Falling Apart
Essense Lyrics

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I’m sorry I’ve just not been myself lately
I'm sorry
I’m tired of thinking
My heart has been speaking
These terrible words
I should not be believing
I can’t trust myself
And my will is receding

Wish I could be there for you
I hope there’s a spot left
For me up in heaven
I’ve heard it gets better
But this seems unending
Love’s always a question
I can’t stop repenting
Wish I could be there for you
And I’ll tuck your hair behind your ear
But I keep falling apart
I can’t keep drying tears
I’ve got a life sentence
For loveless rejection
I’ll pop everything in the kitchen expecting
To wake up tomorrow completely forgetting
The pain that I’ve caused you
Don’t know how to hold you
I’m falling apart to
The thought of you walking away
I forgot to
Tell you that I’m sorry
It’s killing me softly
Wish I could be there for you
I could be there for you
I could be there for you

I could be there for you
I could be there for you

Overall Meaning

In "Falling Apart" by Essense, the singer expresses regret and sorrow for not being their true self lately. They are tired of overthinking and listening to negative thoughts that they should not believe. They feel they cannot trust themselves and their will is weakening. The singer expresses their love for someone and wishes they could be there for them. They hope there is a spot for them in heaven as they have heard it gets better there. The singer keeps falling apart and cannot stop the tears from falling. They feel they have a life sentence for loveless rejection and self-destructive behavior. The pain that they have caused the one they love is causing them immense guilt and they are falling apart at the thought of the other person walking away. The singer shares that it is killing them softly and they wish they could be there for the person they love.

The lyrics speak to the struggles of dealing with depression, self-doubt, and a lack of trust in oneself. The singer feels their negative thoughts are causing them to self-sabotage and hurt those who care for them. They express a desire for forgiveness and to be there for the person they had hurt. The repetition of "I'm sorry" and "Wish I could be there for you" emphasizes the singer's regret for their actions and their longing for redemption.

Line by Line Meaning

I’m sorry I’ve just not been myself lately
I apologize for my recent behavior and attitude, which is different from my usual self.

I’m tired of thinking
I am exhausted from constantly overthinking and analyzing things.

My heart has been speaking
My emotions have been guiding me more than my rational thoughts.

These terrible words I should not be believing
I am struggling with negative self-talk and trying to control my thoughts.

I can’t trust myself and my will is receding
I am losing faith in myself and my ability to control my actions and decisions.

Wish I could be there for you, I hope there’s a spot left for me up in heaven
I regret not being the support you need and I hope there will still be a chance for me to make up for it in the afterlife.

I’ve heard it gets better but this seems unending
I have been told that things will improve, but it feels like my struggle will never end.

Love’s always a question, I can’t stop repenting
I am unsure about love and constantly regretting my past actions and decisions.

And I’ll tuck your hair behind your ear, but I keep falling apart
I can still show small acts of affection towards you, but I am still struggling internally.

I can’t keep drying tears, I’ve got a life sentence for loveless rejection
I am tired of comforting you and I feel trapped in a cycle of unrequited love.

I’ll pop everything in the kitchen expecting, to wake up tomorrow completely forgetting the pain that I’ve caused you
I will try anything and everything to forget the mistakes I have made and the pain I have caused you.

Don’t know how to hold you, I’m falling apart too
I am having difficulty being there for you because I am also struggling and falling apart.

The thought of you walking away, I forgot to tell you that I’m sorry
The idea of losing you is unbearable and I realize that I have not apologized enough for my actions.

It’s killing me softly, wish I could be there for you
The pain and guilt are overwhelming, and I wish I could be a better support system for you.

I could be there for you (repeated four times)
I want to reassure you that I will try my best to be there for you and make it right.

Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Thomas Reid

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