It Ain't Easy Being Me
Chris Knight Lyrics


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There ought to be a town somewhere
Named for how I feel
Yeah I could be the mayor down there
And say ‘welcome to sorryville’
It wouldn’t be on a map no where
You might say that it don’t exist
But if you make enough wrong turns
It’da be hard to miss
There ought to a bridge somewhere they could dedicate to me
I'd probably come to the ceremony with a can of gasoline
Walk on over to the other side
Where I'd light a match
Sit and stare through the smoke and flames and wonder how I'm gonna get back
Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way or am I self made fool?
I shoot the lights and I curse the dark
I need your love but I break your heart
And I know the words that’ll bring you back but
But I don’t say nothing as I watch you pack
I had to work to become the jerk I've come to be
It ain’t easy being me
There oughta be a side show "act"
For freaks like me
I could be the star of the show w/ my name on the marquee
In a room with a big red button that says ‘danger do not touch’
Twice a day I'd mash it down and you can watch me self-destruct
Why do I do the things I do
Was I born this way or am I self made fool
I shoot the lights and I curse the dark
I need your love but I break your heart
And I know the words to get you back but
But I don’t say nothing as I watch you pack
I had to work to become the jerk i’ve come to be




It ain’t easy being me
It ain’t easy being me

Overall Meaning

In "It Ain't Easy Being Me," Chris Knight expresses his self-loathing and the internal struggle he experiences as he continually gives into self-destructive behavior. He suggests that if there were a place that embodied his emotions, it would be a hidden town called “Sorryville,” where he would reign as mayor. The bridge he mentions serves as a metaphor for his life with a lack of direction, where he often finds himself stuck on the wrong side of decisions he's made. He ponders the age-old question of whether he's become the way he is due to nature versus nurture, wondering if he was born this way or if he created this persona through self-sabotage.


Knight continues to grapple with his paradoxical mindset throughout the song. He loves and needs the people in his life, yet he continues to push them away as he breaks their hearts. He even knows the words to make things right with them, but his inability to express them results in him watching them leave. His last line sums it up succinctly: "I had to work to become the jerk I've come to be / It ain't easy being me." Knight's lyrics in "It Ain't Easy Being Me" capture the complexities of self-destruction and the struggles of trying to break free from those patterns.


Line by Line Meaning

There ought to be a town somewhere
I wish there was a place that perfectly embodies how I feel


Named for how I feel
Named after the sense of regret and self-pity that pervades my every thought


Yeah I could be the mayor down there
I'm so consumed by this feeling that I could run an entire town of people who feel just like me


And say ‘welcome to sorryville’
I'd greet visitors with a sarcastic remark that acknowledges our shared feelings of worthlessness and disappointment


It wouldn’t be on a map no where
This town wouldn't really exist, it would just be a metaphor for how I feel


You might say that it don’t exist
Others may not understand what it's like to feel this down and out


But if you make enough wrong turns
If you experience enough misfortune and make enough poor decisions, you'll end up feeling just like me


It’da be hard to miss
It's easy to get lost in this feeling, and once you're there it's hard to shake


There ought to a bridge somewhere they could dedicate to me
I'm so destructive and self-loathing that I deserve a monument to my own failures


I'd probably come to the ceremony with a can of gasoline
I would be so consumed by my own misery that I'd probably ruin the whole thing by setting myself on fire


Walk on over to the other side
Cross over to the other side of the bridge, to the land of the living, where I don't feel like such a wreck


Where I'd light a match
But as usual, I can't resist self-destruction


Sit and stare through the smoke and flames and wonder how I'm gonna get back
As I watch the flames flicker and die, I'll realize how much further I've fallen down the hole, and how hard it's going to be to climb my way back out


Why do I do the things I do?
I'm so lost in my own misery that I can't understand why I keep making things worse for myself


Was I born this way or am I self-made fool?
Am I doomed to feel this way forever, or is there some hope that I can find a way out of the darkness?


I shoot the lights and I curse the dark
I'm so desperate to feel better that I'll ruin everything around me just to distract myself from my own pain


I need your love but I break your heart
I know I need other people in order to feel better, but I'm so consumed by my own sadness and self-pity that I end up pushing them away and hurting them in the process


And I know the words that’ll bring you back but
I know what I need to say in order to make things right, but I'm too consumed by my own misery to actually do it


But I don’t say nothing as I watch you pack
Instead of trying to make things right, I let the people I love leave because I can't help but punish myself by hurting them


I had to work to become the jerk I've come to be
I'm not just wallowing in self-pity, I'm actively making things difficult for myself and others


It ain’t easy being me
In the end, I know that I'm making things harder for myself than they need to be, but I can't help it - it's just who I am




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Bluewater Music Corp.
Written by: Chris Knight, Craig Michael Wiseman

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There ought to be a town somewhere
Named for how I feel
Yeah I could be the mayor down there
And say ‘welcome to sorryville’
It wouldn’t be on a map no where
You might say that it don’t exist
But if you make enough wrong turns
It’da be hard to miss
There ought to a bridge somewhere they could dedicate to me
I'd probably come to the ceremony with a can of gasoline
Walk on over to the other side
Where I'd light a match
Sit and stare through the smoke and flames and wonder how I'm gonna get back
Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way or am I self made fool?
I shoot the lights and I curse the dark
I need your love but I break your heart
And I know the words that’ll bring you back but
But I don’t say nothing as I watch you pack
I had to work to become the jerk I've come to be
It ain’t easy being me
There oughta be a side show "act"
For freaks like me
I could be the star of the show w/ my name on the marquee
In a room with a big red button that says ‘danger do not touch’
Twice a day I'd mash it down and you can watch me self-destruct
Why do I do the things I do
Was I born this way or am I self made fool
I shoot the lights and I curse the dark
I need your love but I break your heart
And I know the words to get you back but
But I don’t say nothing as I watch you pack
I had to work to become the jerk i’ve come to be
It ain’t easy being me
It ain’t easy being me



All comments from YouTube:

@ScottSmith-jn1jo

Let's all be thankful there are still people writing songs, not riffs.

@TexasJames

Chris knight was the man when I was In High school. Where did the time go.

@boblehn6000

If your here you've been there.

@SOKO-47

🤘🏼

@thinshady4956

Been where, sorryville? I gave away all my things and moved in years ago.

@levigreen7515

Your not wrong my friend🤣

@zacksnodgrass1204

Still there hoss

@mpj7987

Well said...

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@westvirginiaoutlaw4662

Chris Knight is def. by far one of the most underrated signers and songwriter of all time hands down

@joshuaneubig8721

I’ve been saying this for years brother. Hands down deserves more fame and light then given to him. Especially compared to the “country” trash today

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