Darko
GR7FF Lyrics

Yeah she kinda sounds funny but I like it
Her unusual voice may be unconventional, but I find it endearing and charming.

I say I love her to myself but then I wipe it
I express feelings of love for her privately, only to negate those emotions afterwards.

I tell her everything I want to when I type it
My true feelings and thoughts pour out when I communicate with her through writing.

To me
These emotions are significant and impactful to my own personal experience.

Nothing sounds better than her voice in my ear
Her voice brings me comfort and joy like nothing else can.

But she ain't been around since June of last year
She has been absent from my life for a considerable amount of time.

So now nothing sounds better than not being here
Being away from the situation brings a sense of relief and calm.

And I ain't mean in this classroom, I mean what they fear
My feelings of unease and insecurity go beyond just the current physical space.

'Cause I don't wanna wake up in the morning
The thought of starting a new day fills me with dread and apprehension.

And then I don't wanna get up out of bed
The idea of facing the world and its challenges feels overwhelming and exhausting.

And then I don't wanna tell myself I'm happy when I'm not
Pretending to be content and joyful when I'm really not is draining and disheartening.

And make a smile on my face when all the dread
Forcing a smile to hide the constant inner turmoil and anxiety takes a toll on me.

Just keeps on coming to my body for no reason
The feelings of negativity and despair seem to consume me without a clear cause.

I think serotonin is a little secret that
The chemical balance in my brain may be a hidden factor in my emotional struggles.

The world is keeping from me, all these girls that call me buddy
I feel isolated and overlooked by those around me, only seen as a friend rather than something more.

But then act like it's all love on certain weekends
The inconsistency in how I am treated leaves me feeling confused and unfulfilled.

Every autumn I don't wanna be alive
As the season changes, my desire for existence diminishes and I struggle with feelings of hopelessness.

And I can't tell you why I feel this way inside (Oh)
I am unable to fully comprehend or articulate the deep emotions that plague my inner self.

And every day I fear that there will come a time (There will come—)
The constant worry and anxiety about a potential turning point or downfall looms over me every day.

When I screw up, spend too much time inside (When I screw up, spend too much time in—)
The fear of making mistakes and isolating myself by withdrawing further into my own thoughts.

I wrote a song about a girl and then she ghosts me
I poured my emotions into a song about a girl who ultimately disappears from my life without explanation.

All I ever wanted was for her to want to hold me
My deepest desire was for her to reciprocate my need for affection and comfort.

I keep on feeling lost when i just keep on feeling lonely
The sense of aimlessness and confusion persists as I battle feelings of isolation and emptiness.

Yeah I feel like Donnie Darko
I resonate with the character of Donnie Darko, feeling lost and adrift in a confusing world.

I've been wandering in circles
My journey through life feels repetitive and cyclical, leading me nowhere.

Tryna figure out my life in these chains (In these chains)
Attempting to understand and navigate my existence while feeling trapped by circumstances beyond my control.

'Cause I ain't looking for an answer
I am not searching for a solution or resolution to my inner turmoil.

I'm still looking for a question
Instead, I grapple with finding the right question that encapsulates my struggles and uncertainties.

That is worthy of a thought in my brain (In my brain)
Seeking a profound and meaningful inquiry that can occupy my mind and offer some clarity.

'Cause I'm lost, I'm not found
I feel adrift and disconnected, unable to locate a sense of purpose or direction.

I've been coughing up sounds
My attempts at self-expression feel strained and forced, lacking authenticity and depth.

I'm too sick for these rappers and fools (Ugh, ugh, agh)
I feel alienated and distant from the superficiality and shallowness of those around me.

I'm a wandering soul, I'm a pondering soul
My spirit roams aimlessly, contemplating the deeper questions of existence.

But I'm kicking the dust off my boots
Despite my struggles, I am determined to shake off the weight of my burdens and move forward.

Every autumn I don't wanna be alive (No, I wanna be six feet down)
The changing of the seasons triggers a desire to escape existence entirely, desiring release from the burdens of life.

And I can't tell you why I feel this way inside (Oh)
The inability to articulate or rationalize the deep emotions and turmoil within my inner self.

And every day I fear that there will come a time
The constant dread and apprehension that a tipping point or moment of crisis will arrive.

When I screw up, spend too much time inside (When I screw up, spend too much time inside)
The fear of making mistakes or exacerbating my isolation by withdrawing further into my own thoughts and feelings.

Woah
An expression of inner turmoil and emotional distress.

Yeah, oh
Acknowledging the complexity and depth of my own emotions and struggles.

Woah, oh, ooh
An outpouring of emotional intensity and vulnerability.

Oh, oh
An expression of inner pain and suffering.

I'd rather be dead, I'd rather be dead
The desire for release and escape from the torment of existence, longing for cessation.