying in this situation and not leaving sooner
Dear God, give me the strength to leave
I need a higher power to help me find the strength to leave and start a new life
Don't pull that stuff on me
Don't try to stop me from leaving or making me feel guilty for doing so
I've got the kids all packed up
I'm taking my children with me, we're leaving this life behind
Harry's in the back with his pick-up truck
My son is helping with the move, we're leaving together as a family
Jenny's fallen asleep again
My daughter is asleep, and I need to keep driving until we're far away from this life
I've got to keep driving 'til I reach the end
I'm not stopping until we're far away and starting a new life
I can't come back here anymore
This place, this life, this man, and his addiction have caused us too much pain
And I know it
I know, without a doubt, that leaving is the right thing to do for myself and my children
And I know it
I'm sure of my decision to leave, no matter how difficult it may be
Lyrics Β© Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: DAVID RICKETTS, TONI CHILDS
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@harveyjones1245
This man I married is buried deep
And the more I try to wake him, the more he sleeps
I used to think I knew this man
The tenderness, not the back of his hand
It's been two weeks since he last had a drink
But the time bomb's ticking, I can never sleep
It would be easier if he did
Why do you stay here, stay with him
Why do you do it
Why do you treat us bad
When you've got two kids that love you
And a wife that's missing you bad
I've got to go now
I've got to say goodbye
Don't try to stop us now
And please don't you cry
Can't you see, we've all been through it
It's all been said before
With all these fears
For how many years can I keep coming
Back for more
No more
Must be addicted to all this pain
'Cause I keep coming back for the shame
Dear God, give me the strength to leave
I've got to keep going, keep going this time
Don't try to stop us now
Don't pull that stuff on me
I've got the kids all packed up
Harry's in the back with his pick-up truck
Jenny's fallen asleep again
I've got to keep driving 'til I reach the end
I can't come back here anymore
And I know it
And I know it
I can't come back here anymore
And I know it
And I know it
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: David Ricketts / Toni Childs
@Releelee1
This song is so powerful - so, empowering- so saddening- when a partner is abusive -an addict - and still for the sake of his children and wife - still cannot seek help from their internal hell. May we all give love a go but know when to go when the one you love doesnβt know what love is. God bless all of us.
@Jus..having..a..say..13
Beautiful words.. and u no what the abusive mind doesn't no how to communicate and deal with problems.. love to everyone we all deserve to taste love whether it be human, animal, mineral or what ever.. it's a great song too!!!
@glenniekiwi
What was the album...child? I could look up but lazy.
Great song...she's amazing live
@adamraymondnock8561
SOUNDS AS IF YOUR LIVING A LIFE OF ( HELL )...IV BEEN THAT ADDICT DESTROYING HIS FAMILY, BUT AFTER SEEING THE SHEER MISERY ITS CAUSED MY GIRL AND HER 3GIRLS ( DAUGHTERS) A GREAT DEAL OF HELL....A WHOLE YEARS HAVE PASSED AND AM PROUD TO SAY I AM TOTALLY ON TOP OF THIS NIGHTMARE NOW...THANKS TO MY SUPPORTIVE FAMILY I AM FINNALY FREE OF THIS BLOODY NIGHTMARE....LIVE LIFE , CHOOSE LIFE AND LIVE FREELY...π ππ
@diden3527
you ruined a nice comment by your last sentence.....if that dude has such an affect on people's lives, as all of these preachers....etc...etc....say that he has, then why does this happen.
@Releelee1
I live in hope we all get the fact we are [only] human β- fact- that bother me- especially having had a baby.
@astridbiram2776
Alcohol hides Pain,just like Drugs does.Toni Child's you hv the most Aamazing underrated Voice.
Just Beautiful. πππππππππππππβ€β€β€β€β€β€
@user-bg9sg8cm3s
Alcohol doesnβt hide anything tbh just makes it worse
@jacquelineford7539
The Older I get, the more in Ore I am of the Powerful Female Artist's, who Sung these sorts of Song's. A Time when Women Really didn't have the Freedom to Feel Strong enough to Stand, Alone, and the Women who did, because They had too. I've loved Toni Childs, Voice from the first time I heard this Song. ππ
@BlueBeeMCMLXI
That's rubbish start to finish.