Malediction
Extortionist feat. Adam Warren Lyrics
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Gambling with death,
waiting for the day that I'll never wake up again.
Swallowed everything that stood in my way.
Just to relieve myself of the pain.
For just a moment of escape.
Until my eyes faded to black and I couldn't see straight.
Tossed my morals in the dirt just to forget every time i've been hurt
But it only made everything worse.
This addiction is a curse.
I wont deny that this addiction was my choice.
But now I find myself wishing i was blind.
So that I would have an excuse as to why.
I cant look my. I cant look my own mother in her eyes.
I cant look my own mother in her eyes.
Surround yourself with these demons.
The start of the census.
Forget this life and escape.
Relapse to a familiar plane.
Return to regression.
Is this substance a god-send?
Alive, but cannot feel the pain.
Is this substance a god-send?
My consciousness has fallen behind.
Look into my eyes.
I'm everything I once despised.
No I'm drowning in these fucking cold sweats.
Let my eyes fade to black and let darkness commence.
Let my eyes fade to black.
The lyrics to Extortionist feat. Adam Warren's song "Malediction" delve into the dark world of addiction, specifically substance abuse and the toll it takes on the individual's mental, emotional, and physical well-being. The verses speak to the desperation and hopelessness that comes with addiction, where every day becomes a bet against one's own life, and the individual is left gambling with death, waiting for the day that they will never wake up again. The lyrics also highlight the destructive behavior of the addict, where they swallow everything in their path just to relieve themselves of the pain, and for a moment of escape, until their eyes fade to black and they can no longer see straight.
The chorus then speaks to the regret that comes with addiction, where the individual has given up their worth, tossed their morals in the dirt just to forget the times they've been hurt, but it only made everything worse. The addiction is then referred to as a curse, highlighting how it can take over one's entire life, and even though the individual chose to fall into the trap of addiction, they now find themselves wishing they were blind to have an excuse as to why they can't look their own mother in the eyes.
The bridge then speaks to the cyclical nature of addiction, where the individual surrounds themselves with their demons, forgets their life and escapes, only to relapse into a familiar plane, and return to regression. The last line of the song, "Let my eyes fade to black," repeats the idea of giving up and succumbing to the addiction, where the individual is asking for the darkness to commence.
Line by Line Meaning
Every day was a bet that I made against my own life.
I was constantly playing with the risk of dying, taking chances on my own life every single day.
Gambling with death, waiting for the day that I'll never wake up again.
I would gamble with death, knowing that one day I might never be able to wake up again.
Swallowed everything that stood in my way.
I would consume anything that could bring me a moment of relief, even if it meant pushing everything else aside.
Just to relieve myself of the pain.
I would consume whatever could numb my pain, without thinking about the consequences.
For just a moment of escape. Until my eyes faded to black and I couldn't see straight.
I would do anything, even if it gave me just a momentary escape from reality, until I couldn't see straight anymore.
I gave up my worth. Tossed my morals in the dirt just to forget every time i've been hurt
I disregarded my self-worth and violated my own morals to escape from the pain of my past experiences.
But it only made everything worse. This addiction is a curse.
My attempts to forget and escape from my problems only made things worse, and now I'm weighed down by this curse of addiction.
I wont deny that this addiction was my choice.
I acknowledge that getting addicted was a result of my own choices.
But now I find myself wishing i was blind.
I wish I was blind so I could have an excuse for not being able to look my own mother in the eyes.
So that I would have an excuse as to why. I cant look my. I cant look my own mother in her eyes.
I don't have a valid excuse for not being able to face my mother and my guilt makes it difficult for me to make eye contact with her.
Surround yourself with these demons. The start of the census.
Being surrounded by these addictive substances is comparable to living with demons, which is the start of my downfall.
Forget this life and escape. Relapse to a familiar plane. Return to regression.
I chose to forget about reality and immerse myself in the familiar world of addiction, thereby regressing.
Is this substance a god-send? Alive, but cannot feel the pain.
The addictive substance seems like a life saver but it numbs my senses to an extent that I lose touch with reality.
My consciousness has fallen behind. Look into my eyes. I'm everything I once despised.
My consciousness is deteriorating, and I see everything I used to despise when I look at myself in the mirror.
No I'm drowning in these fucking cold sweats. Let my eyes fade to black and let darkness commence.
I am trapped in this cycle of addiction, and I am drowning in cold sweats. I want to close my eyes and go into the abyss of darkness.
Let my eyes fade to black.
All I want is to close my eyes and fade into the darkness, to escape from my current reality.
Contributed by Taylor D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@derekklem5418
I keep sharing this on Facebook because it's so damn good. I don't see how more people aren't watching this.
@leechesbaby
My fav Extortionist track
@KevDubs
Simply beautiful
@neverbloom8405
Sick! Hope there's a new album coming.
@ticklemeconnor7976
I love the vocal style at 1:11-1:27 but none of extortionist's other music seems to incorporate it. Anyone know of any other bands that have similar vocal styles to that?
@MurmziiTV
Distinguisher
@randomyoutubenickname
Knocked loose
@haytionette
sikth
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@ElectricGlacier
3:03 "Now I'm drowning in these fucking Corn Flakes"