Spiral
Duchovny Lyrics
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How many times must I call?
Now there's a canyon between us
And through it, I start to fall
As I wake out of the spiral
I know it isn't your fault
When I tell you I love you, oh
I know you really don't care
I know you really don't care
So I looked up in silence
And saw my name on the wall
I stared into the vacuum
And wondered where it all goes
If the sky was on fire
And all the oceans were gone
Every star could be falling
It wouldn't matter at all
If you've completely decided
You're leaving me in the dark
There's no reason to fight it
You know I really don't care
(You know I really don't care)
You know I really don't care
(You know I really don't care)
You know I really don't
You know I really don't
(You know I really don't care)
You know I really don't
(You know I really don't care)
You know I really don't
(You know I really don't)
In Duchovny's song "Spiral," he appears to be struggling with a relationship that is falling apart, and he is questioning his own feelings as well as the other person's. He wonders how many times he must try to connect with the person and how many times he must call before they are completely distant from each other. The metaphor of a canyon between them is used to demonstrate the distance and disconnect he's feeling. As he wakes out of the spiral, he realizes that it’s not entirely their fault but his too, for letting it get this far. He still has feelings for the person but knows that they don't care, and the thought of being so deeply in love with someone who doesn't care brings him down.
The next stanza says "So I looked up in silence and saw my name on the wall," which could mean his name in written form is now up on this wall or indicating a sense of self-reflection, where he's seeing his own walls and defenses that have kept him from fully connecting with the person. "I stared into the vacuum and wondered where it all goes" is a representation of the emptiness and lack of connection he's feeling, wondering where love goes when two people are no longer in sync. He then questions his own emotional capacity saying that even if the sky was on fire and oceans were gone and stars were falling, it wouldn't matter because the love he feels from the other person is absent. The song ends with him acknowledging that the other person has made up their mind to leave, and there's no point in fighting it anymore. He reiterates that he doesn't care, but the subtext of the song suggests he does, and it's painful for him to let go.
Line by Line Meaning
How many times must I tell you?
I have tried repeatedly to communicate something to you.
How many times must I call?
I have made multiple attempts to reach out to you.
Now there's a canyon between us
Our relationship has grown distant and impenetrable.
And through it, I start to fall
I feel like I am losing my grip on the connection we once had.
As I wake out of the spiral
I am emerging from a downward spiral of emotions and negative thoughts.
I know it isn't your fault
I understand that our issues are not solely your responsibility.
When I tell you I love you, oh
Despite our problems, I still have affection for you.
I know you really don't care
I am aware that you do not reciprocate my feelings.
So I looked up in silence
I took a moment to reflect quietly on my situation.
And saw my name on the wall
I felt a sense of recognition and validation.
I stared into the vacuum
I gazed into emptiness, feeling a sense of futility.
And wondered where it all goes
I questioned the meaning and purpose of our relationship.
If the sky was on fire
Even if the world were in chaos and upheaval,
And all the oceans were gone
And even if everything I held dear were destroyed,
Every star could be falling
And the very fabric of the universe were unraveling,
It wouldn't matter at all
None of it would hold any significance for me without you.
If you've completely decided
If you have already made up your mind,
You're leaving me in the dark
And you are deliberately keeping me in the dark about our future together,
There's no reason to fight it
Then there is no use struggling against it.
You know I really don't care
I have come to accept that our relationship is not a priority for you.
(You know I really don't care)
I am repeating this sentiment to emphasize my indifference.
You know I really don't care
I truly have no emotional investment in this anymore.
(You know I really don't care)
I am reiterating my lack of attachment.
You know I really don't care
I have reached a point where I am at peace with our separation.
(You know I really don't care)
Once again, I am emphasizing my lack of concern for this relationship.
You know I really don't care
I accept that we are not meant to be together, and I am okay with that.
Lyrics © FRIENDLY PEOPLE MUSIC
Written by: David William Duchovny, Colin Christopher Lee, Patrick Joseph McCusker, Mitchell William Stewart
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@area51l
I went to one of his concerts recently and this was one of the encore songs. The energy in that moment was electric! Underrated gem of this album.
@ewadell
❤piekny jaj wszystkie przejmujacy dramatyczny mr duchovny jestes wyjątkowy kochan twą wrazliwa dusze i sczerosc
@bundle_of_penguins
I love torturing my emotions with this song.
@annabelmgraham
This track holds my attention. There's a unique resonance, a vibration, reminiscent of ripples in a pond or the downward spirals of emotion....like water circling a drain.
The words remind me of something I need to let go and offer perspective. The music pulls me back towards an even keel.. The cry of the guitar to me is like that of a soaring hawk or whale song.
I find that this track refreshes me and I'm left with feelings of resolve and hope.
@user-tr6tt1kx3z
❤❤
@ThePoltergeist82
Exactly what I needed. I'd like to see more like this.
@leandroromano02
Great
@miaaaooow
This is my fave song from the album. Loved. <3
@tonyching2771
My cousin wake me up every time she watching the x-file, Duchovny also my favor actor.
@pedrohcardoso79
Seems like a Hank Moody's álbum