Black Out
Curl Up & Die Lyrics
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But they're the only thoughts I have.
In this city of imitation, dying to survive.
And when night comes it's spent on.
Getting drunk and taking drugs.
Or letting one thing be enough to love someone.
But then by day I'm a stomach ache that won't go away.
Taking things in secret. Keeping ourselves clean.
And we keep moving with these same mistakes.
Rearranging chemicals in our brains.
Nightmares of never remembering anything.
'Til we're not around anymore.
And there is this hum in our heads
And we're exhausted again.
Screaming sound that goes on and on and on and...
Like steady medication wearing out.
The shit that we forget.
Nothing ever happens. Nothing happens here.
And nothing will ever happen. Nothing matters here.
Why do we forget the things
We thought we figured out?
The lyrics of Curl Up and Die's song Black Out depict the struggles of an individual trying to navigate through life in what seems to be a meaningless existence. The first line, "These thoughts can't be mine. But they're the only thoughts I have," implies a feeling of detachment and confusion as the individual tries to make sense of the emptiness they're experiencing. In a city that is merely a facade, they're surrounded by people consumed with the idea of merely surviving, and their nights are spent in a haze of drugs and alcohol to escape their thoughts. However, by day, these thoughts persist, tormenting the individual like a never-ending stomach ache.
The lyrics further explore the idea of human nature and how it shapes our lives. We set patterns that become our balance and keep us going. Although we know these patterns may not be the best for us, we keep moving forward, making the same mistakes and rearranging the chemicals in our brains to deal with the demons we face. The line, "Nightmares of never remembering anything," is particularly poignant, as it highlights the frustration of facing the same issues, knowing that they have been faced before, but being unable to overcome them.
The chorus ties the lyrics together, describing a constant hum—an exhausting feeling of moving forward but not getting anywhere, an endless cycle of trying to forget the things that matter. The ending question, "Why do we forget the things we thought we figured out?" is a plea for clarity, a desire to understand why we keep repeating the same mistakes and why our memories forever fade.
Line by Line Meaning
These thoughts can't be mine.
I can't believe I'm thinking this way.
But they're the only thoughts I have.
All I can think of are the negative aspects of life.
In this city of imitation, dying to survive.
Living in a place filled with people pretending to be something they're not.
And when night comes it's spent on.
When the sun goes down, we engage in self-destructive behavior.
Getting drunk and taking drugs.
Drugs and alcohol are the escape from reality.
Or letting one thing be enough to love someone.
Choosing to latch on to someone who gives us a reason to live.
But then by day I'm a stomach ache that won't go away.
The emptiness that we're left with during the day when the high wears off and reality sets in.
We set patterns that become our balance.
We develop routines that keep us feeling stable.
Taking things in secret. Keeping ourselves clean.
We hide our addictions, trying to maintain a sense of control.
And we keep moving with these same mistakes.
We repeat our self-destructive behavior, even though we know it's harmful.
Rearranging chemicals in our brains.
Alter our brain chemistry to escape reality.
Nightmares of never remembering anything.
Having nightmares of the memory loss caused by our addiction.
'Til we're not around anymore.
Our addiction continues until we're no longer around.
And there is this hum in our heads.
Always something lingering in our minds.
And we're exhausted again.
The pain and exhaustion are never-ending.
Screaming sound that goes on and on and on and...
The constant reminder of our pain and addiction.
Like steady medication wearing out.
The temporary high from drugs and alcohol fades eventually.
The shit that we forget.
We forget the negative consequences of our actions.
Nothing ever happens. Nothing happens here.
A feeling of stagnation and emptiness.
And nothing will ever happen. Nothing matters here.
Feeling hopeless, like nothing really has significance.
Why do we forget the things
Why do we forget the lessons we've learned?
We thought we figured out?
Why do we continue to make the same mistakes?
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