Homesick
Derez De'shon Lyrics

I never thought it′d be this way to see this day, lately
Recently, it's been surprising to see how my life has turned out.

N*ggas hatin' bitches fakin′, crazy
People are being fake and negative towards me.

Remember days dreaming how I'll make it
I used to dream about succeeding.

To this day I can't believe I made it
I still can't believe that I've achieved my dreams.

I can′t even lie it′s unreal
It seems surreal.

I can't even explain how I feel
I can't put my emotions into words.

I don′t even know what's really real
I'm unsure of what is true or not.

But if I lost it all baby would you be here?
Would you still be by my side if I lost everything?

Or would you leave me like the rest of ′em?
Would you abandon me like others have?

Do you just need me like the rest of 'em do?
Do you only want me for what I can provide, like everyone else?

I thought you believed me and really felt som′n
I thought you had faith in me and cared about me.

Until you treated me like the rest of 'em do
But then you treated me like everyone else does.

I been on the road for days
I have been traveling away from home for several days.

I ain't been home in days
I haven't been able to return to my home for days.

And I′m missin′ home
I am feeling homesick.

Ain′t answer my phone for days
I have not been answering my phone for several days.

Long nights and longer days
The days and nights seem to be never-ending.

I can′t even lie it's unreal
It still feels surreal.

If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If I lost everything, would people still be genuine towards me?

If I lost it all would I still be... Real,
If I lost everything, would I still be true to myself?

Lately I been getting calls from people I ain't talk to in years.
I have been receiving calls from people I haven't spoken to in years.

My cousin just got outta prison
My cousin was recently released from prison.

He called me and ask how much was my deal?
He called me to ask about my success.

Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the time
At times, I wish I could return to the past.

When a n*gga didn't have a dime
When I was broke and had nothing.

Everybody broke on the grind
Everyone was struggling and working hard to survive.

Wasn′t poppin′ Champagne
I wasn't celebrating with champagne.

Swiping up chains for a couple bills
I used to steal jewelry for a small amount of money.

Since I got some change a lot o' Shit changed
Since I've gained success, a lot has changed.

Wit me and my peers
My peers and I.

I been feelin′ like "fuck the spotlight"
I have been feeling a distaste towards fame.

I wanna go back to the block life
I want to return to my old neighborhood and lifestyle.

Look at everything Ion got right
Examining all the things I have done correctly.

Was it all worth it 'cuz since a nigga made it som′n not right
I am questioning if the success was worth it because things aren't the same anymore.

I can tell the truth from the lies
I can differentiate the truth from falsehoods.

In the coupe with no roof when I'm ridin′
I am driving a convertible car with no roof.

Hit the booth, tell the truth, no lie
I am going to the recording studio to tell the truth through my music.

I been on the road for days
I have been traveling away from home for several days.

I ain't been home in days
I haven't been able to return to my home for days.

And I'm missin′ home
I am feeling homesick.

Ain't answer my phone for days
I have not been answering my phone for several days.

Long nights and longer days
The days and nights seem to be never-ending.

I can't even lie it's unreal
It still feels surreal.

If I lost it all would they still keep it real?
If I lost everything, would people still be genuine towards me?

If I lost it all would I still be... Real,
If I lost everything, would I still be true to myself?