Case
Dubldragon. Lyrics
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I once tried to kill myself in my car
Wrapped in the seatbelt, I leaned the seat back
Somehow kept my life, turns out I need that
Wasn't for another year that I learned how to rap
And that simple act put me back on track
Far from the best, much further from the worst
It gave me something to do with my time on this earth
Found a whole lotta worth I didn't know was inside of me
Now who I am is the man that I try to be
That is when I'm not battling anxiety
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take til the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life, instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta, see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey
I never let a tear drop unless it's necessary
The chemicals ingrained are a debt that I carry
I can slip at anytime and I get that it's scary
But I won't let my parents watch their child be buried
So worst comes to worst, imma lay in bed
With the covers pulled tight right above my head
But nowadays when I do, don't pretend that I'm dead
Instead I take a little break from the lies I've been fed
By my own brain, my own damn chemistry
I am the reason that I'm struggling so desperately
Maybe I should seek help, outsource it medically
But I'm too afraid to change my wiring irreparably
Harshly dependent, guard all my friendships
Cause without them my life would be depthless
Known to be a drag but they still drag my around
They're the humans that support me and I'm glad they've been found
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take til the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life, instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta, see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey
I've got a deep seated drive to be alone
That's why I spend most my time inside of my home
Don't be upset if I don't pick up the phone
I'll always call back when I'm better though
26 years old, 26 percent sure
That I'll live 26 more, and keep the outlook pure
One quarter century, many happy returns
It's a mad man that laughs as he burns
Flame to the candle, ash to the urn
Too much pain to handle, man must be heard
Lest he be condemned to writhe in his hurt
Lest he believe he'd be free in the dirt
The circle is a cycle and the curve begins at birth
If it hurts it's probably vital is a lesson to be learned
I may talk a big game but haven't learned shit yet
But what I do know is I prefer life to death
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take til the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life, instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta, see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey
The Dubldragon.'s song "Case" is a powerful and introspective recount of the rapper's struggle with mental health and his journey towards healing. The lyrics describe a delicate balance between life and death, the hopelessness that accompanies mental illness, and the resilience that emerges when we fight back against our demons. The opening lines of the song, "Never once did I dream I would make it this far, I once tried to kill myself in my car," set the tone for the rest of the song. Dubldragon. is honest and vulnerable about his past, but he also acknowledges how far he has come and how much he has grown through his art.
The rapper's experiences with anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts are at the forefront of the song. He acknowledges that his chemistry and brain wiring can make him feel trapped and helpless, but he is also determined not to let these feelings define him. Dubldragon. gives a voice to those who may be going through similar struggles, reminding them that reaching out for help and finding the strength to keep going is crucial. The message of the song is one of hope and resilience in the face of adversity.
Line by Line Meaning
Never once did I dream I would make it this far
I never thought I would make it to where I am today
I once tried to kill myself in my car
I attempted suicide by suffocating myself with the seatbelt in my car
Wrapped in the seatbelt, I leaned the seat back
I leaned the seat back in my car while trying to kill myself with the seatbelt
Somehow kept my life, turns out I need that
I survived my suicide attempt and realized that I actually value my life
Wasn't for another year that I learned how to rap
It took me a year before I discovered my talent for rapping
And that simple act put me back on track
Rapping gave me direction and purpose in life
Far from the best, much further from the worst
I'm not the best at rapping, but I'm also not the worst
It gave me something to do with my time on this earth
Rapping gave me a reason to live and something to work towards
And it birthed a whole new side of me
Rapping brought out a new and previously unknown side of myself
Found a whole lotta worth I didn't know was inside of me
Through rapping, I discovered my own self-worth that I didn't realize I had
Now who I am is the man that I try to be
I strive to be the best version of myself
That is when I'm not battling anxiety
My anxiety often makes it difficult to be the person I want to be
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
It's easy to give up when things get tough
How much more will it take til the aftershocks pass
How much more suffering do I have to endure before I can move on from it?
I won't take my life, instead I'll take my life back
I won't give up on life, I will take control of my own life
One day I wanna look back fondly
I want to be able to look back on my life and be proud of what I've accomplished
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
I'm glad I didn't give up on myself
Plans never go exactly how they oughta, see
Things don't always go according to plan
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey
I'm just a person and life is a journey full of twists and turns
The chemicals ingrained are a debt that I carry
I carry the weight of the chemical imbalances that can cause my mental illness
I can slip at anytime and I get that it's scary
My mental health is fragile and it's scary to know that I can relapse at any moment
But I won't let my parents watch their child be buried
I won't let my parents experience the pain of burying their child due to suicide
Maybe I should seek help, outsource it medically
I should consider getting professional help for my mental health issues
But I'm too afraid to change my wiring irreparably
I'm scared of the potential permanent changes that could result from seeking medical treatment
Known to be a drag but they still drag my around
I can be a burden to my friends, but they still support and help me
They're the humans that support me and I'm glad they've been found
I am grateful for the friends who support me through my struggles
I've got a deep seated drive to be alone
I have a strong desire to be by myself
That's why I spend most my time inside of my home
I prefer to spend most of my time at home where I feel safe and in control
Don't be upset if I don't pick up the phone
Don't take it personally if I don't answer my phone or respond to messages
I'll always call back when I'm better though
I will respond to messages and return calls when I am feeling better
26 years old, 26 percent sure
I am uncertain about my own future and whether I will live to see another 26 years
That I'll live 26 more, and keep the outlook pure
I hope to live for another 26 years with a positive outlook
One quarter century, many happy returns
I recently turned 25 years old
It's a mad man that laughs as he burns
It's insane to find humor in one's own suffering
Flame to the candle, ash to the urn
Life is short and eventually ends in death
Too much pain to handle, man must be heard
It's important to communicate one's pain and seek help when needed
Lest he be condemned to writhe in his hurt
Otherwise, one will be stuck suffering in silence
Lest he believe he'd be free in the dirt
Otherwise, one might believe that death is the only escape from pain
The circle is a cycle and the curve begins at birth
The cycle of life and death begins at birth
If it hurts it's probably vital is a lesson to be learned
Pain can be a sign that something is wrong and needs to be addressed
I may talk a big game but haven't learned shit yet
I may sound confident, but I still have a lot to learn
But what I do know is I prefer life to death
Despite my struggles, I know that I want to continue living
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Charles Porras, Daniel Gensel
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
crzadagza
“I won’t take my life; instead I’ll take my life back.” Powerful stuff!