Drown
D-Sturb Warface Lyrics

Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
I am coming to you wearing the same clothes I wore when I killed you.

That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I realize that I am alone now that I have killed you.

I walk to you, rain falls from you
I approach you while the rain falls from you.

Can you wash me, can you drown me?
Can you cleanse me of my guilt or bury me in the water?

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I have so many desires and emotions pent up inside of me.

I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly
I want to be stronger but I have been indecisive for too long.

Planning strategy, half of me know it's all just a fallacy
I try to make plans, but deep down I know they are futile.

Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
I fail terribly and then fall apart dramatically.

Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
I have encountered this obstacle many times before.

And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
Despite the evidence of my past failures, I continue to ignore them.

And I'm back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor
I am back before you, seeking forgiveness, with the evidence of my past sins still visible.

Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore
I am unsure if the blood is mine or yours and I do not want to go through this again.

Back and forth between me and me and who you call me to be
I struggle with my identity and who you want me to be.

You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
I appear to be free, but I feel like I need to buy my way to success.

To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
I cannot afford to buy my way to success.

Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
I cannot fall any further because I have hit rock bottom.

And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
My heart is broken and this is my scar.

But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times
Despite my failures, I will continue to try again and again.

To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
I have made many mistakes but I still have chances to make things right.

So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again
I pick myself up and keep striving towards success.

Here I come again to you
I come to you once again.

Just to show the blood soaked through
I want to show you the evidence of my past sins.

Through my bones and all I own
The guilt of my past sins haunts me deeply.

Is there a way for me to grow?
I wonder if there is a way for me to move past my past mistakes and grow.

Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
I struggle with selfish ambition clouding my ability to see clearly.

My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
My past sins are my punishment, and I am committed to seeking forgiveness.

It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
The weight of my guilt is wearing on my soul and I am crying out for forgiveness.

I don't know if I am dying or living
I am unsure of my future and whether I am truly alive or not.

'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
I continue to try and save face to maintain my reputation.

Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
I abuse grace and try to reinvent myself in a new environment.

But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
My reputation is tarnished and I am not the same person I once was.

And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
My reputation has become my destiny and it will follow me to the grave.

They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now
The ocean, which is usually blue, appears black to me right now.

In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
I am alone on the beach, surrounded only by my thoughts and regrets.

Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
My depression and feelings of drowning are consuming me.

A lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
A flash of lightning illuminates the boundary between the ocean and the sky.

I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
I have been told by the sky that I will overcome my struggles with the ocean.

But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops, and where sky begins
Despite this reassurance, it is hard for me to see the line between the ocean and sky.

A random strike of light reminds me of what is true
A random flash of lightning reminds me of the truth.

But right now the ocean is black and black the sky is too
Despite this reminder, the ocean and sky still appear black to me.