Send for Me
D.J Boxx Feat Carla Prather Lyrics

I been sitting in the deep-end
I have been in a state of stagnancy or difficulty that I cannot seem to overcome.

I been searching all my feelings
I have been introspective and trying to understand my emotions and experiences.

Cause I seen some shit that cut me way back when but it feels much deeper now
I have had traumatic experiences in the past, but they now have an even greater impact on me.

I pledge allegiance to fight all of my demons
I am determined to confront and overcome all of my personal struggles and inner demons.

Because they drag me to the ground without reason and its treason
My personal struggles hold me back for no good reason and it feels like a betrayal of myself.

It's like I ain't been the same since I left the warmth of my family
I have not been the same since I left the support and comfort of my family.

Independence has damaged me
Trying to be independent has hurt me or caused me harm.

Made me question my sanity
My independence has caused me to doubt my mental wellbeing.

Feel every depth of my gravity
I am acutely aware of the weight and impact of my personal struggles.

Every breath that's attracting me
Every inhale feels like I am drawing in the weight of my struggles.

Can't let the devil catch up with me
I cannot let temptation, negativity, or harmful influences get the better of me.

He's a pagan that's clashing me
These negative influences are at odds with my own personal beliefs and values.

So I look in the reflection
I reflect on myself and my experiences.

I'm tryna see the message for myself
I am trying to understand the meaning or lesson in my experiences for myself.

Cause everywhere that I look all the spaces are full and I just want my shelf
Everywhere I look, there seems to be no room for me or my experiences and I just want my own space or place in the world.

I shed some tears and now it's clear that I just need some help
I have come to understand that I need support and assistance to overcome my struggles.

But for now I share my thoughts my fears and I just hope you care
For now, I am sharing my thoughts and fears with someone else and hoping they will be understanding and supportive.

So I'm feeling reflective
I am in a contemplative or introspective state of mind.

Tryna clear up all the tension
I am trying to resolve any conflicts or tensions within myself or my life.

Cause every time in my life that I felt compromised is when I didn't have an answer for a Question
When I have felt vulnerable or uncertain in my life, it was often because I did not have an answer or solution to a problem.

So I flip the tables
I am taking control or reversing the situation.

Perpetuate greatness
I am striving to maintain and promote excellence in myself and my life.

Excuse my lateness but I'ma grind until I see my payments
I apologize for any delays, but I am going to work hard until I achieve success or receive compensation.

You always played your part though
You have always fulfilled your role or responsibility.

It was always you from the start though
You have been a constant and foundational presence in my life from the beginning.

Always kept me safe out the gutter
You have always protected and cared for me even when I was in a difficult or vulnerable situation.

Brought me right back from the rubble
You have helped me recover or rebuild from difficult or traumatic experiences.

Now I always stay fly
I am always stylish or impressive now.

Cause I'm rolling with the Wright brothers
I am aligning myself with successful or influential people.

And I always stay high
I always maintain a positive or optimistic mindset.

Cause I'm cruising with the Skywalkers
I am aligning myself with powerful or transformative forces.

And I hope I don't fall
I hope I do not make any mistakes or experience any setbacks.

Less I'm falling for you and in that case I would jump off
Unless I am falling in love with you, in which case I would willingly take a risk or make myself vulnerable.

I know that God here is my saviour
I believe God is my salvation and source of strength.

And he sent you here to save me
I believe you were sent by God to help me and be a positive influence in my life.

I been cooped up in a cage
I have been confined or restrained in my life.

It's time for me to break free
It is time for me to liberate myself from these constraint or limitations.

The way you love me and don't discriminate
The way you love and accept me without prejudice or judgment is admirable.

Are qualities I wanna demonstrate
I want to embody those same qualities in myself and how I treat others.

And be you-tiful
I want to be beautiful in my own unique way and embrace my individuality.

Without feeling any effort
I want to be authentic without having to strain or suppress my true self.

I ain't smiled in a while
I have not been happy or joyful for a long time.

But it's easy when you're around
Your presence makes me feel happy and brings me joy.

I ain't kinged for a while
I have not felt successful or powerful for a long time.

So it's time I take my crown
It is time for me to claim my own success or power.

But would you cry if I die today and fly away
Would you care or be sad if I were to die suddenly and leave this world?