Disappear
Eli. Lyrics

I've been feeling low, so low now
I am currently experiencing deep feelings of sadness and hopelessness.

Tryna do my best, don't know how
I am making an effort to do the right thing in my life but I am uncertain of the best course of action to take.

Holding onto hope for life now
Despite the challenges that I am facing, I am still trying to remain optimistic and hopeful.

But I become consumed with doubt, yeah
However, the doubts and uncertainties related to my future often overwhelm me.

Carrying the burdens of the world upon my shoulders
I feel responsible for the sufferings of others and believe that it is my responsibility to solve all the problems in the world.

Looking for the answers, Maybe I'll know once I'm older
I am searching for meaning in my life and hoping that with age and experience I will be able to figure things out.

But please hang on, Please hang with me
I am requesting the support and encouragement of my loved ones to help me get through my struggles.

I'll be back soon, I'll be back
I am assuring my loved ones that I will return and will ask for their patience and understanding in the meantime.

Time for me to go, I need some room to grow
I feel the need to take some time off to focus on my personal growth and development.

I feel so alone, No one even knows
Despite my close relationships with others, I feel isolated and like nobody truly understands my struggles.

I just wanna disappear, Take me far away from here, I don't wanna face my fears
At times, I wish to escape from reality and avoid confronting the challenges that lie ahead.

I wanna do my best, but... I don't know what's next yet, I just need a reset
I am committed to doing my best but am unsure of what my next steps are. At times, it feels like a fresh start is needed to move forward.

I just wanna be something, I just wanna change your life, I just wanna do it right
I am striving to make a positive impact on the world and in the lives of those around me by doing what is right.

Everything I wanna do, Everything I wanna be, I see it all happen for me, I find it hard to believe, Finding it harder to breathe
Although I have a clear vision for what I want in life, it seems distant and hard to achieve. This is overwhelming and makes it hard to breathe.

I just wanna feel complete, Why do I not feel complete?, Oh, I know that is on me, You all gave me everything
Despite having a supportive network and seemingly everything I need to be content and fulfilled, I still feel incomplete. I recognize that this may be a personal issue to overcome.

Need some time to recollect myself, please don't forget me, When I disappear next week, I hope you can forgive me
I need some time to reflect and find myself. I hope my loved ones can understand my need for space and forgiveness for any hurt that might cause.

I don't wanna disappear, I just wanna stay right here, Moving is my greatest fear, Maybe I should disappear
While I may have moments of wanting to escape and be away from it all, ultimately I want to remain grounded where I'm at- even though change and uncertainty terrify me.