Confession
Christopher Hart / Mr. Anderson / Steven Berlin Lyrics

These are my confessions
I am about to reveal my innermost thoughts and feelings

I'm sorry if I'm not the one
I apologize for not being the person you wanted me to be

The man that you wanted
Your expectations of me were different from who I really am

Just know that you're the only girl that I ever thought of
You were the only person who mattered to me and occupied my thoughts

When I think of you the world I knew somehow became a reflection
My perception of the world changed after meeting you

A once so happy place flipped into newfound rejection
What was once a happy place for me became filled with rejection and pain after losing you

It's like I'm forced to be sad
I feel like sadness is the only emotion I can experience after losing you

Don't wanna be mad
I don't want to be angry with you

I just thought that one day we'd have kids to call me dad and I'd be proud
I had hoped that we would have a family together and I could be a proud father

No need to be loud except for screams of joy and pleasure
The only reason to be loud should be to express happiness and pleasure

You knew I was the only one there when you were under the weather
I was always there for you when you needed me, especially when you were sick

But I guess it's whatever
I understand that you have moved on and it doesn't matter anymore

You made your choice and moved on
You chose someone else and left me behind

I told my feelings I'd prove em wrong
I promised myself that I would show you that I'm better than what you thought of me and that my feelings for you were real

Now here's this blue song
This is a sad song reflecting my emotions after losing you

You came up to a shy guy and changed his point of view
You helped me become a more confident person and change my perspective on life

The only thing inside his mind is broken memories of you
All I can think about are the memories of us together, even though they are now shattered

Why'd you have to do it
Why did you have to break my heart and leave me for someone else

You broke my heart in two
You shattered my heart and left me devastated

You left me for another guy who'd rather have new shoes than you
You chose someone who values material possessions more than you

But fuck it, we're through
I am done with the pain and moving on from our relationship

I never mattered much to you
I realize now that I was never as important to you as you were to me

Three words love, trust, and loyalty
These are the true foundations of a healthy and successful relationship

They stick to me like glue ooh
These values are ingrained in me and are essential for a relationship to work

I hope you're having a revelation
I hope you realize now the true value of a loving and loyal relationship

I'm throwing up more words than our average conversation
I am expressing my feelings more now than I ever did in our previous conversations

Remember that time we went to the train station
I am recalling a specific memory we shared together

You pushed me on the tracks
In this memory, you did something dangerous that could have hurt me

Had me decapitated
In this memory, you imagined or joked about my head being cut off (but then corrected yourself)

Wait nevermind that was final destination
I realize now that this memory was from a movie (Final Destination) and never actually happened

Every time you said you loved me
I am reflecting on the times you told me you loved me

Hesitation
I could always sense a bit of hesitation or insincerity in your words when you said 'I love you'

In the bed room you had no imagination
Our intimate moments lacked creativity and passion

It was borderline solo masturbation
Our sexual experiences together felt more like individual pleasure than a shared experience

Attention everyone quick it's an evacuation
I am imagining a scenario where everyone needs to quickly evacuate a dangerous situation

There's a heartbroken man swinging swords with anticipation
I am imagining myself as a warrior fighting with a broken heart, using swords as a metaphor for my pain

He can't help himself
I am unable to control my emotions and actions due to my heartbreak

He's screaming words of affirmation
I am trying to convince myself that I am worthy of love and respect despite my current pain

He must have cracked the code
I feel like I have figured out the secret to love and relationships, even though I am currently hurting

Learned the meaning of loves creation
I have gained a deeper understanding of what it means to truly love and be loved

But wait how could that be
I am questioning how I could have learned so much about love while also experiencing so much pain

How could a mere mortal hold secrets such as these
I am reflecting on how I, as an average person, could have learned such deep and meaningful insights into love

Was it in the prophecy for Mr.E to discover
I am imagining that these insights were prophesied for me to discover

There's no way man
However, I quickly dismiss this idea as impossible

He can't even write a love letter
I poke fun at myself for not being able to express my emotions well in written words

Well you're wrong there
But then I correct myself and realize that expressing love requires more than just words

It just takes more than words to get her
Showing love requires effort and action, not just the ability to write or say the right things

You gotta put in work and learn to show effort
You have to be willing to put in the effort to show someone that you love and value them

Treat her like a princess and in the future like a queen
Treat the person you love with the utmost respect and care, and make sure to continue to do so as your relationship grows

Give her all the love you have and never be mean and never have greed
Be selfless in your love, never taking more than you give, and never hurting the person you love

What's hers is hers and yours is hers because once you're the king she'll value your worth
In a truly loving and respectful relationship, both partners share everything and value each other's worth equally

Well I haven't gotten that far
I admit that I have not yet found the person who will be my queen and whom I can treat with the love and respect they deserve

The farthest I've gotten is past her house in my car because I'm broken hearted
I am currently too heartbroken to pursue a real relationship with someone new

She left me in the dark so I'm just gonna move on and try to forget about her
I have accepted that our relationship is over and I am trying to move on and forget about the pain she caused me

Gunna find myself a princess who does no wrong
I am optimistic that I will find someone new who is perfect and can do me no wrong

Gunna lay next to me wearing no thong
I am imagining an intimate moment with a new partner and expressing my desires for that moment

I promise you my life's gonna go on strong
I am making a promise to myself (and potentially others) that despite the pain and heartbreak, my life will go on and I will remain strong

I'll keep spending every day
I will continue to live my life and move forward, one day at a time

Tryna pick up the pieces
I am trying to rebuild my life after the pain and heartbreak of losing someone I loved

Cuz my heart is just a puzzle that's been abandoned in the rubble
My heart feels like a puzzle with missing pieces, left behind in the rubble of my broken relationship

Now I might be forever incomplete
I worry that I may never be able to fully heal from the pain of losing someone I loved and may always feel incomplete

I accepted this defeat but I couldn't keep it all discreet
I have accepted that our relationship is over and that I have lost, but I cannot keep my feelings hidden

You weighed me down with the chains of your lies
I feel like you held me back with your lies and deceit

And your beauty was nothing but a disguise to heartbreak
I realize that your beauty and charm were just a disguise for the pain and heartbreak you caused me

You can't fake
You cannot fake true love or affection, and I realize now that ours was not real

This love was not a mistake
I do not regret our relationship or the love we shared, even though it did not work out

I don't regret our time together and I gotta get this off my chest cuz honestly you were the best
I need to express my true feelings and admit that despite the pain you caused me, you were the best thing to ever happen to me

You stood up high above the rest with the way you made me feel
You were special and different from anyone else because of how you made me feel

But honestly that was years ago so its not that big a deal
Although you were once important to me, enough time has passed that our relationship no longer holds as much weight

I hope you're happy
I sincerely wish for your happiness and well-being, even though we are no longer together