Masochist
Craig Xen Lyrics
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Sometimes I get lonely
I get needy
I call you
And I know that it′s crazy, that it's stupid
But it′s the truth
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
But I must be some kind of masochist
To hurt myself in this way
'Cause lovin' you is so bad for me
Oh, but I just can′t walk away
I get all my pleasure in your bedroom
In your arms
You get all your pleasure from my torture
From my harm
I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go
Ooh, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
But I must be some kind of masochist, ooh
To hurt myself in this way
′Cause lovin' you is so bad for me
Oh, but I just can′t walk away, oh
The more I stay in this madness
The more the hurt is my comfort and release
And maybe I'm just too damaged
To really know what′s good for me
I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go
Oh, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
Ooh, I must be some kind of masochist (oh, yeah)
To hurt myself in this way (ooh, yeah)
'Cause lovin′ you is so bad for me
Oh, but I just can't walk away (away)
And even though it's so obvious (so obvious)
That all you give me is pain
Oh
I must be some kind of masochist, oh
′Cause I just can′t walk away
From you, from you, from you
Oh, I just can't walk away, away, away, yeah
The lyrics to CRAIG XEN's song "Masochist" depict a person who is addicted to a toxic relationship. The first verse conveys the singer's conflicting feelings of loneliness and neediness, leading them to call their partner - someone they know is no good for them. Despite this realization, the singer admits to feeling like a masochist - someone who derives pleasure from pain. In the chorus, the singer emphasizes their struggle to leave their partner, feeling trapped in a cycle of self-harm because they can't resist the attraction that "lovin' you" brings.
In the second verse, the lyrics reveal that the singer's source of pleasure comes from being in their partner's arms, while the partner's pleasure derives from causing the singer harm. This establishes a vicious cycle of emotional and physical pain in the relationship, with the singer fully aware of the toxicity but unable to walk away. The bridge provides a glimpse into the singer's psyche, where they express that staying in this tumultuous situation is actually comforting and relieving them from the hurt. They also question whether they are too damaged to understand the concept of a healthy relationship. The song ends with the singer acknowledging that their partner only gives them pain, but they still can't walk away from them.
Overall, "Masochist" is a raw depiction of the internal struggles of someone caught in an abusive relationship. The lyrics express the psychological complexities and addictive nature of toxic connections, highlighting the difficulties of simply walking away. The song is a reminder of the importance of seeking help if you or someone you know is struggling with similar issues.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes I get lonely
There are moments in life when I feel isolated
I get needy
I start to crave affection and attention
I call you
I reach out to you in hope of finding solace
And I know that it's crazy, that it's stupid
I am aware that it is illogical to keep coming back to you
But it's the truth
Nonetheless, my heart is bound to you
I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go, I should go
I know I should leave, but it's hard
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
I am well aware of the consequences of staying with you
But I must be some kind of masochist
I enjoy experiencing pain and suffering
To hurt myself in this way
I am willingly subjecting myself to the anguish of loving you
'Cause lovin' you is so bad for me
Being in love with you has a detrimental impact on my well-being
Oh, but I just can't walk away
Despite everything, I find it impossible to break free from you
I get all my pleasure in your bedroom
I feel fulfilled and happy when I am with you
In your arms
Your embrace makes me feel safe and secure
You get all your pleasure from my torture
You derive satisfaction from causing me pain
From my harm
You enjoy seeing me suffer
The more I stay in this madness
I am stuck in a never-ending cycle of pain
The more the hurt is my comfort and release
My pain has become my only source of comfort and release
And maybe I'm just too damaged
Perhaps I am emotionally scarred and cannot make healthy decisions
To really know what's good for me
I struggle to determine what is best for my own well-being
And even though it's so obvious (so obvious)
It's clear to others that you are not good for me
That all you give me is pain
You do not bring me happiness, only sorrow
From you, from you, from you
It's you who is causing me pain and suffering
Oh, I just can't walk away, away, away, yeah
Despite everything, I still cannot find the strength to leave
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