Drunk
Ed-Sheeran Lyrics

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
I want to get drunk so that I don't have to face the reality of the morning.

On the right side of the wrong bed
I want to wake up in a comfortable bed, but I know that the situation I'm in isn't right.

And never an excuse I made up, tell you the truth I hate
I don't want to make excuses for my behavior, I just hate myself for it.

What didn't kill me, it never made me stronger at all
The idea that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger is a lie. I'm not stronger, I'm just more broken.

Love will scar your makeup, lipsticks to me
When you kiss someone you love, it leaves a mark. It's like wearing lipstick that you can't take off.

So now I'll maybe lean back there
I'll try to relax and forget about everything that's happened.

I'm sat here, wishin' I was sober
I know that I should stop drinking, but I just want to feel something.

I know I'll never hold you like I used to
I miss being close to you and I know that I can never have that again.

But our house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you, everything feels cold and empty.

Without you to hold, I'll be freezing
I need someone to hold onto because I feel so alone.

Can't rely on my heart to beat it
My heart is broken and I can't rely on it to work properly anymore.

'Cause you take part of it every evening
You took a piece of my heart with you when you left and I can never get it back.

Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
You know me so well that you can anticipate what I'm going to say before I say it.

Replace with phrases like, "When you leavin' me?"
You're always asking me when I'm going to leave you and it hurts.

Maybe I'll get drunk again
I know it's not healthy, but maybe getting drunk will help me forget about how much I miss you.

I wanna hold your heart in both hands
I want to show you how much I love you and how much I care about your heart.

Not watch it fizzle at the bottom of a Coke can
I don't want to see your heart break and disappear like the fizz at the bottom of a drink.

And I got no plans for the weekend
I have nothing to look forward to and nothing to distract me from my sadness.

So should we speak then? Keep it between friends?
Maybe we should talk and try to be friends, even though it will never be the same between us.

There may be other people like us
We're not the only ones who have experienced heartache and pain.

Who see the flicker of the clipper when they light up
Other people can relate to the feeling of hope that sparks when you light a lighter.

Flames just create us
Our passion and love fueled our relationship, but it's also what destroyed it.

But burns don't heal like before
Our relationship left us with scars that will never fully heal.

You don't hold me anymore
I miss the physical touch and intimacy that we used to share.

On cold days, cold plays out like the band's name
When it's cold outside, my sadness and loneliness feels even more intense.

I know I can't heal things with a handshake
We can't just pretend that everything is okay and shake hands like nothing ever happened.

You know I can't change, as I began sayin'
I know that I have flaws that led to our relationship ending and I can't change who I am.

You cut me wide open like landscape
You hurt me deeply and it feels like a physical wound that's been cut open.

Open bottles of beer but never champagne
I'm trying to drown my sorrows with alcohol, but I know that it's not going to make me forget about you completely.

To applaud you with the sound that my hands make
I used to clap and cheer for you, but now I'm left with the sound of my own sadness and regret.

All by myself I'm here again
I'm alone and feeling the full weight of my heartache.

You know I'll never change
I know that I have faults and I can't change who I am to make this work.

I'm just drunk again
I can't seem to escape my sadness and pain without the use of alcohol.

To feel a little love
I'm trying to numb the pain and feel something, even if it's just a little love.