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F.O ft. Dim4ou Lyrics

My daddy was a fat man and his belt was long
My father was an abusive man who would beat me with his belt, despite his size.

I swear he beat me like a redheaded child
The physical abuse I experienced as a child was severe and unwarranted, leaving me traumatized.

He was always out drinking while momma was alive
My father was consistently neglectful and left my mother to deal with the consequences.

He beat her until she had to die
The abuse my father inflicted on my mother was fatal, leading to her untimely death.

This is the way back home
Returning to the place where I experienced trauma is a necessary step in confronting my past.

For many years I have roamed
My life has been characterized by aimless wandering, searching for a sense of purpose and belonging.

I've been behind a gun to long
Violence has been a constant in my life, leaving me feeling trapped and unable to escape its cycle.

I keep seeing my baby's face
The memory of my child fuels my desire to break free from the cycle of violence and build a better life.

After me like a rattlesnake
My past mistakes follow me like a dangerous predator, ready to strike at any moment.

A big, big, big, big rattlesnake
The danger I face is significant and cannot be ignored or underestimated.

The sheriff's got my gun and I'm back out on the run
I am once again on the run from authorities, having been caught for my past actions.

20 years without bail is where I might end up
My crimes may lead to a lengthy prison sentence without the possibility of bail.

And so I say to you if, darling, you be true
If you can truly accept and love me despite my past mistakes, then we may have a chance at a future together.

You've never seen this face before
I am not the person I once was and am actively trying to change my ways.

You've never known this killer was born
My past actions do not define me and I am capable of becoming a better person.

I waited in the tumbleweed for him to come on home
I planned to confront my abusive father and take matters into my own hands.

I waited with my double barrel, I would have to stand alone
I knew I would have to face my father alone and was prepared to do whatever it took to protect myself and seek justice.

I was whistling like the devil in heat when I hear him drawing near
My fear and anger were palpable as I prepared to confront my father.

I shot my daddy, and I ran like hell
I finally took action and confronted my abuser, but had to flee the scene to avoid the consequences.

Some people might feel remorse and have to take it up with god
Despite what some may think, I have no regrets about taking action against my abusive father and am at peace with my actions.

I'm proud to have killed my daddy, hell, I could kill any or yours
I am unapologetic about my actions and would do whatever it takes to protect myself and my loved ones.

But those days are behind me now, trampled in the dirt
I am actively working towards a better life and leaving my violent past behind me.

Like memories washed ashore, like clams on the floor
My past is a distant memory, like discarded objects washed ashore or left forgotten on the ground.